Jumbled up

when i read my previous posts...my English sounds so weird...owh well...perhaps the assignments bits of pieces really making my mind a bit intense~

longing for a sole weekend?

Its a bit irritating when you're indecisive with something - in this case my weekend. I remembered telling Naida that I really want some of our friends coming over during last weekend and wait, i did twitted that too when i was at azrin's place last two weekends lol. But then after realizing I have an essay due today, I changed my mind preferring to have the weekend all to myself. Little did I realize that a close mate of mine interested to go to Liverpool...and there you go, my wish came true ;p I am happy though since spending weekend with friends is a great thing to do..you feel the weekend as if its like more than saturday and sunday X)

Azrin came over late at night...good thing there's a cab late night...I think he arrived our home around 1am?I think..and he went back to Leeds at 10.15pm from Liverpool...beat that boy...he is so far the 'late-returner' among all our guests - 10.15pm...awesome lol...who can ever beat that in the near future eyh? X) but its great...ada lagi barang-barang nya ketinggalan.

I think I have enough of 'unsole' weekend..perhaps this weekend i can just rest at home and do some assignment bits or just play games and watch some movies~A sole weekend...last time i had one was first week of November X)

Cleaning the house

Sedimentary Processes & Environment's Practical book due date is today at 12pm this afternoon~Glad I managed to finish it but not that good though..Im not confident with some especially my synthesis parts =/ I am so worried. Plus we have this so called Evaluation assessment as well...saja pulang ku bagi such name hehe...its actually where you have to EVALUATE your own work and give some marks on each of the practical sessions - Like Portland/Purbeck Practical, would you rate on the work you done on it as first class, 2-1 or 2-2..and so forth. To be honest, Im not good at such kind of thing as I have low self-confidence at times~but what to do..lambat-laun there will be times I have to do such things jua kan..so yeah..I tried to do it jua..Our lecturer emailed us that we have to justify ourselves why we give certain marks as they are..so yeah..reasonings and all that..be prepared to "debate" tah gayanya ni huhu~


Anyways, i already planned to tidy up my room today as well as cleaning the house a bit. Done the vacuum part..next would be the toilet when I take shower later at night...fewh its so tiring...but its worth it as the living room's now more cleaner than last few weeks lol..Must be my mother who disciplined us to such things..but im so plain lazy..so I will wait my rage towards the dirty bits erupts and KABOOM! cleaning time...when you think of it, cleaning stuffs can act as a theraphy too..No?

I will have my dinner later and probably procedes to my next assignment - Essay on "Forceful Crystallisation" and asked dad about how to write essay so i definitely going to use dad's guide..ilalliqa readers! =)

There are times things would force you to "evolve"

A HUGE assignment has been "thrown" at us this week and seriously...to be honest, im not really confident with it, I will try babah's tips though. But I just want to let out certain stuffs here just to make sure some bits of it wont affect me that much few days later. There are times that you expect some people who are close with you to help you with some bits of pieces. So you approached them and asked them a favour or two. To your findings, they cant help you and you cant blame them for their unwillingness. They have reasons. Yes, i can be irritated with such things especially when I see them as "simple" and not that too serious. But that would be selfish of right? yeah its not serious for me but what about others? People dont think the same thing all the time right?

I just have to swallow this thing slowly..you know like a python..except it takes me more than 24 hours to swallow my "victim" lol X) anyways..i guess its about time I depend on myself and "spank" my inner self so that i gain more confidence on doing this assignment. Its true that you feel frustrated and down after realizing that some people would just step away from helping you but hey, look on the brighter side..you become more independent and more err...stop relying on your colleagues? I can just approach my lecturers straight off if I have problems right? And ask my attachment supervisors for more concrete advices regarding this assignment.

Out of Liverpool

Stressed with current workloads, I really need to get out of Liverpool at times hence I decided to go to Leeds during this weekend. Arrived here last night via coach which got delayed making my journey to be approximately 3 hours. As a result, my head felt a bit awkward. Im not alone though. A mate from Sheffield joined me in staying over at a mate's place here. I even brought along my assignments =.=" I just dont like feeling panic once i get my feet back in Liverpool realizing that I have an assignment due this tuesday!

