Pinned down

I am feeling so down right now. I feel like I have thrown myself into a land filled with goodies at first but later, I am surrounded by ferocious beasts ready to chew me and tear my pieces apart. I even reached to the point of telling myself that it is a big mistake to involve myself with Geology and studying it in a University of my choice. Even worse, I reached the point where I start to visualize the "what if.." which is bad as Islam discourages one to do that. Another crazy imagination of mine is that Im not longer involving myself with the current things. You know, what if I am sponsored by different sponsorship.

Its not about the study. I am fine with the stress periods and all. Its just about something. Yeah something. Which i think I could not say it loud to the public. I am sorry. But I just want to let this out. Yeah saying this loud to people face to face would be more effective but the problem is that will there be many individuals who understand the situation i am in right now?

Its like a mate of mine may feel down at times but in reality I cannot feel the same just like what he or she feels at that instant moment. Rather than just saying it loud to every friends that i can get hold of and distract. Its better to let this out in my blog instead. Its like talking to myself. Me who really understands what Azree is feeling right now. I can just hope and pray for now. Being too rebellious would make my situation much more worst. Thus, I am pinned down right now. I am sorry if some of my colleagues noticed that I am moody or being quiet today. Now you know right. Thanks.