Our Circle's gathering

Just like last year, there was a gathering held at a restaurant for a circle of smsonians where most of us belonged to either the PS crews or the girls' tzar. I am stamped by the first one though.

This year, its the same venue - wywy Tutong. Sungkai buffet is affordable there and what's more important, its worth the $5 as you're not required to order any side drinks. The gathering was great though i had to leave early before 7.30pm so i didnt talk much to those who attended the gathering but managed to get myself squeezed in some of the pictures taken X)

There will be another gathering for me next tuesday too. Its what i call 'fayyadh reunion' though there will only be four of us - psst..dont get the wrong idea, we have reasons why there are four of us only :)

Cousins are foreva

It feels so great that whenever a misunderstanding which lingered in your life for quite some time is resolved. I had this misunderstanding with a mate of mine who's also related to me. Good thing it has been fixed. We're cool now ;)

Lets just neglect what the hassle was about. Its right to say it was me who understood certain things. I text to the wrong number. So i didnt receive any replies which i thought the other party was reluctant to bother replying to my SMS. Thus, i just let it be thinking that i would just leave it like that for the time being. Just glad its settled now. Cousins mousins, do you agree?

Coming out of the office

At times you would wonder why certain things are just thrown mercilessly at your face forcing you to just swallow and gobble them up. Every last bit. Not even leaving a single trace.

Sounds 'pajal-ed' right? I was just glad that I went to the outcrops on thursday. I believe i was too constraining myself at my desk to finish off the project. As a result, stress and moody are my best mates. Looks like i cant lie properly. Im a person full of expressions. Even my supervisor knew i was moody. Looks like i cant pretend im okay whenever i have something disturbing in my mind. I would just show it via expression instead. Thats the way i am me guess =)

Talking about the HLP on Wednesday, it was really great!

An Unexpected consequence

I just read an email from my supervisor about the TSG fieldtrip this morning. Quite shocked actually. There were two empty slots for that trip. Just enough for both of us - me & ks. I am reluctant actually. Even asked my supervisor whether it's compulsory or not. Yes we must join along. I was planning to continue with our project. Didnt predict such thing would happen.

I was reluctant with participating with our department's HLP too by the way. Too much enthusiasm with finishing the project? Not quite.

But i am glad that i joined it. I think me being moody these few days could also be the fact that i am
Stressed out with work. Too constrained in the work place. Now i kinda feel great. Not sure with later though. I can be unpredictable at times when it comes to this mood thing.

Owh well, tomorrow's the trip. Hope to see some trace fossils. Perhaps some skolithos, cruziana and zoophycus?

Entah

I was listening to this song titled "Entah" by Afghan and suddenly my eyes go watery out of the blues. Its so funny but yeah it happened.

Anyways, i managed to contact the person that i have rejected before. Feels great actually. Just unsure why i am happy everytime i receive a reply from the text i sent. Apparently i think that person has given up on me. I am okay though. I prefer to take it easy. You know, being friends and who knows if the two of you match with each other then go for that thing. I guess its still too early for me.

Its great that the silaturrahim is still there though =)

Alone or not alone?

Sometimes you would feel down. You decided to talk less and socialize less. During that time you would feel you're a loner. Yes, you walk in the dark alone. Crying wouldnt make a change either. You're free to hop around the grassland, but still you're alone. In some cases, that is not true. You wouldnt realize that you're actually alone till you're feeling so desperate.

I thought i was alone. But no..i was wrong. There ARE people who actually kinda if not fully understand my problem. And mate, you know who you are. Thanks so much for those words and reminders as well. You reminded me about hikmah. For that, i am truly grateful my friend =)

Mood = KaBoom!

There are times that you just cant sleep at night despite the fact that your body is so tired. I am just annoyed with myself today. Even tonight. Even hearing my housemates talking inside and outside my room is like a pain in the ear. I know this is so harsh of me. But i just feel so unstable today. As a result, i prefer to be less talkative than usual. Even i am confused with myself right now. Maybe i am worried about my work too. So yeah..so irritating isnt it?

