Hurt by a friend?

Its different from the hurt you feel when girls ditch you..for me. Well, I just lose a good friend, someone who sometimes be there for me when I need some company, a mate that can make me laugh at times..a 'hen ke ai de pengyou'...will not be same again from now on~ yeah...it was hard at first.but im gradually accepting the reality..and I was hurt by a statement or few statements i think. I treat friendship as something that related to trust and friends love...you know teletubbies..wait, i mean care bears ;)

You're probably wondering why i seemed to be happy now huh?Im listening to the song given to me last few days...its a sweet song actually..although i seemed to be happy right now, deep inside im actually not...but if I keep on looking back and be sad..will that give me anything good???Ive got assignemnts to spend my time on..ive got other friends to talk with...ive got other friends in Brunei which I seldom chat with since masa inda bertamu and assignments too..

But I appreciate what that friend did to me..really am grateful for all of them..I pray that dia dibalas dengan kebaikan-kebaikan although i know it wouldnt be the same again from now on..but that's fine too as long as tidak memutuskan silaturrahim =) maybe this is my punishment for my past sins...you know, when I was crazy in friendster, I would not layan orang-orang "tong si lien" easily...and another gurl bawa webcam baru2 ani pun aku namau..and another filipinos who happens to be in my messenger list wanted to webcam with me but i rejected the offer few times...Karma???

Aku redha tah saja =) as the saying goes, ada hikmah di sebaliknya..although payah kan accept that i lose a good friend that sikit lagi kan rapat...even if my crush say "i like you azree" I would'nt have the mood to say "yesh, me too me too!" lol confused ku eh..better not bawa-bawa crush aku ane lol

Friends are precious, they are like my necessary stuffs - laptop, handphone, books, clothes, lingeries, spectacle..I believe each of my friends have their own uniqueness...if its alright, I would like them to stay with me all the time..i mean not as in losing durang lah..lol..seeing them go away from me makes me feel as if im losing a part of my 'necessary stuffs' which I cannot live without...but if its so..if it cannot be saved anymore...then I shall accept it bit by bit..hurtful it may be...I believe that my optimism and my other friends will help me =)

I do have to agree its not easy for me to be close with any people..but when Im close with them..i tend to appreciate them more =) and if i ever lose one of them..it would also hurt me more too..friends..I lose several of them..but i gained many in return..but this mate..is there any replacement for em?

I dont think so..its okay..let time heals =)