Am i just using her

well now it's 11.46pm and i am actually blogging this in my brother's living room i mean their living room. Spending the new year eve in Manchester instead..the other brumanch-ians are waiting for the countdown right now at the city i guess. Others(including me) decided to just spend the rest of our 2010 at our home. But here you go, singstar-ing.

Putting that aside, let's move on to something more serious. Today i have been feeling weird. I know i have reached the age where i am seeking partner(i am not a homosexual just to be on safe side) as i fear some of my readers might be - just to be cautious :) please dont take this to heart my friends. I have sent a text message to her easi number asking you know..just to make sure whether she's still using the number. But apparently still no reply. So i think this is one of the signs that i should just really really get over it.

On the other hand, i have came up with a possible hypothesis..eseh, hypothesis wah? oh man really miss blogging..been tweeting alot these days!

right , the hypothesis, perhaps i am just experiencing the kind of withdrawal symptoms?you know i have my own activities back in Liverpool - cooking dinner, working out, chat with 'kaka', cleaning up the kitchen a bit and perhaps doing some work too. But because of the holiday, i think i tend to feel more empty which is normal to be honest and you start to miss your bestfriends, friends, and family too. Since i'm in my third year now, the homesick doesnt hurt that much like previous years, Alhamdulillah.

Now because of the so called adapting to a whole different routine..that's why i am feeling a bit awkward hence started to you know, 'dive' into my past lovelives...with capital S..yes, not a player but i have involved with more than A girl =S and while i was here, the 'gatal' feelings are there but i think it's just normal considering that I'm just a normal guy. Moonlight there was a malaysian girl i was interested and other cases, well i prefer not to talk about them :)

Well there you go, i wish i could just apologise to her and talking nice to her since i was acting very cold..i think coldest ever =S that was in 2009 though until she gave up. I think i have grown up a bit to the extent i started to consider others' feelings at times especially girls. Virtual means is too a thing that i am not good with. Yes, i can be okay with strangers but not female strangers till the point i had to tell to one of my opposite gender friend that "sorry i'm not good with girls" apart from just to draw a boundary between us both.

So do i feel the desire that we could just keeping in touch with each other? well it depends, a part of me says yes...while the other half..vice versa..but i have realised one thing i was a jerk. Wallahualam :) i hope i didnt hurt her feelings like few others before. If I had hurt you, my reader..let say we had been involved with this lovey-dovey thing, i beg you for forgiveness =)

3rd year project presentation this Friday

Salam/hi guys, still havent have any time to update my blog as often as I should be, but it's alright as i can consider this blog of mine as a comfort zone to just blurt things out..not really :D

let's see - I will be having my presentation this friday on 3.35pm, with the title "the geology of Llangollen" and to my finding so far, my title is happened to be the shortest among all Geologists and GPGs..it's kinda awkward but hey if i'm not the presenter with the shortest title, someone's got to lol

right so i havent actually finish my slides yet, some addons and literature research and i'm done. What's left then is to practice and rehearse the script that i should be making by tonight!

On top of that, I am actually feeling nervous - well who doesnt right?

to make it more stimulating, I'm the first one to present during the second session! I hope i'll be fine! I enjoy doing presentation but not to the extent of being asked by some questions which i dont know how to answer but hey that's life :)

JazakAllah guys for reading this post yeah.

menyahut panggilan Allah kedua

Read this article few days ago that there are three "panggilan" by Allah to hamba-hamba-NYA; which are

1)Azan
2)Haj/Umrah
3)kematian

I havent go to Haj or Umrah. Recently, I have this feeling. It's very hard to explain by words. I really wish to go Umrah. For many of reasons. Apart from the rewards of doing ibadah there, I have one side-objective which - asking for partner. I have this strong feeling to go to Mekah and pray for Allah, asking to give me the correct woman to live with whom i shall live my entire life with. Bear some children and together lead a 'Sakinah' family. My Ukhrawi knowledge is not that deep thus I wont be hopeful my future wife to be having deep knowledge on fiqh etc but if she does, then all praises to Allah. There's this verse relating this and in one of the forum led by Ustaz Fadzilah Kamsah himself where one of the panels stated that if we want a good-mannered wife/husband then we ourselves must have good manners too. So its like karma i guess :)

anyhow, dessertation's works have been consuming my time lately. Not that I'm complaining as I am thankful for it rather than my 2nd year's hectic schedule :) and guess what I think this week perhaps D1's guest week eh? we'll be having three guests altogether in our block. Though another's tentative. In the meantime, I'm free for the weekend. But I have plans up in my sleeves as usual :)

Talking about work and dessertation, I really need to go out - be it gym or the city, any should be fine..I think i have been working too much on the depositional environmnents tiring myself mentally especially...as I always try to recall my photographic memory on particular exposures which i observed during my summer fieldwork.

enough about work :)

Dessertation project and Talk

Salam/hi readers, sorry for the long quiet period, I was busy with all the writeups when i was in Brunei let alone enjoying my summer time in Brunei. Good ol'times!

Anyways the writeups i did in Brunei were only for the processing parts including synthesis and tidying up all the data. It was quite tiring but at least i dont feel jobless during my summer Alhamdulillah :)

The dessertation writeup has started ever since first week of October actually. Its due on mid of december. But I've got a major thing to do beforehand - presentation talk..its 10 minutes i think..or 15 minutes with 5 minutes questions and answers? Hmmm...might as well re-check on it. Havent start that bit yet though..but its alright i shouldnt be panic and take things easy as I go on in this project :)

Arriving Brunei - not stationary

Alhamdulillah, I have arrived at Brunei last thursday so almost a week from now. As stated in the title of this late night post, i havent sit still at home ever since i arrived here, below were my activities :-

Friday - Miri
Saturday - jalan-jalan with my great friend Alniz
Sunday - off to Pasar Gadong with family
Monday - off to pekan Tutong to take care of some stuffs

And Tuesday - Wywy Tutong with my sister with her students. And Ramadhan Karim is just a day or two away~

One of the future plans would be perhaps sungkai with my beloved buddy, Alniz again since our hangout was short hence we didnt have time to vain ourselves but it was great and i am currently looking forward to the next one , thanks buddy guyhugs!! Lul

Brunei on 4th August

I'm currently in Leicester, staying over at my big sister's friend's house for a night before we set off to Heathrow airport tomorrow afternoon. I do feel excited about going back to Brunei but a part of me feels the opposite. Perhaps I'm attached to uk now, not that i dont want to go back to Brunei - I really really do!

