3 months

Before,i used to think my 3 months attachment would be a 'short' journey..But now i realized that i am wrong.A lot has happened these past two months...And i've learned a lot too especially about career & teenage social life(dont question me why i put the word 'teenage')
i have learned about friendships as well...Due to that,i had experienced some(or maybe countless?) complications in friendships.I started to realize which type of person that i would feel comfortable to hangout with..
What im writing in this post is'nt related with either my colleagues,schoolmates or my attachment mates..Its just my understanding v(n.n)

After few direct + indirect observations,i have convinced myself that 'trust' is an influential factor in making myself comfortable to hangout with that particular person.Its hard to explain what i meant by 'trust' though.But all i can say is that once the trust is not that great,i tend to feel less enjoyable to hangout with that person.Yet,i dont mean the 'trust' is eternally affected...Its a reversible process for me though.I may not trust that person today,but doesnt mean that i dont trust that person again tomorrow or the day after tomorrow lol.
I may regain my trust to that particular person naturally or via what that person did or said.I sometimes regain the trust after a person says 'sorry' but the most effective is 'minta maaf' which i assume the hardest to say..Thats why i constantly educate myself to say that phrase,i have to learn how to control my ego to be exact lol.

I think many people would think im so naive that whatever they do,i'll still be their 'trampoline' but the truth is i do aware of it..Although i may take no action to what they had said or did,but deep inside,my trust towards them inevitably eroded.'Trust' is a vital element for me since without trusting a person sufficiently,i wouldnt tell my problems to her/him easily meaning i MAY tell her/him but it aint easy for me to do that though lol.

But do not misunderstand by my statement above though.Even if i dont tell my problems to a friend,doesnt mean i dont trust her/him =)
its because i forgot to mention friendship duration also plays an important role.Even if i trust a person whom i just met five months ago,i dont easily tell my problems to her/him.Thats just me =)
~~WARNING,some imagination skills would help you to understand following~~
Being hurt countless times also gives me 'strength'.I learned how to strengthen myself mentally which may be advantageous throughout my lifetime.I'll try to 'grab' those negative emotions and confined them into negative energy.Then,i would try to convert it to a positive energy,its like a energy changing process,hence the principle of conservation of energy.

Disobeying my mom's orders?

I tried to research on my skin problem and after i knew about it,i was shocked(maybe i still do)...i have Vitiligo,which is far more worse than Tinea...since Vitiligo is hard to be cured FULLY eventhough i did purchase the medicine for it at a private clinic(cost me $60 lol)..still im feeling really depresssed...Vitiligo is not that harmful,nor does it cause death but for me its Damn serious since my appearance can be affected..the moment i knew im suffering from Vitiligo,i suddenly feel so down...so thats why i was bad mood yesterday...

i text my mom selajur about the vitiligo.She said just bawa solat hajat and berdoa ='] thanks mom....i really need that...after i reached our bachelors' house,took some break and went jog after that..i realized OGDC is a good place to jog =D lol
i was alone though..i dont think i need some company that time...
but after i returned back to our house around 6+pm..my cousin told me he's at the monument with azrin,yumnie,nai..
so i decided to go there since i felt i need some company after spending some time alone before that X)

after arriving there,same thing happens,i still in bad mood..i just stood on the monument silently...watching the beach..feeling the breeze flowing through my 'half-wet' shirt..i saw them though but i didnt feel like talking to anyone that time..
thanks to azrin and bujoy for approaching me...sorry guys for the peculiar look on my face lol

anyway,being at the beach with them kinda cheered me up a bit...although i had to disobey my mom's orders of not going out during Maghrib..sorry mom..
had dinner with the girls..kinda cool though,telephoned my close buddy,awg.iznan,thanks for cheering me up too man =)
batah na jumpa ko bui! X)

around 9pm,we decided to go to the uni arcade to do some K-box lol..spent most of my time there with azrin..thanks buddy =)

Iznan's birthday

IZnan,u better feel lucky i post about you bui hehe
Happy be;ated birthday iznan..i wished him at the actual day though...but he did'nt reply my message until few days after that telling me he just recharged his easi..its okay bui..anyway u're 19 years now,jangan kan berulah-ulah hahahaha
nadabah nan

Long lost friend...

