Selamat Hari Raya

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri To everyone

ANNNNDDDDD

My Family~you guys know that how much I love you guys =)) - Babah,Mama,auntybandar,meme,abg,my sisters,my grandpa,my aunts including uwa & iyah,uncles including uncle(amy's dad),my cousins including amy,abil,dillah,daus,fidz,sulhi...

And I dont forget to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to my friends - BSP mates, ex-school mates and friends from Facebook and friendster as well as MSN and my frends who are in UK including London,Sheffield,Cardiff,Kent,Bangor,Leeds,Manchester,Nottingham,Loughborough,Exeter,Cranfield,Dundee. I love you my friends =)

Hari Raya Aidilfitri today in Liverpool

Assalammualaikum to the Muslims who are reading this post and Hello to people who worship other religions =)

Its Hari Raya Aidilfitri today in Liverpool(and other parts of United Kingdom including Leeds,Sheffield,Cardiff,Cranfield and London) and Brunei Darussalam going to celebrate this blessful day on Thursday...third day Raya in Liverpool..how sad.

Im starting to feel homesick again and really miss my family especially my dad,mom,big sister and other members of my family including my aunts and grandfather =') I thought im going to be okay today but looks like im partially not okay lol. Well, its really sad that you're away from your family espcially during blessful days like Raya Aidilfitri..

The feelings of being away from your family during Raya absolutely 'heavy'...this is my first time actually so the impact is so deep. I started to realize the feelings of beng away from family ever since at the airport when I about to enter the lounge...only THEN I started to KNOW and REALIZE what it feels like of being 'alone' and frankly speaking, I had a tendency to think that studying overeas is like studying in Brunei also..you know you can be cheerful everyday and if problems do occur, you can still get over them with cheers lol

After I arrived in Liverpool on the first day I was so homesick to the point that I regret of accepting scholarship from BSP*whispering*yeah I know...I was so homesick that time.

I have to admit I still feel kinda homesick till now but you know, I always say to myself there's no turning back as I chose this path and therefore I HAVE to do this n.n

Had a video call with my friend azrin in Leeds half an hour ago I think..so thanks man, at least I dont feel really sad now =) after seeing my bruneian mates in azrin's webcam - Mizan,Kerul.S,Afi and Sam

A '7 days'in Liverpool

Life has been so busy since last friday and it has been a week im in Liverpool. I've been homesick as well but im glad to have Leevoi around since I need male friends here..who know, someone that has almost the same interests with you when it comes to certain stuffs like black and white rugs lol. I've been missing a close friend as well...who apparently has a problem with the internet in his accommodation so talked to him on the telephone instead(not everyday though HAHA)

The freshers fair 2008 will be held tomorrow in the Guild of students - ATTENTION - THERE willbe freebis as well LOL.

My family called me in the afternoon so Im okay now. Hopemy homesickness won't affect my studies.

My God

Mannn...I havent finish tidying up my room yet...I bought some stuffs but I just left them on the floor and then go to the city centre to shop, shop and shop..kidding...im planning to start tomorrow though after the induction stuff for international students which I can start registering from 10am..

I've been so busy these few days..homesick, asking the seniors some questions especially regarding bank and uni.

Will I succeed?

My flight's today, 7.10pm..So I cant sleep well,lol..

Im nervous,excited,sad..Mixture of feelings actually..I wish I could leave Brunei with a smile of excitement instead of tears of sadness. Thus, I have tried to involve myself with my own kind of theraphy for the past few days. Apart from convincing myself about 'Well, you can MSN with your family Zree' I tried to chat with my fellow friends who are already arrived in UK. Talked with my big sister and that gave me a bit convincing boost as well not to cry over this matter. The most powerful saying to convince myself is 'I MADE the decision to study overseas and there's NO TURNING BACK NOW..I Wanted this' =)

Now why I prefer not to cry?