It is also possible due to the reason that i still have many things to do for my project - synthesis, tidying here and there..

I think i would resume all those stuffs once i settled everything in Brunei, which would be few days after I arrive there. Today was also my last day in Llangollen..it has been a great geological adventure but wouldnt want to stay more than a month..foods are just so expensive compared to when I'm in Liverpool as i ate seafood in Llangollen simply because of the unavailability of halal meat.

And tomorrow farewell Leicester X)

Things won't be the same again

While listening to EraFM, there's this song "things won'nt be the same again" popped up and that really rings alot of things. The song alone actually brings about many memories but I should'nt dwell into the past. I used to do that when i was first year though perhaps things were not hectic and I had more time to spare on such things x)

right, one day..I think few month ago or this month - I'm not sure, saw this nick and then decided to check the email address who owns the nick and to my surprise, it's THE girl! yeah and i mean THE!

Let's go back to the past.....

when i was in upper six, i was the emcee for this forum competition among religious institutions. Among those that participated was SUAMP - which is secondary arabic all-girls school. I was still young with the raging male hormones so i tend to be courageous enough to approach girls asking their msn - and don't misunderstand, i don't do that often though :)

well let say i was interested in one of those three representatives from SUAMP. And with my efforts, I managed to get the msn of three of them - I asked the msn of the girl that i was interested in from her friend which was also another participant representing SUAMP. I was really determined, ain't I? I feel so embarrassed!

To cut the story short, I flirted with the girl whom I was interested in by means of virtual interactions - you know using those romantic sentences and i was serious though..i was trying so hard to make her like me. To my finding, i was so surprised that the way she text in msn was let say didnt portray her physical appearance - yes, I was thinking perhaps its just her personality which was occasionally rude at me.

Later, I found out that I made a stupid mistake - I got the wrong girl! I simply flirted with her friend instead! and being ego, i decided to make things right and just confront her. I told the real girl about this and looked like she was okay with that. And so i told the "real" girl about all the misunderstandings. Of course , you would just say okay with such hurtful sayings coming from a guy. I was not being sensitive about this and selfish to be honest. Now when i think of it, she's not actually okay and she wAS actually pretending to be okay whereas she's not :s i know i made a huge mistake and sincerely hope she would forgive me. In the end, both of them didnt keep in touch with me.

The girl that i was interested in was actually really sensitive that i could not manage successfully. Things happened which made us both into misunderstandings and I could sense that she actually disliked me. I told her about the girl whom i used to like as well and apparently she conversed with the girl - its simple, the girl whom i used to like was actually HER SENIOR in SUAMP! busted! So that's where things started to get messed up I guess x)

that was really twisted at least for me x)

First Day trip to Liverpool (But I'm studying there!)

Today was my first day trip to Liverpool and it was tiring. So I actually understand what my friends had went through during their day trips here x) hence its better for one to just stay overnight rather than bothering to catch the train to go back at the end of the day.

Arrived Liverpool from Ruabon (Rhiwabon spelled using Wales language) around 11am and walked from Central station to Agnes Jones House to store my fieldtrip gears. Then I went straight off to Harold Cohen Library to scan my maps so I could digitize them during my holiday in Brunei (less than a week actually, funny not that too excited perhaps I have still tons of work to do for my project!). I waited for my demonstrator at the Gilbert Lab after the bits of pieces I had to do in the library. Gilbert Lab is actually a small computer lab situated in our department.

So I finished everything by 2.30pm realizing that i wont make it for the 3.13pm train since I had to buy graph paper and sheets of A4 cards at Ryman (cool 10% student discount of course!)

As I had initially planned few days ago, I also took the opportunity to grab some bbq lamb ribs from Chicken Bazooka and it was really great! too bad I was there on 3.30pm so i couldnt take the privelege(mispelled it perhaps) for the lunch deal x) and having not eating meat for a "long long long" time I decided to takeaway some bbq lamb ribs with to Ruabon (im having some of them for my dinner tonight yummy - my shoestring chips are in the oven whilst i'm blogging lol). for 5 weeks of fieldtrip now including Donegal Ireland, I have been eating seafoods all day except for If im not mistaken 5 days? of meat.. so 5/35 days of usual diet and 30 days of seafoods...so i'm absolutely sure i would be sick of seafood by the time I'm in Brunei! :D

And have been wondering about a mate of mine, looks like he's not that "cheeky + perky a bit" as usual. Perhaps something's bothering that brother. Guess I'll just have to wait for him to cool off x) no he wont be reading my blog. My blog doesnt get visited regularly like it used to (assuming it DID! lol)

Biased sensitivity or being too hopeful?

I could be sensitive at times, depending on the time on what sort of replies I am expecting from that particular friend.

And to my finding, I tend to be sensitive with replies from my opposite sex friends - females. Yes, this does not occur to me once but more than that!

feeling confused, perhaps I think it's just my personality - women are naturally more sensitive than men so I expect them to be more you know responsive and often I failed to get such responses. I think I am just being too demanding. And as we're growing up, it's just natural that they would create a "barrier" to limit the interactions. But I think this sourced from my personality alone as it is my wish to restrict any social interactions with women. But those whom I consider as a bit closer compared to other females friends, I expect them to treat me a bit more - responsive, happy, attentive, passionate?