(29th May)i chatted with my long lost old friend yesterday hehe...he was my primary 2 classmate when i was in primary religious school Putri Norain Tutong..we were primary four that time at Rendah Muda Hashim but we were assigned to different classes there.He's studying in Egypt now,i think its five years now...i lost contact with him until i was form 3 and that time,i was staying at Kolej Perguruan Hostel since my school was being renovated.But thanks to that,i knew his father was the principal of Kolej Perguruan that time,so i asked about Faiz and his number...

at 2004,he went to my house during Hari Raya(Syawal)...then we lost contact with each other again until i have msn and friendster,i asked his email from his little sister(since she was my little sister's exclassmate too...coincidence lol)
so i started to keep in touch with him last year again(2007) and till now i still have his msn...well,just like they always say

friendship never ends

Sushis?

I feel macam batah not blogging lol...(im getting addicted to blogging..maybe its one way for me to release tension lol)
anyway last night 'A' and 'N' planned to have dinner outside with my cousin,c bujoy..and so i decided to join them since im lazy to cook myself dinner hehe =3
we even had the time to argue where to have our dinner...well i did'nt join the 'debate' though lol...
lastly,it was decided that we shall have our dinner at Kai Zen(sushis...im not that good at eating sushis hehe,darn,why im writing it here?karang membaca tah durang spoil eh but its okay,just don't make me eat sushis every week HAHA XD )

~Arrived at Kai Zen~
we sat down...and i asked the waitress whether the sushis on the rolling thingy are half-priced..and it was a 'NO'
OMG..hehe,im at a tight budget here hehe...it was around 8pm something...the sushis will ONLY be half-priced at 9.30pm..
so we decided to have the sushis when they are half-priced..i kinda feel ambarrassed the moment i told the waitress we'll be coming back around 9.30pm.On second thought,i can save whole lotta money if i buy the sushis when they are half-priced =D

meanwhile waiting for the to-be-half-priced sushis,we spent our time on K-box in the arcade...at first i was feeling kinda worried since we'll be going back to home late and i don't wanna feel sleepy the next day..but i thought over it and hey,maybe i won't be able to experience something like that for the next few months(or years) so i decided to try to enjoy the Karaoke with the three of them..
i forgot how many coins they bought(i did'nt spend some money though hehe)...
i really like the moment we sang 'seasons in the sun' and 'i never had a dream come true'
and it was my first time 'playing' with K-box and it was fun lol
thanks guys..

by the way,by the time we went back to Kai zen,it was near to 10pm...and ot was closed so we just had our dinner at wywy lol

Confused

its rare for me to post something about love espesially my love life,so you're kinda lucky my dear reader lol =)
i have been thinking about this girl for i dont know how many days though....
all started when i met her at bsrc....then we chatted together,at that time i dont have any 'strange' feelings towards her though..
i started to feel something 'strange' after i knew she was the one who i met at the beach before i started my attachment at BSP..AND after i realized that i like the way she chat with me..i actually interested to know her since i met her at the beach..*blushed

i judge a girl from the way she chats with me...i know its kinda awkward..but thats the one of the methods i judge..
she's my friend's friend..so we just met though..she's actually my junior in school lol.Im not sure with myself...do i like her?
although i might interested to get closer with few girls at once...but this is totally different...
im beginning to feel she's filling up my mind gradually day by day...i even asked my friend whether she's in a relationship or not(i know...im not that optimistic in this sort of thing)

and i dont be flirty to sembarangan girls lah...i listened to this malay song titled
"merindu" by shah & man kidal featuring Ella
and i would think of her the moment i was listening to that sing..
okay perhaps i FALL for her but could'nt admit or convince myself that im involving myself with love thingy again..

its just that i've been hurt before..so im kinda traumatized with this sort of thing..ataupun to be exact im not confident..

okay,i'll tell you one of my stories lah ah...this girl said she does'nt want to couple with me because i am surrounded by many girls so i think she hesitates lah and think i would cheat on her by having scandals,,but the truth is i don't have that intention at all...i really liked her,i felt so down when i knew she has a new boyfriend after she broke up with her ex(which she told me she broke up with him for me and she told me it was'nt my fault...i kinda feel guilty for that guy though..but thank to God i did'nt couple with her fewh~)
but i did propose her that time(i wish i did'nt hehe),pasal i could'nt bear it that time...i really really liked her..and unfortunately,she said NO because she has a new boyfriend...i was feeling very sad + frustrated that time..i even hardly sleep that night..

so that's why im not confident in love thingy anymore...instead i would just wait for girls to confess to me first(i know its kinda terbalik..)
but now,i met a new girl...im slowly involving myself with love again..
i hope "pisang inda berbuah dua kali".....