This week's kinda relaxing for me and i tend to slack off. But i think its alright since last two weeks were kinda hectic for me. Since i wont be going anywhere next weekend, hopefully I have some time to go to the city for window shopping. I just stayed at home for the whole weekend last week. I dont mind if some of my friends are coming over to stay at my place though as I have my sediments practical book due this thursday and there are tons of things to do. Yet, I have an essay assignment due next next monday =.=" Im alone in my mate's room right now, both of them went out to jog to somewhere. I am so lazy to join in given the fact that I dont have the mood to do so cuz im planning to do some bits of my assignments later.

A confession : I like you =) I think!

Finally remembered to watch Nona at TV3 online just to see "her". I have to admit im not good with dealing matters related to feelings & girls. Yes I can express my feelings to my friends - tell them i dont like or like about things they do but girls? I mean girls that you would consider to know 'deeper', totally not my thing. But, on second thought Im just glad for that for certain reasons actually. I cant avoid from develop some feelings towards "gadis-gadis". Its just how nature works I guess that's why dilarang untuk melampaui batas I guess.

Before, I always believed that I can harden myself from developing any "suka-suka" but I think its too late to realize that its an undeniable fact that I started to develop perasaan towards a girl whom right now I want to keep in touch so bad. But I would prefer things would stay the way they are right now. I dont want to have a relationship. I prefer to be engaged directly instead. You know, Taaruf =) Im very serious about it. Hopefully. I realized too that Im liking the wrong person. Yes, I have her picture in my laptop and I still have her easi number. Im going to delete both soon. I actually mentioned deleting the picture in twitter a day or two ago but I still havent done so. pfffttt =.=" I have to be strong. Wait, I only have her picture in my lappy..ONE..and just her =) so yeah dont get me wrong here (if let say you are hee)

So im going to move on and just forget about the stuffs that happened between us from now on. I dont mind us keeping the silaturrahim intact but I dont want anything to do with her that related to feelings anymore. "I miss you" is just an easy thing to say in the phone and type in the texts but how about in action? I am so glad that I was ego eventhough now Im the one who's in trouble..yikes..my bad..pelik ah..I think that's why certain things they say "datang tanpa diundang"? complex than how 7.5m of tidal range is a characteristic feature of tide-dominated coastline =s

Alright, officially I want to end the bits of pieces between me and her with this song =) semoga silaturrahim masih terjalin.

Super Intense Week

Im currently in week 6 which is the week of peak stress for this semester. The deadline for the poster slide of Crosby Beach has been postphoned to...TODAY and exploration geophysics assessment's deadline is today too...as a result, i had to do the assessment till late night and now im feeling a bit tired. Will try to sleep early tonight..hopefully. Im not planning to travel this weekend cuz i think i should have my own weekend here, you know, strolling around the city and grab myself some millie's cookies or even trying out the new milkshake at Keys court...yummy, and its vegetarian too, super awesome :D

anyways the presentation's tomorrow and we havent decided who's gonna talk on bits of pieces yet. Coreldraw dues this friday too, ergh.

Brunotts Raya 09 & Siblings gathering at Leicester

Alright, havent been blogging ever since i've been doing my CorelDraw work?

anyways, Went to Nottingham to attend the Raya celebration there. Alep's invited me and I had been thinking that its better for me to there early rather than in november or december where the sun will disappear EARLY. Same goes to Leicester. So I've been spending a lot in travelling given the fact that i had purchased 3 tickets to Nottingham! dont want to dwell into that matter...I have reasons >,< CARELESS ME

Brunotts Raya was great. Didnt get so lucky to win anything though but I felt its kind of stress theraphy =) which is great cuz I've been stressful because of the CorelDraw. Didnt stay at Alep's though as I was staying over at my sister's for the whole weekend. Sunday's the day i got to explore Lester's city. My brother even went to Lester that day so we had a siblings gathering lol..though i have to say its a quick one since my train's 2pm so i had to rush. Fortunately the train station isnt that far from my sister's hall so i could walk there alone.