And guess what, I think that is just so wrong! I am expecting them to treat me as if I am special to them when i'm not. What if they DO? then how would I respond? hmmm now that's one of the thing I wouldnt want to imagine..ever -.-" so I think i'm just being naturally seeking attention from my female friends at times..I do have cool male friends, they are awesome including alniz the awesome buddy..apakan hehe :p but I do need some "love" from the other party as well...that's disgusting..you've to excuse me tonight...surely I would also feel disgusting of myself when i wake up the first thing tomorrow X)

I feel it's funny that a week ago? or more than a week ago i felt disappointed with a female friend of mine simply because how she replied my wall post in facebook. So sensitive azree eyh? And i dont feel that way with my guy friends..this is getting weird..takut ku eh..but its alright i think i dont feel that way anymore as I have become less of a hopeful guy friend now :) so I'm taking it easy and just let things the way they are..when I get married, surely my wifey wouldnt want me to mesra with my female friends right? well i would also feel the same with my wife. So yeah :) growing up process? perhaps (dot dot dot hmmm) *Publish post!

Friendship - duel standby!

After doing some bloghopping and feeling jobless tonight, therefore i would like to blog some random stuffs. I do have some stuffs that i need to do but im just lazing around hence "jobless" is just nevertheless an excuse i made in order to just think I am kinda free ;)

Friendship as any other type of relationship is subjected to face certain problematic situations. As a result, this would inevitably makes the friendship either just to be more strengthened, neutral or in a worst case, broken off. The last one does not mean you dont socially interact with the person but rather not as often when the friendship was still free from any complications.

In life, there are things that you couldnt control no matter how much you want to. So friendship is one of those - its all about mutualism just like symbiotic algae. Like a husband-and-wife relationship, but this has some further issues in itself. And yes, I am not a perfect friend. I could be ego at times, whether I realise it or not. I had misunderstandings with some of my friends. Of course, it was not that pleasant. It was rather painful. It's not easy to make friends especially those that you feel somewhat fit into your so-called super friends or whatever you want to call it :)

Having said that, I often feel sad everytime I have misunderstandings with my friend and trying to fix it can be so difficult..no..usually difficult. Perhaps I'm lacking of the so-called social ability? I would prefer to just understand a geological concept or perhaps doing some sedimentary log on a locality than trying to figure out the solutions how to cure the friendship. If I could do magic, I should just point my finger and there you go, like nothing happened between me and my friends. But that means, indirectly one can say that I would rather not confront to the real problems and just keep running away from them? Let's just forget about it..lol

Right, but I feel that the misunderstandings could also lead to "hikmah" - you would realise some good stuffs out of them sooner or later, insya Allah :) Yes I do feel sad that my friendship with some would not be as they used to be but I am growing up to an adult now - there are things that I have to accept the fact that I have to let them go :) if things are meant to be back to normal, then Alhamdulillah..if they wont then just be cool about it and be optimistic about it! :)

No, please do not take this post as a mean for me to be sarcastic or any other form of social revenge plot. Its just the things that I have experienced nso far and who knows, you might as well in the near future. Its just one of the things that you have to face in duniawi life :)

And remember that, if you ever lose a friend, let say you guys had a misunderstanding and things wouldnt be the same again then just remind yourself that you might "lose" a friend but he/she will be replaced by more than "a friend" :) yes you wouldnt get a friend with the same personality but hey, everyone's unique and you never know the potential of your new friends to fit the niche in your "super friends" circle :)

Please never misunderstand this post my friend, if you happened to have a misunderstanding with me in the past. I still love you my friend for the sake of Allah. :) We're taking it easy..what's past is past. Let's pray for each other dispite the mistakes that we did to each other ;) (oh im feeling weird saying that sentence, it feels like im saying this to a girl especially to my ex-girlfriend/ex-girlfriends lol).

p/s: for the record, i'm not a playboy. I did mistakes to girls but now im determined not to be involved with any relationships with girls. No, im not becoming a gay. Im going for Taaruf instead :) Insya Allah

Kain "chifon"

It would be almost two months till Syawal now but before that Ramadhan, an extraordinary month for the good deeds to be gandakan sepuluh kali ganda :)

As for Syawal, since this year's theme is blue, i need to get myself a blue Chifon( or shifon) not sure with the spelling though. Anyways, a kain that has abstract pattern on it but still portrays its blue masculinity..so i am planning to go for navy blue instead. I think ever since im in the uk, i have started to prefer dark colours compared to bright ones...you can see that i rarely wear bright shirts nowadays :s

Llangollen Wales~

Its my 12th day of fieldwork in Llangollen today and I have started the sedimentary logging on the quarry down by the roadside..it was great though it was mentally exhausting..

mapping will drain you physically
logging aka detailed analysis would drain you mentally instead

so either one would just make you tired at the end of the day. As a result, I need a day off at times to keep my notebook tidy and every bits to be tied in as they should be.

And its less than 3 weeks for me to go back to Brunei, im excited but a bit nervous about my project as the day's drawing near to 4th August.

new meow meow family

I am so happy right now, Alhamdulillah our mother approved the idea of adopting a kitten...its going to be cute one!

so i m waiting for a good news from my sister about the newly adopted kitten as they will go and fetch the little kittling later (so Brunei's time is now 4 am of 9th July) let say i should wait for 12 hours more! :)

can't wait to go back and hug & kiss the kitten. Of course, by the time I'm in Brunei, he/she would be a bit of grown-up so teenager cat :) sounds cool!

Demotivated in Llangollen

I honestly feels demotivated. Perhaps because of the area itself. It's huge but at the same time its steep making me to think twice of climbing certain parts of the cliff. But i have to start mapping soon. Thinking about mapping the area just makes me unhappy simply because i have a height phobia and always being hesitant when it comes to climb steep cliffs.

Today was my 3rd day reccy and yes, due to my stubbornness I almost got into an accident - falling off from the hill..well not really, but thanks to my height phobia such accident would become realised in a higher possiblity. Nauzubillah!

