I was unstable

I was feeling so down today...hence "unstable"..I think it because I have many things to do within a short period of time..and suddenly, some assignments are being 'dumped' at me today..Great! more assignments...

I havent..
do my laundry,
buy our tickets to London,
buy fieldtrip gears for Pemborkshire this April,
buy some seaweeds and carrot juice online,
go to the city to buy some stuffs,
plan my budget this month,
tidying up my room since some mates of mine are sleeping over tomorrow,
assignments...

in addition, im worried about my magmas & volcanoes report..

Feeling so intense, I decided to "ngusut" to some of my friends...and most of them were females...ani nyaman lah sikit sudah rasa..since I bawa myself chatting..right now, I really need my guy friends...Thanks to those yang jadi my listeners yea =) really appreciate it guys, I apologize for not replying some of your texts or voicemail...

I think THIS is the feeling of being independent especially studying overseas...you have to manage your time smartly...good thing the "stress" was gradually reducing..plus, I talked with some of my coursemates..malaysian and other foreigner lah...that feeling was good indeed...

I just need to calm myself down for now and according to a mate of mine, Lanny told me..I have to do them slowly..one by one..eventhough I have lots of things to do... =)

I also realized that i was being too dependent on certain mates to share my problems with...one fact is that..personally, I think its wrong to do that...being too dependent on certain mates tend to make you too "focus" on them, hence you rather not tell your problems to your other mates eventhough your preferred mates are not available..well maybe I prefer to share my problems with certain friends only because I trust them more and i am comfortable the way they comfort me with their sayings and all that..but its wrong...totally wrong..kalau orang busy, it would just troublesome them kan? =)

the thing is...you're surrounded by many friends whom you can trust and share your problems with...its just a matter of choice...I was being igorant I guess =) Thanks God i was feeling stress tadi..ani down saja..but makin okay =) this is what I call "hikmah di sebalik semua ini" =)


Thanks to all of you yang involved =)