well now it's 11.46pm and i am actually blogging this in my brother's living room i mean their living room. Spending the new year eve in Manchester instead..the other brumanch-ians are waiting for the countdown right now at the city i guess. Others(including me) decided to just spend the rest of our 2010 at our home. But here you go, singstar-ing.
Putting that aside, let's move on to something more serious. Today i have been feeling weird. I know i have reached the age where i am seeking partner(i am not a homosexual just to be on safe side) as i fear some of my readers might be - just to be cautious :) please dont take this to heart my friends. I have sent a text message to her easi number asking you know..just to make sure whether she's still using the number. But apparently still no reply. So i think this is one of the signs that i should just really really get over it.
On the other hand, i have came up with a possible hypothesis..eseh, hypothesis wah? oh man really miss blogging..been tweeting alot these days!
right , the hypothesis, perhaps i am just experiencing the kind of withdrawal symptoms?you know i have my own activities back in Liverpool - cooking dinner, working out, chat with 'kaka', cleaning up the kitchen a bit and perhaps doing some work too. But because of the holiday, i think i tend to feel more empty which is normal to be honest and you start to miss your bestfriends, friends, and family too. Since i'm in my third year now, the homesick doesnt hurt that much like previous years, Alhamdulillah.
Now because of the so called adapting to a whole different routine..that's why i am feeling a bit awkward hence started to you know, 'dive' into my past lovelives...with capital S..yes, not a player but i have involved with more than A girl =S and while i was here, the 'gatal' feelings are there but i think it's just normal considering that I'm just a normal guy. Moonlight there was a malaysian girl i was interested and other cases, well i prefer not to talk about them :)
Well there you go, i wish i could just apologise to her and talking nice to her since i was acting very cold..i think coldest ever =S that was in 2009 though until she gave up. I think i have grown up a bit to the extent i started to consider others' feelings at times especially girls. Virtual means is too a thing that i am not good with. Yes, i can be okay with strangers but not female strangers till the point i had to tell to one of my opposite gender friend that "sorry i'm not good with girls" apart from just to draw a boundary between us both.
So do i feel the desire that we could just keeping in touch with each other? well it depends, a part of me says yes...while the other half..vice versa..but i have realised one thing i was a jerk. Wallahualam :) i hope i didnt hurt her feelings like few others before. If I had hurt you, my reader..let say we had been involved with this lovey-dovey thing, i beg you for forgiveness =)