And tomorrow would be our supervision day so i have to make sure i've got plenty of questions to ask before I independently "analyse" the area. Well not alone most of the time..i dont mind working with my friends if its possible as my friend said it would be easier for us to look for each other in case there are dangers..and boy oh boy, steep cliffs are just a no-no here!

on top of that we have to hike to see some exposures, so i bet we'll be fit by the end of this project!

Azrii’s Donegal diary – Day 12 - final day

Blogged during Friday – 2nd July
The final working day involved us doing a sort of independent work where we had to plan everything from scratch what sort of stuffs we would like to know about the locality hence establish the aims from all the planning. I was really puzzled and bewildered and slowly getting grip of the project. Hopefully the hypothesis and model i proposed in the notebook are acceptable at some point. Though i am not sure whether the data i collected are the ones the lecturers and demonstrators are looking for. Just hope for the best then (:

We stopped at Belleek before going back to the cottage to give some chance to those who wanted to shop for some stuffs. As for me, I took this opportunity to phone my sister as Belleek is one of the places in Ireland where the phone reception is set back to UK due to the fact that Belleek just off the border of Ireland, I guess?
At the cottage – started to pack up some of my stuffs and now it almost done though. And around 8.30pm went to cottage 7, the cottage where Jamal and my other Saudi friends currently living in to return his clipboard. And spent an hour and a half there hanging out with the boy. Guys having fun, that was what Alex said. That was indeed enjoyable though the stuffs we were talking about or joking about seemed to be too adult-ish? For sure, i wouldn’t want to hear them almost everyday. Once in awhile doesn’t hurt though X)

Right now its 12.53 am and i should hit the sack soon. We’ll be departing from our 4-star accommodation holiday home sharp at 8am. And we’ll be visiting one of the most famous heritage site – the hexagonal pattern of tertiary lavas. Definitely no geology tomorrow, just exciting bits of science wonders and nature..one of the uncountable God’s creations

Azrii’s Donegal diary – Day 11

Blogged during Friday – 2nd July

Feeling happy than yesterday, simply because its the second last day for the Donegal fieldtrip. But apparently I was not glad with the work we had to do that day – sedimentary logging of Mullaghmore Head. And this time, we had to be serious about the log as it purely contributes 1/5 of the proportion of the group poster for the Donegal basin. I have paired myself with Jamal. I was really moody at first due to being unconfident with what we supposed to do. On top of that, both of us didn’t have the grain size comparator with us on that day. So I had to use estimation when it comes to determining the grain sizes –absolutely not an easy task!

I slowly cheered up myself seeing the log sheet and the interpretation & environment section slowly being filled up. I shouldn’t be moody in the first place though as it was Jamal’s birthday. Luckily he’s cool about it and I did apologised to him about me being moody on that day though. Once we set our feet back to the cottage, it was really relaxful as we didn’t have anything to worry about that night so i spent the rest of the night watching anime and drama, something that I found it hard to do amidst being busy during most of the nights just to arrange some work stuffs including notebook and group projects.

But it was also a sad night though as the marks including overall average of my second year were available and so i went to see Graham, who is our course manager. Its alright though, I still have my third year and its still too early to give up =) insya Allah.

Azrii’s Donegal diary – Day 10

Blogged during Friday – 2nd July

Day 10, the deadline for our group poster explaining about “the evolution of the Donegal basin”. As we still need data for the quadrat fossil analysis in some areas of Bundoran bay. I volunteered to do the data gathering along with Jamal, who was also in the same group. I was struggling with the quadrat analysis and had to be reminded by Jamal how it should be done. But slowly though, I started to pick up things bit by bit. In the end, it took more than I expected it would be. Few hours just to do quadrat fossils analysis in three different localities. Of course, wouldn’t want to waste the opportunity to take some pictures and some “vaining” would’nt hurt, right? ...after the data gathering though.

I felt really useless in the group due to the fact that I could only data gather for my group but not able to process them so they are useable to be “sticked on” to the poster. I really need to improve on such skills. Turned our group was the first to hand in the poster. Feeling glad that the final group project’s over, it was still too early too relax as we had to hand in our notebook the following morning for the final assessment worth 30% of the module too. The group poster’s deadline was 8.30pm so you could imagine people still had to work till late at night to tidy up their notebooks.

Azrii’s Donegal diary – Day 9

Blogged during Friday – 2nd July

Okay day 9, what sort of stuffs did i do back then?

Oh yeah, the rough work for Bundoran mudstone Formation starts on that day. I started to erect a sedimentary log which stretches from the base of the mudstones till the base of the sandstones. It was a tough work as later at the night i got exhausted that I found it hard to do some bits of work for our group poster. Being understanding, my group mates kinda forced me to go back to my cottage to have some rest instead. Its appropriate though as I couldn’t focus doing the work. So might as well just sleep off the tiredness. And I still remember I started to feel the fever slowly building up inside me. As a precaution, i decided to take some paracetamol before i went to bed.

Azrii’s Donegal diary – Day 8

Right, today starts the simulation of so called “independent fieldwork” where we had to arrange our time and also might do the stuffs on Bundoran bay alone. I don’t mind to do the logging alone though as THIS is the time i need to cultivate my confidence level for my independent project next two weeks that is. I’m just hoping that my group mates would understand me that I prefer sometimes to work alone not because I am not find it cool with them but it’s just so that i can focus on my work and get the logging over with as soon as possible so that i can start the correlation and perhaps GVS.

And I am starting to feel blessed to be the only Bruneian of my intake doing the course, hence the fieldtrip to Donegal. Why? Otherwise i would be dependent on my Bruneian friends instead, thus not wanting to interact with other colleagues who are not of the same nationality. So things are turning out to be cool indeed. Alhamdulillah 

Today was just reccy or reconnaissance so didn’t do much but the fact that it was running cats and dogs was just not too good especially for me. On my way back, passed by the shelter point, and got barked at by a bulldog and i thought i was a goner for sure that moment as the bulldog seems like wanting to bite me, perhaps I have lots of yummy meats with some fatty acids eh? Kidding X) but LUCKILY the owner shouted at the dog to stop his unfriendly act to a stranger. Being panic and not knowing what to do I just sat at the shelter with my lecturers and demonstrators. I had to wait till the rain calmed down and thus, the dogs’ owner bringing his dogs away and further from me.