Champions league & belated birthday greeting

The champions league final was around 3am...i planned to watch it with my friends at another friend's house lol
it would be nice though since its difficult for something like that to happen in the near future,,,something worth to blog about...but i decided not to join them since im a person who must have aorund 6+ hours of sleep...too bad though...siuk bunyi nya bui hehe
hope there'll be something like that again and who knows i might be joining in the fun too =D

and Happy belated birthday to khai a.k.a King of heaven(thats his msn nick)....which was on the 20th May =D
sorry khai for the late greeting...lol
anyway for Manchester United fans...Enjoy =D

Questions

Instruction: Remove one Q and insert your very own making it a total of 20 Qs altogether. Then tag a few lucky people to join in :)

Q. At what age do you wish to marry?
A. 27 or 28....

Q. Where will you go if someone sponsored you a tour ticket?
A. hmmmmm...i think taiwan would be nice...singapore pun kah..kesian jua mahal2 urg tu sponsor *wink

Q. What's your favorite thing to do?
A. hmmm...right now,maybe badminton kale or watching korean/Taiwanese series.

Q. Do you think $ can buy happiness?
A. i have to say yes but its just temporarily saja...like buying your desired things...u'll be excited just for some time..after that,u would feel nothing.

Q. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
A. hmmm...getting modelling opportunity or acting opportunity..wanna know how it feels like lah lol

Q. Do you believe you can survive without money?
A.nooooo....thats one of the things that motivates me to study

Q. What are you afraid to lose the most?
A. hmmmmm....Pertolongan from God

Q. If you win $1 mil, what would you do?
A. hmm...i would think about it for few days..banyak kan difikir bui lol

Q. If you meet that someone whom you love, will you confess?
A. yeah,why not....don't wanna regret (=

Q. List out three things about the person who tagged you?
A. ahhh...slahau,porengge sama anu..hehe i dont know bah =p

Q. What are the requirements that you need from the other half?
A. hmm...romantic,loving and tempat aku bermanja*wink

Q. What type of person do you hate the most?
A. hmmm....it depends

Q. What is your ambition?
A. to buy SKII full set(the one that costs you $1000+ if im not mistaken)& to further my study

Q. If you can teleport once, where would you go?
A. Deep Sea floor...

Q. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
A. Religion and family including my parents of course

Q. If you could undo one mistake in the past, what would it be?
A. thats hard to think...its because i made many mistakes...

Q. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
A. well,i dont know but i am grateful to God for making me me (=

Q. What music have you been listening to lately?
A. hmmm...R&B?

Q. What is your least favorite animal?
A. hmm...crocs...and i have a phobia of spiders =X

(farrar's Question)
Q. Who do you feel like tagging now?
A. kalau mau copy ja soalan-soalan ane hehe XD

Fieldtrip to Bandar

Yesterday's field trip was kinda fun..we went to threee places to see the outcrops-bkt.Agok,the Jerudong beach(if im not mistaken..but its near to the missile range though) & Tanjong Bunut..

it was great since i had learned many things from the field trip and slowly i started to appreciate the nature itself...especially after unedrstanding about the layers of rocks which can be also be seen
sandstones & shale were the common type of rocks that i had encountered during the fieldtrip...which slowly makes me able to distinguish between the sandstones & shale in Brunei which moslty are straigh forward compared to some countries.
it was hot but i have realized something after the fieldtrip...im slowly started to think that being geologist is really what i want since i fancy fossils so much..
and to know fossils & geologists are unsplittable is cool =)

Had our lunch at Nasi Kandar...which was good although im not that fancy of indian foods but they were tasty though lol

