Deceived by a 'maiden'

I can be too sensitive and pessimistic at the same time. So various thoughts can just popping in and out at a time - positivo & negativo.

Perhaps I am just influenced by the taiwanese series that I am currently straining my eyes on - Miss No Good. I have a feeling that my situation was a bit similar to some bits of pieces in that series. Tang Men is a guy who's in denial that he has developed feelings for Xiao Hua. Well, he even tried to remove the thought. I havent reach the final episode yet but maybe Tang Men will end up being with Xiao Hua instead.

Im just feeling that i have been deceived all this while. A bit disappointing though honestly speaking things wouldnt work well between me and that person. I even rose up from my ego zone of denial bit by bit just to find out its just for nothing? Really 'Tao Yen'...yes, receiving SMSes from her somehow kinda triggered or stimulated a bit of dopamine deep in body, but what's the point if all are just merely hoaxing hoax-es X)

Tried to contact her via msn and then through the mobile number. Its just too silly why did i even bother to text her back in the first place. I shouldnt put my trust on her, even a slightest pinch of it. I am glad I didnt take all of her sayings easily but rather questioning them myself. For now, I would just put myself in a refractory period. I dont care anymore. We're just better off with being friends who dont trust each other then. I shouldnt contact her using my Easi number in the first place too. I was too 'soft' I guess. Sometimes being stubborn in this type of stuff is actually a blessing in itself x)

Thus I would try as hard as I can not to text her for the time being. I am just swayed heavily after the deceiving bits. There, I feel better now =) Thanks.

Ka-Ching Overlimit

This week would be my final week at Tutong since we'll be celebrating Raya Aidilfitri at Belait - the usual thing we do annually =p

Went to HuaHo tutong for two days in a row just to buy some bits of pieces for my 2nd year. Im actually overbudget. Bought these and those. I have to admit seeing those discounts labels popping out every now and then as you stroll around is totally making myself a mad shopper.


Easily tempted + quite okay price = Buy it preasee!
Exaggerating pulang bunyinya X) but didnt mean that i would easily give in myself and go to the cashier straight away..its just seeing those discounts makes me go..you know, relaxed? Diambang bahagia nya urang..speechless lol. Today's tuesday - i have 9 more day =|

wo bu ming pai zhi ke Kan Jue

Raya Aidilfitri will be making its way soon, less than a week actually. Honestly speaking, i am both overjoyed and sad due to this wonferful month of Syawal. 24th is the date where i'll have to fly off back to uk, repeating the cycle itself for the 2nd time. I tend to be unstable emotionally easily when im away from my family. For that, i am quite nervous though it is exaggerating to say i have survived my first year.

One of the best ways to if not overcome it, endure it is to remind myself what my head of department and supervisor said to me. This is about sacrifice. As a person undergoing enormous development, i must withstand such impact. Though i have my brother and sister studying there too, im still too far away from them. The only time the three of us could gather together would be during easter break or december. Nevertheless, i should be thankful that God hasnt make me a loner there. I would just have to think positively whenever im engulfed by the mist of pessimism..

Back to the Battlefield

My presentation was yesterday marking the end of the 8 weeks attachment. Time sure flies fast. Now i have less than 2 weeks before going back to Liverpool. Erk, i pray my homesick would not be too severe as last year's.

Let's not make myself dwell into the abyss of sad homesicko for now. After the presentation, i had a talk with my soon-to-be head of department. Quite nervous actually as i am just a puny little student. Take me as a caterpillar and him the butterfly, so that means we have huge level gap between both of us. Labih jua my perbandingan ani, astee~

Anyways, i did some luahan terus-terang including the thing that i am still looking for something that can motivate me in my workplace and then the fact that i have to return back to brunei around august after doing my 6 weeks independent project. Consequently, i was splashed on with good digestable answers and thus, i am glad.

Presentation Please

Tomorrow's my presentation, so i am actually less than 12 hours away from my freedom! =) happy and at the same time feeling nervous...i did rehearse but just hope i wont forget some bits or even mess up some of them. Hope not.

The presentation will be starting from 8am-9am if im not mistaken where me & ks will first kick off the meeting with our project presentation followed by our senior. The whole department will be there, yikes. Wish me luck.

Fayyadh reunion 09

We started this thing since last year. It was aziim's idea that four of us could meetup somewhere and just have some great together. So i decided to call it Fayyadh reunion instead.

Since Iznan's flight was on friday, 4th September..i had to plan the reunion earlier though i was planning to make it after 11th cuz i would finish my attachment by that time. So yeah, we had the reunion earlier than i had planned up. It was at Express tutong so that almost everyone could make it. Too bad Aziim couldnt make it. There's always next time :)

It was great eventhough there were only three of us. Given the fact that we had been friends for almost a decade, its sure cool. Talked bout a lot of stuffs including my half-naked pics in friendster =___= alright it was my naughty self when i was still in form 6. I think i still havent delete them yet. Man, so gay. Aizat even told us honestly that my body doesnt fit nicely for half-naked..i think maybe due to my skintone X) i mean it would look feminine instead. Perhaps bipolar attraction? Nyeh..i dont do those half naked pics anymore nowadays. Referring to what Aizat said, i told em that its a curse to have every pic of yours look gay. But he said those in fb are okay. What a relief, otherwise its hard for me to flirt with girls eyh? Nyohoho. And one more thing, i bet im the lightest among us four since aizat's 70-ish kg, iznan's 64-ish and me still 55-ish..aziim?not sure.

I would just end it this way, the reunion was awesome.