Azrii’s Donegal diary – Day 7

Blogging this at – Day 8. Now what happened yesterday..oh yeah, some kind of drama in my life I guess. But it was cool. I didn’t make it a big deal like I sometimes do. I guess I’ll just keep this to myself eyh ;)

Right, the deadline of the first assessment of our notebooks was yesterday, one hour after we arrive at the cottage. And let me tell you about our last locality. We were so tired and many of the students feel asleep on the way to Aughris head, the last locality of day 7. Even the staffs feel asleep too. Yes, we had to visit 5 localities yesterday. Pretty tiring to be honest. So we arrived at the cottage on 6.00pm hence deadline was 7-ish pm. But too little time for chillax~ as the next group project starts tomorrow. Had few problems sorting out the group. But its fine, I think its okay to make sacrifice once in awhile, insya Allah there’s hikmah. I just cant wait for this to over..Im just finding difficulties at times, but boohoo, this is my third year module.

Azrii’s Donegal diary – Day 6

Project feedback received in the morning and utterly frustrated. Perhaps knowing this is a 15 credits 3rd year module makes it more depressing. But having frustrated many times for the past few weeks (i mean exams), I dealt with it quite okay. I do feel however the residual frustrations still..but its alright, there’s always next time, I just have to concentrate on the next projects then!
Our first assessment notebooks would be tomorrow so everyone has to hand in their notebook 5.00pm tomorrow (Day 7). I do really feel GLAD that it has been almost a week since I’ve been staying in Donegal and being a pesketarian (wrong spelling perhaps? Hee). And i still not able to continue watching a Korean drama – “Personal Taste”

When i was in Belleek after the fieldwork, phoned my sister while only having 80p worth of 02 credit (+447523848589 thats my number)..see I feel so disconnected that I’m revealing my phone number in the blog. But its okay, I don’t think a stranger would give me a ring or text message. Right, when I reached the cottage, tried to recharge as my credit was 1p after the phone call and what do you know, *recharge is successful*! Feeling happy, and at the same time thinking that the allowance must be out then, Alhamdulillah..to be honest I only have around £4 in my reserve account! Well its alright if the allowance would be out let say on the scheduled date which is 28th June..as I still have 28 euros left, enough for me to survive till 2nd July with fish and chips + of course, lemon mayonnaise sauce! Hehe

And lastly..I feel so emotional and sentimental right now...I need a girlfriend! Whom I could joke with, main poke2 di facebook, manja-manja...hugs..love u mwah text messages..and I think i am so thankful I just have ex-girlfriendS now as I have decided to go for “taaruf” but I think im just growing up and occasionally the hormone would strike me down with such “manly” needs..dont get me wrong, not the thing related to, in biological terms – sexual reproduction. Okay this has been too detailed enough. Sleeps! *texting si kawan, wishing ia perempuan sanangku propose, erk..this is so wrong!

Azrii’s Donegal diary – Day 4 & 5

I’m typing this in day 6 though..well day 7 to honest actually as now its already 12.05 am. Right, how was day 4 & 5? I would say things started to get busy!
Day 4 – we had a meeting about our group project poster and arrange everything, I had a handful of confidence in this thing, thinking everything would be completed in time. My task was to arrange bits of pieces of the younging table based on the structural relationships found during the duration of the fieldwork (Day 1-4). So in the end, I slept late at night..and woke up the next morning with my occasional moody look as a result of not having enough sleep.


Day 5 – deadline for the project(Ardara Pluton poster) was at 8.30pm and our team could not finish the poster in time...especially referencing the younging tables based on our notebooks. We just didn’t have enough time to put pieces together. Some other teams were also struggling I guess. A project done! WORTH 30% now that’s really brings the chilly spine through my back~Sleep..Text a mate of mine, I really feel so disconnected with the outside world right now..but I am still thankful as I have started to get along with some of my colleagues as there are 30 of us on this trip and each 5 living in a 4-star cottage. I think we deserve such quality of accommodation judging how this fieldtrip has been treated us ;)

Azrii’s Donegal diary - Day 2 & 3

Day 2 & 3
Okay i give up, i find it hard to type in malay so allow me to use inggeris then..inggeris kapal  kidding..day2 was nice and today also has been okay for me, finally starting to pickup few things although to be honest I am still confused with what's gping on with the geology, that is why i prefer not to have my independent project involving igneous and metamorphic rocks, I am just not that good in identifying minerals!
Tomorrow would be another locality after spending two days in Tremore beach...at the end of the day, many of us just fell asleep in the coach during the coach journey back to our cottage, and thankfully, the accommodation in this place is totally luxurius! 4-star accommodation..i think this is the luxurius fieldtrip ever and not that physically demanding compared to last summer’s Cantabria Spain..though frankly to say, this fieldtrip is mentally demanding? But it is to be expected for a 15 credits module.
On top of that, there’s no internet access here so we have to go to either nearby pub or the public library..the pub and library are just within 15 minutes walking distance though..and I still haven’t try to take a look at both..well im not interested in the pub but if I have to go there for internet access, I guess I would just do it once or twice..this is my 4th day without making any “outside” contact..this means no facebook or twitter or whatsoever..we’ll see how long I could take it ;)
And thanks to Al~ as always yang selalu melayan si kawan..he’s been a good guy friend, if i ever need a friend to reply my text in a long form, then he’s the one I could ever depend on  i guess i have a collection of friends and Al~ just fits nicely to this “niche”  payah ni cari kawan macam ia hehe. Alhamdulillah.