Buttermilk-chicken with Aizat

Went out with my close friend,Aizat yesterday for dinner since he was hungry and i never treat him before..so i decided to treat him dinner last night...its also another way for me to show my appreciation to him for repairing my laptop(i dont want to troublesome my father..so i decided to solve it on my own...)
so we went to Baiduri first since i wanna withdraw some money lol...kapih ku bui hehe XD
anyways,since i set a low budget...we went to SKH to have our dinner there...
both of us agreed on the last night's dinner theme "What i eat is what you'll eat"

so i ordered Butter-milk chicken for both of us...
drinks...ordered Iced Milo and Aizat ordered Pepsi...
okay,this is a confession..i love butter-milk chicken..really lol...im addicted to butter-milk chicken hehe

after dinner,we chatted for a while..had the chance to ask him about 'proper ways to socialize with people' lol..i don't remember quite well what we had talked about though...but what i remember is the types of 'lepak-lepaking' that i like..
and managed to tell him my current problems..
well thats Aizat...i really like to tell him problems regarding socializing thingy cuz hes the MAN lol
i mean...hes really good at solving problems relating to socializing...he even helped me when i had problems with girls(im not a player lol) last year...thanks bro =)

and next time we hang out lagi..maybe with the others*wink

My first 'erotic' facial

[Saturday 17th May]



i decided to have my first facial today at a salon since i was so curious about it..
There are two types..$38 and $45.The difference is only the products used for the facial..

Since its my first time,i decided to go for the cheapest one..Then i was recommended to buy my own facial sponge(which costs me additional $8) but i declined to buy it since i dont know whether im interested to have my facial there again next time..lol



i was brought to a separate room and before it begin,the staff asked me to put off my shirt..Okay,that was weird hehe

i did'nt want to do that but after few reasonings,only then i was convinced to put off my shirt..
And i had to wear this somewhat PINK robe which covered almost whole of my body..



It was okay though..Struggled with the 'steaming' session as i found it hard to breathe properly during that session..
The most PAINFUL session was during the 'removing of blackheads' process

very very Painful *OUCH* that i had let out some tears(due to the pain lol)..Trust me..I would think twice of going to facial there next time lol



the last session was the putting on of Masker where i had to wait around 20 minutes(if im not mistaken) for the masker to harden completely..
During this session,the staff massaged me on the neck,shoulder down to the fingers..Then from toes to my thighs.
This is the part that makes me to think twice to get my facial to that salon again.
When he was massaging my tangan,he put my tangan on his paha..(okay..Thats kinda awkward yet still acceptable for me)
then he massaged my leg..
I thought he will massage only to a point on my paha..But i was wrong..He kept on moving up UNTIL his hands were near to my genital area..
And NO..The story does'nt end here..I felt my penis macam tercacah ulih tangannya..Fortunately I was wearing jeans and this 'cacah2' thing went on few times which gave me the creeps..I think my penis atu macam ada kna 'squashed' sikit ada jua..Ntah eh..I was like "F*Ck..What are you doing man?!"
but i decided to keep quiet since its hard for me to open my lips due to the masker hardening on my face..
I dont know whether the staff is gay or not..And whether he felt lucky he 'TERcacah2' my reproductive organ..Seriously,im not stimulated bui..ijap adalah XD

next time if i go there,i would like to request a female staff to do my facial if its allowed..
MAN..
This is'nt just my first facial..Its my first 'Erotic' facial XD

Moody

i dont know why im so moody last friday night,maybe im exhausted or maybe the 1+ hour of waiting..
To cut the story short,went to a shop to buy easi recharge card..I saw the cashier was talking with someone(not a customer i guess)..So i started to feel annoyed..Thats why i decided to ask another staff whether they're selling $5 easi recharge card or not..
Looked back to the cashier..He's still engaged in the same conversation..Feeling so irritated and really2 angry..I walked out of the shop..
Im not patient as i used to be...I rarely do something like that though but did'nt care so much with it anyway
its their lost anyway as i bought the card from other shop instead

(9th May-Friday)HLP Aerobics & Brisk walking

our department held another HLP today..It begun on the afternoon.The venue was my last month's supervisor's house lol

the aerobics was fun =] we had the chance to learn some ChaChaCha and other dance moves..Some of them were quite tough though..
There were three aerobics crews,two were shemales and the other one was female(kinda hot lol)

after the aerobics,there's a session called as 'brisk-walking' where we must walk/jog according to a route..
Before i walked off,one of the male instructor tagur kediaku..
Awal2 inda ku sadar cuz i thought maybe hes trying to call orang lain,rupa-rupanya aku lol...
Then he asked whats my name and do i work in XM or not..
Lepas itu,he introduced me to his male friend,who smiled at me..Totally unexpected the instructor would tagur me,i just said few short words and smiled =)
maybe his shemale friend wanted to berkawan sama aku kale..It would be fine with me though ~ peace v^_^

My 1st Spicy Buttermilk Chicken..