I dont think talking to people would make feel better. Perhaps blogging can do the job dont you think so?

Bbq night at H14

I didnt expect such event would mean a lot to me tonight. Really, i even didnt act according to the schedule that i had planned before - 10pm stop it and get ready for bed. Probably that i knew the juniors are required to be at OGDC by 10am instead of us the seniors by 8am. Anyways, i didnt expect myself to have some fun tonight. It was great. Its 12 midnight-ish right now so i decided to call it a night around 11.30pm. Plus I had to take a shower before going to bed too.

Okay,enough about that..the bbq was really great. Yumnie's PS3 is making tonight's bbq more err bombastic hehe. I played Mortal Kombat..i just love fighting games, even won some rounds and it was great to beat your colleagues couple of rounds in Mortal Kombat X)

My last year attachment's supervisor is here too. Even my petroleum engineer 2nd sepupu was here. Great stuffs. Even now they are still singstar-ing lol. I am so tired, would prefer to lay on bed for now then will try to sleep amidst the happy noises lol.

I was not into this bbq but turned out that i like it all along. Its really cool. I just had one problem. My appetite. I just didnt have big appetite. Not sure with the problem though. Alright i must off to bed then. Zzz

Divided among two

*At Berakas forest reserve*Here I am, sitting on a 'pondok' attending bruleeds bbq at Berakas. I was invited by a friend though so i am acting as a guest here. I am fine. Just a bit tired i guest. This year's attachment sure is tiring. But that's not the main point that i want to emphasize in this post.

There are times in life that you have to choose between two. Both are important. Both need you to think for err quite some time? Nevertheless you need to choose ONE. Only one. Even you wanna buy wii console so bad, despite your cats' frieskies ran out of stock, you wanna run till you stop and say "ngaleh ku eh".


*at home now*Okay, labih jua saya tu. Anyways, it depends on myself whether to go here or to go there. If there are no obligations in each of those two, then i am free to choose whichever i want. If some people ask me, then i would just tell them honestly why i chose the other one over another one. Sounds Complicated tah pulang yea?

I just realized that sometimes certain things are not i expected they would be. I would just deduce things from the past and just apply them in present situation which is wrong. Many things are not static. They do change. I am changing. Ergh, i am so confused right now. Maybe it was my bad of not trying to involve myself that many. Perhaps i didnt feel obligated compared to the situations when i am surrounded by my 'own orang'. Or perhaps i was being too quiet. What's important is that i learned certain things with my very own eyes. This is enough Azree. I think i am just not too strong when it comes to facing two things which are equally the same or maybe i was expecting too much in the one that i chose X)

Its about Twitter

I think i am addicted to twitter now. But that's not a problem. In fact i am fine about it. Its just that I am unsure whether the REAL twitter actually fits me or not. Twitter basically from my own perspective is to update your circle with your current activities or events and might as well what you're feeling at that instance. So from there, I know what my friends are doing. To simplify it, i would know other people's stuffs. Sometimes i would feel myself being too nosy with other people's lives. I would feel annoyed at times. I think its just not me.

In some cases, i think i dont have the actual privacy that i desire for in twitter as many people would also know what i am putting there. So I decided to make new twitter account just to indulge my seasonal privacy-preferred periods. This doesnt mean I am abandoning my current account. I will still be using it but not that actively though.

I welcome all to follow my new twitter account but i have to warn that i might not follow people or even my followers. I apologize for this matter. Maybe i need some privacy at times =)

Family Occasions

Family occasions took almost the rest of the day but its worth it ;)

Had lunch at Capers and decided to go for buffet. It was really great. Tried some of the pastas and pizzas. Carbonara was really a blast! I LOVE it!

Went straight to HuaHo Tanjung Bunut just to checkout some stuffs. Dad brought me and my brother to the men's section to check on some clothes. Didnt buy some. Plus wouldnt be of pretty much use to me too.

There's tahlil arwah at Kapok - Uncle Samad's house. Too bad we came late. People had already finished eating. I felt so embarrassed! And i Mean it HAHA but it was okay though.