Deeper

I should be posting this last night and due to the internet, this post is published now.


It feels reallly weird when you suddenly become sentimental near midnight after getting some nap. On top of that you're tired after the hiking up and down La Verdiana which is around 1700 feets above the ground. Enough of my fieldwork yeah. Let me talk about something more private and a bonus for my reader since I decided to make it public =p nyeh nada deh joking there.

Changed my twitter's display picture when i was so crazy i guess...it was yesterday. But I dont know why i feel that I dont want to change it at all. In denial perhaps? Entah. Its inevitably hard to explain actually. I am certain that I may not that have "thing". You know, THE "thing". I should be direct instead right? Perhaps im just embarrassed for now X)

Im feeling like a jerk really. But I cant control it. Being cold to a person who's constanlty being generous to you actually. Ignore the fact that the person has kept some photos of you in her office or room. Sounds weird, yeah i know, obsession I guess. But the point is that the bad lammo guy here is me. Yeah ME, Aizril. Why? simply because that i constantly treating her cold whenever she text me. Answered her question, there that's it. No asking back or some sort. AND i did that many times knowing that Im being bad to her but keep on repeating it. ITs just plain rude and unfair. But I dont know why i cant prevent that from happening. I cant pretend, i tend to be direct. I cant pretend I like someone, i cant hide it from my body language, the way I treat people and so forth.

Perhaps, I am sympathize her hence. . . yeah I think so. If i were to have feelings on a person, I would surely treat that person with you know, the thing that you have when you have a relationship. Unlike now, one side's being cold to the bottom of ice cubes floating nicely on your orange squash =p anyways, I feel motivated a bit after chatting with dad yesterday during our day off. Who knows that dad actually did somethings related to mapping so dad knows about the triangular method =D thanks dad. After chatting with my mom, i suddenly miss my dad. Yeah people, i love my dad i love my mom. Apakan~ X)

Buenos Nanches!