Azrii’s Donegal diary – Day 1

Hari ini merupakan hari pertama fieldtrip ku di Donegal, saat yang dinanti-nantikan. Bukan kerana “iski” akan tetapi diriku tidak tahan apa yang bakal ku hadapi dalam fieldtrip ini. Selepas berlalunya “day 1” , susah dek kerana mencuba memahami butiran-butiran data yang diperolehi. Sebagai penuntut tahun tiga, kami diajar oleh para professor-professor terbabit dalam menguruskan projek geologi secara berdikari.
Syukur ke hadrat ilahi walaupun diriku merupakan penuntut Brunei tunggal bagi kursus ku , akan tetapi saya tetap mempunyai sahabat yang terdiri daripada pelbagai warganegara. Ini bermula selepas fieldtrip ku ke Cantabria Spain pada musim panas yang lepas. Oleh kerana kursus selama 2 minggu tersebut, saya semakin akrab dengan beberapa rakan seperjuangan yang belum pernah ku bertegur sapa. Kalau iya pun, mungkin sepatah dua sahaja. Walaupun tidak serapat dengan sahabat-sahabat yang mempunyai warganegara sama, tetapi sekurang-kurangnya tidak lah terasa kesunyian tersebut.
Balik kepada fieldtrip tadi, lokasi kedua merupakan pantai “Tremore”. Lokasi pada waktu petang di pantai ini memang dibajiri dengan anjing-anjing belaan penduduk yang menetap di kawasan berhampiran. Oleh itu, aku tidak betah duduk melabuhkan punggungku ke pasir pantai ataupun batu yang dalam “field of view” ku. Dalam perjalanan pulang ke bas, seorang rakan menegurku tentang ketidakinginan ku terhadap mahkluk Allah yang dinamakan sebagai anjing. Lalu ku meminta maaf kepada meraka seandainya perangai ku itu mungkin menyinggung perasaan mereka. Tetapi, sejuk juga hati mendapat tahu apabila rakan ku itu menyatakan dia juga serupa tetapi tidak seteruk I je!

My Donegal, Ireland fieldtrip iterinary

Copy-pasted from the document sent to ENVS students

Due to adverse weather conditions etc. the sequence may be changed or the content of an individual day may be changed. Adverse weather may affect the time spent on a particular project.

A variety of tasks will be set using field techniques appropriate to the geological problem under investigation. Some of the work will be marked (provisionally indicated by *). We may change the days we choose to mark and may take your general performance and attitude throughout the field course into consideration when arriving at a final mark.

Saturday 19th June:
Travel to Donegal. Introductory meeting (at time to be arranged).

Project 1; An analysis of the structures and mineral assemblages in and around the Ardara pluton. Construction of an integrated history of deformation, metamorphism
and intrusion.

Sunday 20th June:
8.30 a.m. depart in coach. Rossbeg-Trawmore Strand structural and metamorphic
analysis.

Monday 21st June:
8.30 a.m. depart in coach. Trawmore Strand structural and metamorphic analysis*.
Review of notebooks, deadline 5.00 p.m.

Tuesday 22nd June:
8.30 a.m. depart in coach. Trawmore Strand structural and metamorphic analysis*.

Wednesday 23rd June:
8.30 a.m. depart in coach. Carrickfadda-Clogher structural and metamorphic
analysis*.

Thursday 24th June:
8.30 a.m. depart in coach. Maas-Binwee-Tully Beg igneous analysis, studies of
contact relationships and internal petrographic variations*. Project deadline 8.30 p.m.

Project 2; An investigation of the palaeoenvironments, palaeoecology and
depositional history of the Donegal basin.

Friday 25th June:
9.00 a.m. feedback on work submitted. Depart in coach after meeting. Shalwy Point basement and cover relationships and sedimentological analysis. Keenaghan Lough basement and cover relationships and, sedimentological and palaeontological
analysis.

Saturday 26th June:
8.30 a.m. depart in coach Rosses Point basement-cover relationships and, sedimentological and palaeontological analysis. Rosses Point-Red Hill-Dunmoran Strand-Aughrus Point sedimentological and palaeontological analysis. Review and
initial assessment of notebooks, deadline 5.00 p.m
.
Sunday 27th June:
9.00 a.m. feedback on work submitted. Depart in coach after meeting. Bundoran
stratigraphical, sedimentological and palaeontological analysis*.

Monday 28th June:
Bundoran stratigraphical, sedimentological and palaeontological analysis*. Final
assessment of notebooks, deadline 8.30 p.m.

Tuesday 29th June:
Bundoran stratigraphical, sedimentological and palaeontological analysis*. Project
deadline 8.30 p.m.

Wednesday 30th June:
9.00 a.m. feedback on work submitted. Depart in coach after meeting. Mullaghmore
Head sedimentological analysis*, deadline 5.00 p.m.

Project 3; An analysis of the petrographic variations and history of intrusion in the
Blind Rock composite dyke.

Thursday 1st July:
9.00 a.m. feedback on work submitted. Depart in coach after meeting. Blind Rock igneous analysis*. Studies of contact relationships and internal petrographic
variations, deadline 5.00 p.m.

Friday 2nd July:
9.00 a.m. depart in coach. Travel to Belfast. Travel to Liverpool.

updating the blog layout

For some, a blog is a private reflection of oneself and subjected to be viewed by others. So one might deduce one's personality based from his/her blog layout though it involves ambiguity. For me, I decided to make my blog somewhat a "relaxing" place hence chose the nature background image with some what I consider a masculine touch aka black colours on the text boxes etc. But I will be updating some more.

I am really nervous with my upcoming fieldtrip this saturday. We'll be having advanced geological field techniques, which will take place in County Donegal, Ireland. And I have to be at the John Lennon Liverpool Airport by 5 am SHARP to catch the flight at 7.00 am to Belfast.