I know myself very well that If I cry, it would make my homesick even worst..I cried during my first time of staying at the hostel back in 2003 anyways, though I hardly cry nowadays lol

Anyways, Im kinda excited to go UK after hearing stories from my seniors & friends =D

Plus I have many friends there including Yuud_amal_hafiz_nai_Leevoi in Liverpool, Iqmarul_amalianah_zul_kery in Sheffield, diyana in Birmingham, Ruzi_cuzin fidz_alep in Nottingham, Syaz_kerul_zudin_mizan in Leeds, kerol_zizi_Ash in London, Iznan in Scotland
(And LOTS that I dont mention here)

Plus I have a brother in Loughborough =D

So, do you think I'll succeed in preventing my tears from rolling down my cheeks?

STAY TUNE!!

A 'feather' in Leeds

11th August
I have a friend..His name is Feather..Kidding~

Went to Health Centre with a friend today to take two injections(recommended to anyone who goes to United Kingdom,you can take yours today for FREE =] ) well we could take them at the airport but it would be hectic plus I dont want to be one of the reasons that make us both to go to Liverpool a bit late.

Anyways, the moment I met my friend, I realized something out of the blue..I know..Its kinda weird =_= its like when someone does a specific action and *TOINK!* you suddenly have flashbacks about something~it happens to me often.lol.

I felt our friendship has a gap lately~well my pen you also felt the same too actually..But meeting with em again gave me a surge of thoughts..I realized that 'pen you' has been close to me for the past months..And I just realized I have included 'pen you' in my circle of close friends..Its not easy for me to consider one as my close friend..I can be picky sometimes but I do have reasons for being picky though. Both of us were in the same physics block during our form 6 after transferring from the other physics block . We were friends since then. But I didnt expect em to be my close friend. Well, you can say its fate(perhaps).

For sure, Im glad to have em in UK..Though we dont go for the same place of study. Yet, I thank God for giving me a good friend like em..Thus I treasure our friendship so much just like I treasure my friendship with my other close friends =D

p/s: To be honest, I cant live without friends, they paint my life with bunch of colours and make my days to be Vivid - may it be dark or bright yet it gives countless effects to my life.

Its Fate

Among my intake who will be doing Geology, all of them chose Leeds as a place of study except for me - Liverpool. I decided not to choose Leeds as there will be several Bruneians including my friends taking Geology there. Other places did not interest me and some demand a higher qualification meaning im not qualified to be exact. Now, Im able to convince myself that I made the right decision of going to Liverpool for Geology instead of other places like Leeds(as the rest of my geology mates are there).

Why?
Im a type of person who really like to be surrounded by 'family-like' environment so I ABSOLUTELY need friends in UK. Apart from that, I really appreciate my seniors in Liverpool for their willingness in giving us, the New intake some guides including how to get to Liverpool via train(just found out my sponsorship gave me a flight from Heathrow to Manchester yesterday lol). And I am so happy to know that one of my former physics classmates decided to choose Liverpool to do his Mechatronics & Robotic systems. Im not alone though, I have my brother who's doing his 3rd year in MENG in Loughborough. Eventhough its sad to leave some of my close and good friends, I still can keep in touch with them via MSN or social networking sites. There's no use in feeling sad to leave my family behind too as I have made the decision to further my degree overseas. There's no turning back now. I have to be strong =D

Friendship never ends

Okay girlfriend and friends..Wait..Let me try friends and girlfriend..Nyeh..I know..BOTH!

Did you ever get hurt by your girlfriend?

I did..Its painful alright..But it can make your mentality to be strong(sometimes only though).

What about friends?Did you ever get hurt by any of your friends out there?

Countless I should say, maybe I hurt them too..Who knows anyway~so I minta maaf to any of my friends that I've hurt before who happens to read this post right now.

Among all, im really sensitive when it comes to a simple yet strong word - Trust.

I usually trust any friend of mine without having a second thought. Meaning if my trust ever get betrayed, Its difficult for me to regain my trust to that particular friend.

As a result, I would limit myself in having social interactions with that friend. I dont mean I would do that forever but it would definitely take some time before I fully regain my trust.

If I ever get hurt by a friend, its simple..I would back off for a while. I have many other friends to chat and hangout with..Otherwise If I just sit and keep on filling my body with negative energies, it would just make me no good. And If I get involved in a quarrel/fight over something with a friend, I would just quickly apologize and then back off..

