3 months

Before,i used to think my 3 months attachment would be a 'short' journey..But now i realized that i am wrong.A lot has happened these past two months...And i've learned a lot too especially about career & teenage social life(dont question me why i put the word 'teenage')
i have learned about friendships as well...Due to that,i had experienced some(or maybe countless?) complications in friendships.I started to realize which type of person that i would feel comfortable to hangout with..
What im writing in this post is'nt related with either my colleagues,schoolmates or my attachment mates..Its just my understanding v(n.n)

After few direct + indirect observations,i have convinced myself that 'trust' is an influential factor in making myself comfortable to hangout with that particular person.Its hard to explain what i meant by 'trust' though.But all i can say is that once the trust is not that great,i tend to feel less enjoyable to hangout with that person.Yet,i dont mean the 'trust' is eternally affected...Its a reversible process for me though.I may not trust that person today,but doesnt mean that i dont trust that person again tomorrow or the day after tomorrow lol.
I may regain my trust to that particular person naturally or via what that person did or said.I sometimes regain the trust after a person says 'sorry' but the most effective is 'minta maaf' which i assume the hardest to say..Thats why i constantly educate myself to say that phrase,i have to learn how to control my ego to be exact lol.

I think many people would think im so naive that whatever they do,i'll still be their 'trampoline' but the truth is i do aware of it..Although i may take no action to what they had said or did,but deep inside,my trust towards them inevitably eroded.'Trust' is a vital element for me since without trusting a person sufficiently,i wouldnt tell my problems to her/him easily meaning i MAY tell her/him but it aint easy for me to do that though lol.

But do not misunderstand by my statement above though.Even if i dont tell my problems to a friend,doesnt mean i dont trust her/him =)
its because i forgot to mention friendship duration also plays an important role.Even if i trust a person whom i just met five months ago,i dont easily tell my problems to her/him.Thats just me =)
~~WARNING,some imagination skills would help you to understand following~~
Being hurt countless times also gives me 'strength'.I learned how to strengthen myself mentally which may be advantageous throughout my lifetime.I'll try to 'grab' those negative emotions and confined them into negative energy.Then,i would try to convert it to a positive energy,its like a energy changing process,hence the principle of conservation of energy.