Break at Leicester

arived at my big sister's on last wednesday so tonight's my 3rd night in Leicester. We went to Alton towers yesterday under University of Leicester so its much cheaper with student discount..just around 19-ish GBP inclusive of the coach and all-rides pass! considering for a person who does not fancy the thrill rides, that's a good bargain :)

I did not spend much there, except for the photos, so here's the outline for the expense at the theme park:-
photos - 15 gbp
food - approximately 6gbp

and I still feel tired after the trip yesterday as we spent the whole day there from 9-ish am to 6-ish pm...and managed to get on 10 rides(for me)... :D

Exams over - reaching the end of my second year!

Finished the exam since last friday 12pm...now its my 4th day of post-exam...its 11.50pm though..so moving on to the fifth day...not that too excited. As expected, the feelings of "blur" is slowly taking me over bit by bit. I guess its because the exams drained too much of my time such that I felt time's clicking too fast..way too fast to be honest. But now..im feeling the time's slow again. The thing is I had this feeling where I have lots of things to do when i was having my exam...and now the feeling's gone. Really irritating at times. But its alright, I need to cool down before my fieldtrip this 19th...hence my first day of being a third year*gulp!

I will be going to Leicester tomorrow and Alton's towers day trip on thursday! Then off to Loughborough to stayover at my brother's place. So I guess I better enjoy my remaining days of being a second year! :)

New friends!

Just a quick update, made new friends when "school" reopens..it was last two weeks actually, Syamil and Hifdzul came to our house to pay me a visit..thanks a bunch guys, then the following week, Hifdzul came to our house again for the second time, but this time he was with Rusdi and Khalil..a group of three from Manchester, they didnt stayover at my house though as i was busy with assignments.

Exam's just around the corner, nervous and not confident...the usual stuffs!

I am hoping to update the layout and stuffs, HOPEFULLY..

Khiari from Sheffield - last week

Khiari came to Liverpool to pay a visit though i felt guilty towards him. Why? I am just not good at entertaining my guests, yes i dont mind indulging their stomach but no matter how much i hate it, i am still not confident and good at keeping them happy in terms of leisure stuffs.

Good thing Khiari dont mind staying at home most of the time though i rejected his proposal to watch a movie..not really a movie person - and here you can see how stubborn i am..a no is a no..you have to be careful with that Azree!

Khiari's funny, so i had fun having him as my guest, always do the stuffs which managed to make me laugh! awesome.

Thanks for coming Khiari and dont jara! feel free to stayover again so we could play more videogames =)

Intense week

i dont keep my word after all..i have group report, group presentation, a chronostrat of Milford and hydrogeology assessment to finish up which due sometime next week.. =s on top of that i have to work on some bits of pieces on my independent project location related stuffs and of course, the exam's just around the corner!

as a result, i got panic last night..i still am actually!

felt sad about something but i think i would just prefer to let it cross my mind and therefore preventing it from distracting me :D insya Allah..had a hot shower just now..now i feel refreshing, but i am not sure what should i procede..should i continue my chronostrat or do some hydrogeology research for our group report and presentation? i think if im too confused what to go for, its best to just do both partially til the clock strikes at 12 so i can go to sleep as i got a practical at 9am tomorrow

Guest for this weekend

My guest for this weekend is none other than Khiari from Sheffield..Last week it was Zul who came here..he's from Sheffield too..so 2x Sheffield combo?

Still too tired to update my blog..im planning to change the layout and stuffs..and i hope there will be returning readers who are willing to read my blog :p hopefully :)

Going to be updated soon

Second semester is going to be over soon and i will be proceding to my third year next term..time flies so fast! sorry for not updating in ages! i will try to change the layout and everything..i mean almost everything if im not lazy :p

soon to be updated

Why "tunang" keep on popping in my head?

I find it weird these few days as "tunang" is one of the things that keeps on popping inside my head...Its like the urge to "bertunang" is overwhelming right now. Weird but funny. Pelik tapi kelakar X)

anyways, i even updated my facebook status and msn nick with something related to bertunang..even worse, im making people believe that im actually bertunang soon..i mean in msn..few friends in the list thought im about to bertunang (probably though)..im so tired actually...of what? entah X) im so lazy to do my assignments..perhaps its so intense since last weekend that i prefer it to be easter holiday tomorrow...but not so fast..we have another group work to finish..due this friday..erk!

Finally an update

hi guys, finally bother to update my blog..i have to agree the most busiest week of semester 2 must be this week! 4 courseworks to hand in? isn'nt that crazy? i have been busy with assignments and hence didnt have time to blog..or to put it into a more honest statement, I am too lazy to update my blog.

And its almost April now..time goes by so fast..didnt realise im almost at the end of my second year now X) and when i think about it..my second year is not that too severe compared to my first as now i tend to feel less homesick..which is a good thing actually..and im more able to control my sensitivity and emotions now..but still, i have to admit that at times they are beyond my control. Hormones perhaps? im turning 21 soon~ erk!

anyways, easter's coming soon..im not sure whether im looking forward to it or not cuz exam's just around the corner..eventhough its gonna be another two months from now..but i still feel anxious though..especially now..but im thankful to God that the uni being sporty about giving the students a week for revision before the exam..fewh..otherwise i would be struggling to revise..second year certainly is a BIG leap compared to first year X)