Even I did a similar thing once to a close friend of mine. One day, he/she was in a bad mood and replied to my question in a somehow irritating way to me..The next day, I wouldnt talk to him/her till he/she said he's/she's Okay..Im really sorry =)

whats keeping a friendship intact(for me) is being honest, able to accept each other in terms of almost anything and trust each other.

Honest declaration

Went to Bandar with my parents today..Partly because to find a traveling bag..Trust me, after seeing it, it looks handy and convenient ;D

My dad recommended me to get one as both abi&ummi know that I can be clumsy at times..Parents, they are caring hee XP

anyways, today's 'jalan-jalan' gonna be my last one with my parents this year..Honestly, I know I might sound like baby-ish but sometimes I would spend some of my 'jobless' time to think about the future and when I do, I might visualize myself being grown-up and there's no 'jalan-jalan' with parents anymore - either with siblings, friends, girlfriend or Alone. So thats why I tend to ignore the thought that Im childish to 'jalan-jalan' with abi&ummi to accompany me to buy some of my stuffs. I wanna enjoy those moments you know..Enjoy while it lasts cuz I know if I dont, I would definitely regretting it one day =)

'friend requests'

Seriously, sometimes I would get irritated by friends who seem to accept me as THEIR 'friend' in real life and MSN but not social networking sites?! =/

There's a possibility that they dont actually want to consider me as their friends...I dont mind though, I have lots of friends and close ones too =)

Its just that sometimes I feel so curious with 'friends' who seem to be okay during MSN and talking face-to-face but not okay when it comes to clicking on the 'accept' button O_o

I tried to be optimistic..Thinking that they seldom update their social networking stuffs..And realized that my positive thinking is in vain. I've got evidences as well. A friend who seemed to be unable to accept my 'friend request' in a social networking site named 'X' somehow 'able' to accept another person's friend request and that person happens to be my friend too. Kinda peculiar. This happens twice so far. In reality and MSN, both of them are okay, you know they this & that but when it comes to accepting 'friend requests'...Its like Im a complete stranger to them.

Its so frustrating when some friends act like this..Wait maybe I should'nt use 'friends'..But then again, nyehh~its not a big deal anyway X)

Maybe this is karma due to my 'picky-ness' when it comes to making friends lol

Biology recap Thanks to Vaccinations

Having the time to spend on getting vaccinated at the Pusat Kesihatan yesterday reminded me a portion of my A lvl Biology X) mannn~its a shame that I have to leave my biology..Though I will study about fossils..At least its about animals' fossils but im not sure I will study about plants' fossils though.

One of the things that im interested in palaentology is 'foraminifera' *drools..Being a Stratigrapher is kinda awesome too =] *drools..2xcombo

During Vaccinations, according to what I have been taught in my A lvl..Antigens are being inserted to our blood. They are harmless though. The white blood cells then detect the antigens and therefore through some biological processes produce memory cells(so the body remembers the specific antigen next time it invades the body) and also some specific white blood cells used to attack & destroy the antigens. Example, bird flu vaccination..Where we will be injected an amount of antigens identical to those of the bird flu's antigens. Thus, our body able to produce not only white blood cells to eliminate the antigens but also memory cells which are VITAL.

Why they are vital?
Its because, with memory cells, the antigens invading our body will be destroyed quicker and thus making our body not to suffer any of the negative effects caused by those antigens.

Informations above MAY not be Accurate. Its best you seek the correct theory and biological terms from your tutors =)

Gerai Stadium Berakas

I went to Stadium Berakas last two days(09th September) to buy some foods for Sungkai..The gerai was great since you can find variety of foods there~yeap..For the food-lovers out there, its a 'Sungkaian' place worth to consider =)

Many of the girls who came there on that day were 'mei li' too..Dont get me wrong..I just noticed that :] especially with their Tudongs on.

