Deceived by a 'maiden'

I can be too sensitive and pessimistic at the same time. So various thoughts can just popping in and out at a time - positivo & negativo.

Perhaps I am just influenced by the taiwanese series that I am currently straining my eyes on - Miss No Good. I have a feeling that my situation was a bit similar to some bits of pieces in that series. Tang Men is a guy who's in denial that he has developed feelings for Xiao Hua. Well, he even tried to remove the thought. I havent reach the final episode yet but maybe Tang Men will end up being with Xiao Hua instead.

Im just feeling that i have been deceived all this while. A bit disappointing though honestly speaking things wouldnt work well between me and that person. I even rose up from my ego zone of denial bit by bit just to find out its just for nothing? Really 'Tao Yen'...yes, receiving SMSes from her somehow kinda triggered or stimulated a bit of dopamine deep in body, but what's the point if all are just merely hoaxing hoax-es X)

Tried to contact her via msn and then through the mobile number. Its just too silly why did i even bother to text her back in the first place. I shouldnt put my trust on her, even a slightest pinch of it. I am glad I didnt take all of her sayings easily but rather questioning them myself. For now, I would just put myself in a refractory period. I dont care anymore. We're just better off with being friends who dont trust each other then. I shouldnt contact her using my Easi number in the first place too. I was too 'soft' I guess. Sometimes being stubborn in this type of stuff is actually a blessing in itself x)

Thus I would try as hard as I can not to text her for the time being. I am just swayed heavily after the deceiving bits. There, I feel better now =) Thanks.