Learning not to make excuses

Hi guys, I'm sorry for the seldom update, but i'll try to make it more weekly than before, alright? lol =p 2nd semester is sure pack with 9am classes..believe me, Im still trying to get use to it X)

anyways, as always in almost every post I have something to focus on. This time, I'm in the mood of saying stuffs about misunderstanding with your friend or friends. Its normal to reach a state of disagreements in something with your friends, that's what they say..each person has his/her own mode of interpretations. Some may blend together in harmony, however for some it would just lead to chaotic arrangements. I have a problem with a good friend of mine. Yeah, I'm pretty tired with this stuff going on every now and then. The fact that both of us are opposite in almost every aspect might just makes us easy to be not only close mates but also temporary "enemies". That's why I decided not to think about it too much as I still have many that I can mingle with. Angry? Its normal to feel angry with your friends in varying degree of course. I was mad at first for some reasons actually but I was thinking there's no use to involve yourself with such negative energy. You know, just move with your life..you lose a good friend, but God will always replace such sad thing with many good things for instance, you get to have more than one good friends. don't you agree? I'm not saying its better to just leave the misunderstanding unsorted but if one's tired with the repeating cool and not cool friendship, what's the point? Plus, I'm not the type of friend who likes to have a friend who's using me or in other words, regard me as a "stepping stone". I think that's why I gave up. The intolerance towards the feelings of being used would just make me draw a distinct boundary to seperate myself from the individuals who would do that to me =)

But I just hope things would just be back to normal. I don't pretty much mind about it though. Just go with the flow. This time I would to restrain myself from making excuses. I would just prefer to listen and explain..rather than adding it up with pointing out the stuffs that my friend/friends did wrong to me.

1st semester exam ends, now the 2nd semester starts!

Hi guys, it has been a while, hasn't it? sorry for the seldom update, as stated previously, i personally think 2nd year really "drains" you your free time..I've many stuffs that i want to do but looks like i only could do some of them. But its okay rather than having no time at all to be spent on your preferred leisure stuffs right?

just finished my exam this afternoon, around 4pm here. Really glad its over now...but I've got little time till the first day of second semester which is NEXT monday -.-"
but its alright, im cool...enjoying the last few days of first semester....here's something for you guys!

(^_^);;;;;;;;;;;;;>> what's this? it's a CATERPILLAR!!! XD

I just don't like this

Let me ask you a question, do you mind if some of your friends would take some chances on you when you're in the middle of SOMETHING important? and i mean really really important!

Perhaps i misunderstood the situation but let say the interpretations i made were correct. I just couldn't explain why certain people would not think of the slightest bit that some would preferred to be left alone during the exam period. I just dont like being used. I know doing a favor is a good thing, but im not sure im capable to do that especially when im gonna sit for a paper which im not confident of. I just dont like the fact that im going to be disturbed during the exam period. Even thinking about it can make me angry. I should control my emotion. Its just unfair when you think about it. Your friends who finished their exam earlier than you would thought of crashing in without thinking that you might heavily affected by such idea. I know its such not a big case but i was feeling angry about it the moment i knew it. I am feeling am taken advantage of? which i totally loathe. oh man~now my revision kinda behind the schedule..sorry for the post X)

She misses me, she misses me not

It has been a while i havent type something in this 'dusty' blog of mine. I still remember when i had my first semester exam last year's january. That was the month i was very active at blogging. Unfortunately, second year has turned me into a busy undergraduate who occasionally wishes that the course would be an easy one to go through...lol

anyways, i think its normal to act weird during exam periods including now. So I tend to feel sentimental almost all the times. As a result i was feeling something about Ellysha. I think i was missing her. But that's fine. There's nothing between both of us. It's all over now. Still, i dont want to deny that i too at times wish we would still be friends. X) silly thing eyh?

Sole undergrad Geologist?

seeing a colleague of mine posting her twitpic somehow made me realised(again!) how lonely I am..as a geologist here. I do have friends but we don't always talk..if we do, the stuffs we talk about are usually work work work...and work. Leisure stuffs? keep on imagining XD or should I say eat own dust azree! tsk tsk tsk!

feeling sad? nyeh im used to it actually...it was hard at first..i even struggled. I even thought of imagining how I would be doing if i were to study in a university where there are at least TWO bruneian students who are doing geology! but I know there's always hikmah about something..in addition "Boleh jadi sesuatu itu kamu benci padahal ianya baik bagimu" which means the things that you totally unlike and wish you would'nt encounter in your life can be actually benefit you =)

So to reframe, what sort of benefits I get? this can be useful if you're a "loner" like me as I am the only Bruneian geologist for my intake here =p

-I have the courage to ask almost anything about work to my lecturers or demonstrators,

-During the sedimentary processes & environment practical, I get to keep all the space on the table to myself. Yes you would see my things here and there on the table, still no one's care ;) ,

-Demonstrators would just occasionally see if you're okay or not with the practical and if you're not just say "no im not okay" and I did that during my last sediments practical as it was super hard and i didnt understand anything at all!

-Rather than depending on your colleagues for things that you dont understand about the lectures practicals etc, you would just have one choice, that is to see your lecturer and BEG him/her to give the answers...kidding =p

so yeah, for the Bruneian students out there, if you're just like me - "Sole" in your course and not good with socialising, don't feel bad =) all the best to those who shall be doing their exams soon. Ours will be on 18th January!

I am so nervous and yet I still so many to cover!!!! HELP? Chill~ Insya Allah! Bittaufik Wannajah!

Finally alone LOL

Do you trust me if I say I am finally alone in my own room after almost 4 weeks?

My siblings came over for 2 weeks and five days...

14th December - 2nd January 2010

It was awesome, didnt expect my siblings to extend their stay till january 2010 ;) at least i wasnt alone right? lol I mean there's hakuna matata accompanying me at the end of 2009 X) hakuna matata = family in my context though

Anyways, I will be facing intense weeks starting from 18th January as I will be sitting for my first semester exam!

Dates of examination :-
18th, 20th, 22nd, 25th & 28th

To be honest the 28th is kinda a bit of a spoiler really :p but owh well, im not alone to have his final paper on 28th though cuz levoi's final paper will be on that day too*yeay HAHA

Talking about exams, Im slacking off actually...the weather is just making me to laze more! yes its awesome to see the snow covered everything here and there but the cold part really annoying at times..wait I should say ALL the time =)

Wait, about the alone part...91 empress road is back to usual again after this afternoon as Iznan's departing for London. Poor mate, he was supposedly to arrive London two days ago actually (5th January) but due to the heavy snow, the coach got canceled and thus, he had to buy a new ticket.