I went to Seria Gerai Building..The one very near to Seria Plaza..Went there with Sir Charles(who might be reading this now hehe ;p)
and Azrin..We were planning to eat Malay foods but i did'nt order Malay food though..Sorry guys XD
instead i ordered buttermilk chicken at this food stall..

For my drink,ordered Milo Ping from another food stall..Here's another story =]
when i said i want a glass of Milo Ping to the Cashier(who happened to be a Bruneian also)..She asked me where im working & other else which i forgot lol..BUT she asked me whether im a malay or not cuz i look like a Filipinos..Im quite surprised as people tend to think i am chinese..Well thats partly true though ;)

back to the buttermilk chicken..It was SPICY maybe its because the chef used many green chilis..But the sauce was okay though lol

XM's emblem 2008 night pictures

click the pictures to view in larger size =]

Confession

i feel so relax today..maybe its because i finished my assignment this morning...now i have to complete my report and read something...Fewh~lol
so here i am listening to mp3...sambil blogging lol
i don't know since when i've been too observant...
its like im slowly getting out of my cocoon on my own will...
I think i was so naive before...now,i kinda half-naive only lol

some people may be rude at me and thought im so naive as i just smile or act nothing to their rudeness but to be honest,i somehow get slightly annoyed or irritated by the person's rudeness...and im trying to assure myself "its okay zree,you're just being sensitive" but sometimes....i failed to that ya know..i can't lie to myself
its easy to lie to other people(excluding parents lol) but its hard to lie the 'azree' inside me~~~

one of my weaknesses is i am the type of person that easily trust people although i met the person only for a week...
But once the person betrayed my trust..it will be hard for me to regain my trust to that person again,its like "take it or leave it"

eventhough im poor at social thingy but im very grateful that God has given me friends that can help me at times including my own cousin(jgn ko kambang cuz hehe nadawah)...
this is what i get if i 'dive' my inner self...lol

Sadiq's 19th birthday \(n_n)/

sorry Sadiq for the late post hehe jgn marah rah kediaku ah ;p
his Birthday was on 6th May,some of us were on duty at BSRC that day(mine was Monday lol) for the "scholarship talk & career exhibition"

when we were having our lunch at SriKandi Restaurant(if im not mistaken lol),we sang "happy birthday song" to him weeee!!
Hehe
and i dont know whose idea it was,but we had some cakes for Sadiq,WootWoot!! XD
sliced carrot cakes with a mini round candle placed at the center of the plate lol
cool lh..
Then we went to his house after we finished working...
There,We had another surprise for him!
To be honest,i did'nt know anything about it too hehe..I just knew,we had to go to his house after 4pm..

Rupa-rupanya ada 'Kezutan' hehe..We gathered with Sadiq's school mates and waited..Waited..Till he returned home & Sang 'Happy Birthday To You' to him!!!

Then we ate the cake and the foods served by Sadiq's family...
Before we went home..All of us gathered at a corner of Sadiq's living room to take pictures =3

Happy Belated Birthday Sadiq =]

Being pampered?

Im just writing this post randomly..I was moved to write it anyway lol

i am a 19 years old student..If you were in my shoes,would you feel that its fun to hangout with your parents during leisure time?Maybe Vacation,shopping or just having dinner outside...

I know i am being childish..But to be honest,i do enjoy going out with my parents =] i mean...They are my parents,i can't find a couple like them anywhere right?

I have my own allowance as well,so i can buy my own stuffs with it..But its kinda cool if your parents buy you something like a shirt occasionally..My babah bought me a long sleeve shirt with collar that day..Thanks dad =D
i like to feel the love,sincerity & energy..lol

you may be wondering why..Well,i'll be having my own salary after few years and by that time,my parents definitely wont buy me stuffs,walau a candy lol
so hey,why dont i enjoy while it lasts,right?
Money isn't a matter(though nice gadges kinda fancy lol) compared to time spent with your parents

Although i like to hangout with my parents sometimes,i dont ask them to jalan-jalan with me...I dont know why but i prefer to keep quiet bout it~so if you're a father/mother..You may think your 19 yrs old son/daughter doesn't like to hangout with you,well you're probably wrong..Its possible he/she feels the same way i do so go for it (=

this post is dedicated to my parents~i love you babah and mama XD maluku ee

What The...

i dont know why but my sister just called me..Guess what she told me?