Charcoal Buffet

Had my Sungkai at Charcoal yesterday. It cost me around $30 though and I had to borrow the money from my brother(yeah im SO broke hee)

Overall, it was great though but I had to eat LOTS of stuffs hehe otherwise the $30 I spent would be in Vain~I decided to try Charcoal cuz I would be leaving Brunei soon so I wont have the opportunity to go to Charcoal again lol

went there with my siblings, my bro's nue pen you and my sister's friends. The Sungkai was superb indeed =D

PSTzar Reunion

6th September
I went to the gathering with my fellow PS crews and Tzar girls yesterday at a restaurant somewhere in Tutong. The menu for the buffet was okay though..Worth the $4 I tell ya~



There were 18 of us if I dont miscalculated that is..The reunion was actually our last one since some of us will be going to UK..My last to be exact =)

It was really fun especially the fact that I havent see some of them for months..Wait on second thought..TWO MONTHS cuz we had another gathering on the beach on last July ;)



Thanks to Leevoi for taking some pics during the reunion. Too bad I dont have them with me right now.



Big thanks to Amal for the plan and her efforts in booking the seats.



P/S: Im gonna miss you guys especially you, Aizat X)

To Liverpool with Raidulinah

My flight will be on 18th September, yet I havent start organizing my stuffs..lol..Am I a procastinator?
Well I have to admit it..But not always though X)



Luckily I've got a partner going to Liverpool on that day..The name's raidulinah(not real name) and she's taking geophysics. So one guy and one girl...Its okay..At least I can help her to carry one of her luggages..Or maybe the other way around LOL XP



We'll move into our accommodation on 21st september so maybe we'll spend a few days at our seniors' accommodation. I did request to the authority concerned to move in earlier though. I just hope we'll get positive answer.

Putuskan pacarmu lalu bilang 'I Love You' padaku

I decided to use song lyrics as my post title as Im fond of the song =D

To be honest, I like to be surrounded by girls especially the cute & pretty ones..Grrr plus the ones who wear Baju Kurung..but im not a playboy..No no no =)

I mean, I wouldnt have so many girlfriends at the same time..Just A girlfriend lol

After breaking up with my ex a month ago, I decided to give myself some time before getting involved with love again. It hurts to see the girls who like you getting their feelings shattered just because of your own doings.

Yesterday was kinda shocking to me. A girl, who apparently was my schoolmate last year confessed to me in MSN. She didnt confess to me in a day though. She was being a bit flirty a day/two days before that..Well, I did tell her im single now. Still, I dont flirt with her.

She told me she likes me that day..Which I thought was a joke and yesterday she told me it was not a joke...

Its Crazy~I mean..I didnt talk to her much last year(according to what she told me)..Plus I dont know her and later found out that we took two same subjects. But she's a sweet girl..liking a guy secretly..watching him going there and there..Reminds me of Korean Series lol. But its good that she confessed to me..Cuz its not good for her to keep it to herself for a long long time. So, Im envious of her bravery to confess to me =]

Not only she likes me but she also told me that she's willing to wait for me..Sweet huh? Yeah..Its sweet alright

But Im afraid I cant realize her dreams..I mean love is a complex feelings..We cant force ourselves to like someone just like that..It involves a series of inexplicable processes. Each individual may have their own unique processes. But she wont force me though cuz she just wanted to let me know that she has feelings for me.

I pray that God will give her a guy that is better than me & loves her to the fullest =)

Contract signing ceremony for scholarship students

We, as the new scholarship students signed our contract on last Friday morning at the Headquarters. It was cool since each table contains 10 chairs - 3 for each student & their sureties and a staff is assigned to sit with us. My father told me its one of the methods to organize such ceremony, in other words, to show your company, as the host of the event. It was not just a contract signing ceremony for us undergraduates but also for postgraduates. Awards were also given for the recently graduated scholars who obtained 'first class'. There are five 1st class scholars this year. Not only that, each 1st year & 2nd year student was also given an award due to excellent academic archievements.

A student representative from the new students intake was also given the opportunity to present a speech in front of the audience.

A Good speech indeed. I used to feel not confident about myself. Am I good like other students who are under other sponsorships? Thanks to my buddy..My self-confident is getting boosted up. We are assessed based on 'CAR' - Capacity, Achievement & Relationship and that keeps on reminding me that im almost as good as other students under other sponsorships including MOE =)