While listening to EraFM, there's this song "things won'nt be the same again" popped up and that really rings alot of things. The song alone actually brings about many memories but I should'nt dwell into the past. I used to do that when i was first year though perhaps things were not hectic and I had more time to spare on such things x)
right, one day..I think few month ago or this month - I'm not sure, saw this nick and then decided to check the email address who owns the nick and to my surprise, it's THE girl! yeah and i mean THE!
Let's go back to the past.....
when i was in upper six, i was the emcee for this forum competition among religious institutions. Among those that participated was SUAMP - which is secondary arabic all-girls school. I was still young with the raging male hormones so i tend to be courageous enough to approach girls asking their msn - and don't misunderstand, i don't do that often though :)
well let say i was interested in one of those three representatives from SUAMP. And with my efforts, I managed to get the msn of three of them - I asked the msn of the girl that i was interested in from her friend which was also another participant representing SUAMP. I was really determined, ain't I? I feel so embarrassed!
To cut the story short, I flirted with the girl whom I was interested in by means of virtual interactions - you know using those romantic sentences and i was serious though..i was trying so hard to make her like me. To my finding, i was so surprised that the way she text in msn was let say didnt portray her physical appearance - yes, I was thinking perhaps its just her personality which was occasionally rude at me.
Later, I found out that I made a stupid mistake - I got the wrong girl! I simply flirted with her friend instead! and being ego, i decided to make things right and just confront her. I told the real girl about this and looked like she was okay with that. And so i told the "real" girl about all the misunderstandings. Of course , you would just say okay with such hurtful sayings coming from a guy. I was not being sensitive about this and selfish to be honest. Now when i think of it, she's not actually okay and she wAS actually pretending to be okay whereas she's not :s i know i made a huge mistake and sincerely hope she would forgive me. In the end, both of them didnt keep in touch with me.
The girl that i was interested in was actually really sensitive that i could not manage successfully. Things happened which made us both into misunderstandings and I could sense that she actually disliked me. I told her about the girl whom i used to like as well and apparently she conversed with the girl - its simple, the girl whom i used to like was actually HER SENIOR in SUAMP! busted! So that's where things started to get messed up I guess x)
that was really twisted at least for me x)
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