I was chatting with one of my mate...and changed my facebook's display picture by that time..and he told me it was gayish...which made me feel hmmm..yeah you're right mate sort of thing hehe..so i decided to change it straight away...
Then chat punya chat..i forgot how did we reach till people paying attention to the pictures i uploaded at my friendster and facebook though..i think it started after my mate wanted to tell me the facebook display picture looked gayish to him and tonight he decided to bagitau saja..
I dont mind pulang ia gtau hee..cuz i believe that im different from what i am in my gayish pictures...but im very surprised that some people paid attention to the pictures i uploaded across the internet..i mean facebook and friendster...even this blog of mine pun i didnt expect people to read..
I said to myself something like "heck, what's interesting about me or my life anyways?inda drg liat or baca tu,zree"
I was optimistic back then huh? now i know...i have to be more careful from now on..but in terms of blogging..i dont mean i would reach the point where im going to make my blog to be private..thats totally wrong cuz when i decided to make a blog, i should have realized that people can read my blog anytime...so if i make it private right now..macam what??? jua tu kan lol X)
One thing i dont mind jua cuz...today, a person reads my post about stuff called "X"..will he/she remember about "X" after let say few days or weeks??? for me it would be a no..so thats why i dont bother about posting my "stories" in this blog..besides, some i prefer not to blog about X) so im actually telling you some bits of my "stories" saja..which i believe most bloggers like that..it would be not fun if everyone knows all about you kan..secrets would just make your life..err..interesting? Xp
Anyhoots, about pictures atu..i really kesian my mate lah..macam menyusahkan kediaku ane..im feeling bad actually...other people told em to tagur about my pictures...balik-balik..i dont mind if they tell me directly..cuz even a close mate of mine pun pernah tagur..yeah it was crazy that time..i posted a picture of me, half-naked showing my ARMPIT hairs!!! LOL both my mates atu - male and female..told me somewhat disgusting lah..lol..and yeah i heard other bad comments as well..so maybe i dont mind kale if people tell directly..i even made a poll in my blog masatu selahau X)
but involving my other friends atulah aku rasa guilty lol...
anyhow, i think just like some..they have some freaky parts inside them...and i believe..the poses i made in pictures which made me look gay probably just one bit of freakiness which is part of me.."im not perfect"...classic statement lol..if some of my friends cannot accept that freaky part of me..that means..they are not true friends tah tu..ouch it may seem to some..but thats my stand..
I shouldnt blame my facial appearance for the pictures produced sampai cematu kan...im thankful for it n.n its just that the way i contract my facial muscles need some adjustments HAHAH but payah jua..some pictures even i dont do the vain pose..i would still look gay..i think..maybe its the way i look...you know..gay face??SELAHAU mate..lol X)
Yang ku takut bukan apa...how my friends judge me saja after looking my vain pictures atu..i dont mind kana comment lah..cuz i think some may like and some not kan..just like me..i dont find many jackets here fancy..so thats why i decided to buy a jacket from Gmarket..since im into asian fashion like clothings in ego and bingo..im so in love with their style..lol
aku baru sedar lah..but before that..sorry balik2 aku type hee...its just that aku baru sedar people surrounding me..some i suppose actually pay attention to the pictures i posted in the internet as well what im typing in this blog of mine..to my friends yang selama ane menahan rasa kan menagur bout some of my pictures yang overly gay...wanna say thanks to them so much =) i know they tak sampai hati..or takut aku berusik hati hee..but i think i should change lah...payah tah aku memikat perempuan...im not gay..so making gay pictures is just not gonna work it out..lol..i think aku start vain..cuz i thought girls like the vain pictures of mine..padahal inda HAHAH..gays and bisex suka plg...and friendster proves it X)
but kadang-kadang im wondering..what makes people sometimes to pay attention to what im doing..you know, why i took pictures like those...and why i wear this, why i type this and that..i dont blame their urge to know..cuz its human's nature to be curious about something..aku used to think nada urang pay attention, especially my pictures, so thats why ku upload tiaaaaa X)
and im also wondering..what if...what if...i look different from what i am right now..you know, what if i have a sudden change of facial appearance..like for example, a girl who got sprayed rah mukanya acid..you know kan..would people be interested to know about her life after that???
same like to what im wondering about now..what if my face looks different..like less appealing or atrractive?i dont mean to say im attractive..i mean...what if "kurang" lah...would people still interested to know about my life????would people still make comments about my pictures???would people question for my gay-produced pictures??would there be the same amount of people berkesudian baca this blog of mine???
If a girl says yes..i would marry her...kenapa?that means..she looks my "inside" rather than outside..astaaa...out eh..i mean i would get to know her lah =)
msn : aizril_aries@hotmail.com
seriously why did i type my msn???lol...for some perplexed readers..welcome..i guess this is another weird part of me =)especially my friends...this is my other self...which i rarely show in reality X)
Minta maaf to those who are offended by this post..really..tiada di tujukan kepada sesiapa..this post is di tujukan to my other self..just to remind him
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