Rupa-rupanya ada students baru kakaku my juniors Upper six(well just two of em)...
And i was kinda shocked hehe..And blushed too..
Those two told her that they knew me..Cool right?
But i was surprised when they gave me compliments..Yg kira2 berbunyi: "ai,yg tinggi2 and putih atu teacher?Handsome teacher!"

i was surprised lah..Rupa-rupanya ada jua masih perempuan terpakai rahku lol

Adrenaline pumping!!

last night me and my other two friends decided to 'lepak' to the beach around 9pm..
i know..it was a crazy idea...for a group of two guys and one girl lol

M=my guy friend
F=my girl friend


at first it was kinda okay although i felt some goosebumps since it was quite dark
arah pavement atu..
and we thought there's a car trying to find a park space to go to the beach and i was kinda happy since we were not alone...
but it turned out that the car was just making a turn...lol
then we saw a guy riding a bike and realized that he was going to the beach..
macam samseng..thats why we were damn worried...
so we ran to the monument(by that time,i already realized M was kinda worried)
so i asked M & F what happened and i started to wonder whether the guy looking like samseng got to do with why they ran to the monument..

but there was no reply though...
M & F then sat at tempat duduk ane...so M told me to go there immediately...thats why i was kinda convinced myself there was something fishy...
so i just went to the tempat duduk...
and then after few minutes or seconds(i forgot lol)...

SUDDENLY...we heard someone's voice which we assume the samseng guy..then we realized he's bringing some companions with him(since we heard many voices lol)
so M quickly instructed us to escape through the beach...by that time,i was very panic..thats why i tripped on the big boulders and have a cut on my leg..
knowing that,
M scolded me last night since it was very dangerous as i can not only injured my leg but also worst than that..thanks M =) but im okay lol

it was definitely adrenaline pumping~~~~as i started to imagine the 'things' which i saw in movies and read in the mags could happen to us(macam rapes & rompak & beaten up..u know that sort of things lol)
thats why i was soooo Panic...we were trying to run as hard as we can so that the samseng guys would'nt know we were there..(but i assume they knew though lol)
tambahan,me and F had not enough stamina to run since we went to the shop by foot before that lol...i was traumatized you know XD

but syukur,M led us to home safely...we learned our lesson
!!!!jangan lepak ke beach malam-malam!!!!!
LOL

Emblem night 2008

our department's emblem night was held last friday night...i arrived home around 12.45am since me & my colleague bertolak from KBBC around 12am lol..
it was fun though although its kinda 'culture-shock' for me since i had never been to a party till 12 before lol
im waiting for the pictures though..i think it will be available tomorrow..
the foods were nice too though =)
too bad i did'nt win anything..i hope i can win a prize for the lucky draw..
will post the pictures later..i've got many to do in my office..fewh~banarkah tu?lol

Am i being too dramatic tonight?

Okay,i felt so angry + frustrated with i dont know..Maybe myself or other people..Im feeling that i dont have the sufficient social ability to interact effectively with the people who are the same age with me..Or few years older than me..Is 'Azree' that boring?Or is he that someone you don't wanna hangout with?
Oh man..Sorry guys,maybe i AM being too dramatic..Effect seorang-seorang jalan kaki ke pantai and listening to mp3 player tarus..Or is this just a part of my growing-up side effect?

Oh well..Sorry if this post is irritating for those who are reading this right now =]
i just wanna let go all(if not,some) of my negative emotions...
But i still feel grateful to God cause sometimes i can sense that i have somewhat good compatability with people that are on their 40s..Yeah..Especially female =)
but dont get me wrong,i consider them as my aunties =]

maybe this is an Ujian..Or rather it IS my fault..Or maybe i am feeling lonely and the people who i invited to lepak with inda mau lepak with me..
Screw me..

You know,just like a friend of mine said just now "truth hurts" i must accept the fact that im not that good in socializing with people..

I mean,whats the good of having fair skintone if ur bad at making friends??

