The wrong time???or are 'they' just signs for me??

Im using my close friend's laptop right now..aka 'si chungko'..well im at Leeds now..chungko's not around cuz he got something important to do..

Tonight is kinda too much to me..honestly..yeah~im totally have this sort of mixed feelings...beyond words..well i'll try to explain them here..

First of all, I felt bad..hmm.no no..its Im FEELING bad for chungko now..cuz I decided not to play bowling tonight~my mate here seldom has the time to mingle with his other mates here..then I realized that I made the wrong decision to say 'shall we go home now??' But I felt the family aura at Khairul's house before that..that was enough for me actually =') the family thing is what im looking for...although its selfish of me if langsung inda mau join drg hangout...well..i went to see them bowling though..still..Im feeling guilty to Chungko..sorry mate~labih2 lagi kalau kawan rapat..i feel so bad actually..you know when your pal buat expression..you can tell actually ur close friend macam ada something but preferred not to tell us..its urm..makes me feel uneasy about it you know..

Secondly, you can say im jahat for sneaking at msn windows kawan aku ane..and kinda like 7 or 6 windows with texts that my mate didnt manage to reply..so Im feeling guilty + bad actually..before ane aku soemtimes texts em...sometimes bereply so i thought he was free or something..but now entah ah..I kinda realized something...'jangantah malar ngacau urg ane..bagi space sikit lol' well something like that ;) well close friends mean so much for me actually..but if im doing something like majal kan minta reply texts in the end no time for my fren to layan other people..then I would rather not text...occasionally only..

Third one, when both of us were on our way to chungko's house, we came across a drunk guy or two drunk guys...well one of them was trying to hit the other's head with a glass bottle if im not mistaken!!! SERIOUSLY...I have to admit its my first time seeing something like that..so unpleasant~

Fourth one, I seriously dont like this at all~a guy was hit by a car..which happened right in front of us...it was actually around 20 metres ahead of us..I heard the sound and quickly turned my head to the source of the sound and there..a body was laying down...and what I heard from chungko's housemate, they are still there trying to help the poor guy..I am optimist that he survives that accident...I BELIEVE~

Fifth one, chungko's cousin telephoned that his/her laptop was stolen...so chungko has to go there since the police had not come..I think the police is already there by this time pulang..

The Final one would be me, questioning myself..Do I come to Leeds at the wrong time???or were all of those(the drunk guy, accident and thieves) are just signs??

You dont understand by 'signs'???Actually, sometimes I would think how nice it would be living in a house in UK and having all housemates who are of same nationality with you...you're happy and everyone's happy..

Not all dramas end with happy ending...meaning I was not bersyukur with what I have in Liverpool..wondering itu wondering ini..but now..I realized something..Liverpool is the right place for me..although I hardly see big trees alligning the streets there..But with what I have there right now really are God's gifts =') I was so stupid wondering what If im at Leeds with my other geologists mates there....what if im at Sheffield studying there...I WASNT grateful...I thougth I made the wrong choice...but when Im think of it right now...yes I made the correct decision to study there..its just that mata dan hatiku tidak terbuka...Syukur Alhamdulillah Ya Rabbi =')

p/s:I think this post is somehow ada similarity to one of my previous post..looks like i sometimes easily shaken huh?