And whats the good of having ur photos given compliments by people if ur just a boring person to hang out with??

DAMN,why im so foolish tonight..Gosh..
Maybe this is an Ujian after all,i didnt feel like this before..It was'nt so hurtful and 'heavy' before..Is it because i don't have enough friends in my new workplace??

Luan emosi jua ku malam ane ah..Lol~although i can pretend im happy outside but its very hard to keep all those negative emotions inside you,eventually there will be an 'explosion' macam Volcano lah..

Alin's belated birthday celebration

it was fun though..Gathering with your ex school mates =']
i miss them so much ever since i undergo my attachment..I took some pics for kenang-kenangan
My friends had nice conversations..Me?
Well siuk pulang but i was quiet tade..Maybe its because i miss them so much that i would prefer to be quiet and just listen..And laugh,lol
i felt so happy guys =D
thanks everyone

after we ate,then Alyn brought her Birthday Cake to the living room as we gathered there at the first place..And we sang birthday SONGS to her..I think we sang three songs if im not mistaken lah..Hehe
then Barutah we did some Karaoke,which was very fun lah XD
though i didnt karaoke much(im embarrassed lol *^_^* )

Names

These are the names that gave me Birthday greetings =)

Kandar,mizah,fifa kece,barney boy,Adin,hayat,hafiz@ngah iz,azrin,saiful,aqilah,Azeim@IT focal point,kandar,znan,sahar,jo,fandi,alhadee,faiz hs,fahmie,vstylegurlz,kimmie,mohd fairos,paduka,amr's baby,Maziyyah Adzy,DKS,nabster,sitt crew,paul,iznan,antika,ting ting,jijan,aneeq,saedah,kimmie,doieyz,hotbabezz,aizat,e_ ,malie,alniz,echa,susan,zudin,daus,awg,iqqy,qurratu,lei,baby one4nine,nasya lara,alez damian,puji,hairi,rireina,dyana,dr.Kronik,jeff,christine,aric,yazid,syaz,azrin,khiari,sadiq,zul,nai,fatyn,azizi,yumnie,k-rol,khairul syazwan,ash,mizan,melissa

UPDATED--->>>22nd May 2008

Dinner at Lemongrass

i decided to go to Seria to check some jackets which i might be interested to wear for friday's emblem night..for our department,the theme this year is "cowboy"
so i kinda find it difficult to think of apa kan di pakai lol
lucky me to find some pictures on our company's local drive,so i got some bits of informations how to dress like a real cowboy lol

anyways,i decided to bought a vest..black one..i dont know if it will make me look sexy or not though XD but on 2nd thought..entah
and i dont know since when i have become stingy..maybe after i know im going to study in UK this year...so since then,i decided not to waste my money on shirts & jeans =3

oh yeah,i found the vest on Milimewah Belait...fortunately i changed my mind to go to KB instead of Seria~~~i went there with my sepupu,si daus or "cuz"(thats what i address him at msn or text lol)
we had our dinner after that...at Lemongrass~~since Azrin & the others were having their dinner there that time..
Since my cousin was so 'galat',both of us sat at different table..

Wanna know what we had ordered(or what i had ordered)?
my cousin said apa aku makan,ia pun makan...so aku layan saja haha XD
so to be exact,we ordered the same food and drink
i ordered Butter-milk chicken & Vanilla Milkshake...
like the butter-milk chicken so MUCH~~~Hoishi desu!chen de hau chi lol xp

before we went back to home,we went to Seria since i wanted to go to Guardian and a friend of mine wanted to buy briefs...too bad by the time i reached Guardian,it was around 9pm so it was already closed by that time..but my friend managed to buy Underwear pulang at Millimewah lol

Barbeque $6

Me and my friends spent our night at Yazid's house since all of us decided to have a
barbeque at his house...each of us decided to pay $6 per person to buy the necessary stuffs for last night's barbeque..
the foods were delicious though especially the lamb lol
someone also treated us sushis!
but i have to admit that im not into sushi..i realised that last night Xp

i was really moved by this cat...lapar usulnya..at first takut tapi last2 di ambil nya jua makanan(i think it was a lamb meat)...atu tah namanya TEKAD SEEKOR KUCING YG LAPAR hehe

after we spent around 2 hours on the garage,we were invited to go inside his house and there we spent about an hour kale...lol