Kisah Cintaku di Old Trafford

Guess what, i have to admit im not such a huge fan of football but yeah, went to Old Trafford with my siblings and few friends. Manchester is great though although its SUPER huge than Liverpool. And to be honest, I didnt set my feet on Manchester other than the train stations =p now im starting to consider of staying over at a mate's house there..perhaps sometime after the exam?

Had a tour around Old Trafford...was feeling kinda lazy and moody since i would just prefer staying at home laze around and do some bits of peices HEHEH! but luckily with my sister's around, dying to have a look around the stadium i forced myself to tag along =p hehe..i was on the verge of cancelling the trip though X) that clearly illustrates how lazy i am that wednesday!

but its worth it..its kinda fun..but the one thing that made it more worth it is the fact that i encountered a PRETTY malaysian girl who was on the same tour group with us. She was accompanied by few of her colleagues though. Didnt realise her till after some time..then i realised some weird energy taking over my body and mind slowly...till i lose control..okay slight control of myself.

Im not a stalker guy but I WAS at old Trafford...I SECRETLY took her picture when she was posing against one of the walls at the stadium..and i have been using her picture as the display picture of my twitter, facebook and msn..super stalkier...but changed my facebook's profile picture though

alright let me continue the remaining bits yeah? there's nothing much happening back then. We did stare at each other for a few secs at the MU store =p but i was acting "jual mahal" so didnt do a thing after that..salah bah..now i feel regret for being such ego-ish guy =p tidak apalah...it was my fault too..i think she purposely let herself alone for quite some time at the store back there just to give me some space perhaps?

what's embarrassing..quite embarrassing I should say is the fact that my big sister told me that her friends were looking and laughing at us...I guess they noticed I always took a glance at their pretty friend eyh? yes..super honest..i cant control myself back then! lain lah..such thing would be super rare X)

Twitter getting crowded!

hi guys,great..i think my twitter getting crowded, its more or less the same with facebook now. Not that I follow many people or i am followed by many. Its just, i think Im getting transparent. I used twitter just to let out few stuffs including some stuffs I want only some to know...sigh. But now that its getting crowded, its just back to basics I guess X) I probably be more active with blogging soon if i want more privacy that is...occasional privacy would be good. You can keep certain things remain "unknown" to others and at the same time you have a good warm place to let everything out - e.g. blog =) yes you tend to type longer than twitter, but some people would find it troublesome to check their friends' blogs individually rather than finding out the updates of each in a single web page. Hence, blogger seems to be the good private place now =)

1 more intense week

My report due yesterday...4pm..submitted it on time..fewh..now to concentrate on other bits of work - Sediments practical book and two structural geology assessments!

the practical book due next friday and one of the struct.geology will be due next wednesday..talking bout the work load...im developing insomnia i think as i dont have time to revise for the exam =.= the assignments are just endless!

Azrin came here tonight to stayover for the weekend..he'll be going back to Leeds on Monday, the same day my siblings coming over too..tomorrow morning will be yumni from Notts...I am so tired after spending few hours on the kitchen to prepare some breakfast and dinner in advanced.

1)Ayam Panggang Lemon
2)Banoffee Pie
3)tuna Shepherd pie

though the last two didnt turn out like I expected they would be but anyways, there can always be a room for improvement right on the second try?

Its been a while

I remember back then..during my first year...blogging is an activity which acts like a homesick-nator for me and one of the things where i can vent out my feelings about things that had happened in my life. Now im on my second year, everything slowly changed...more workloads..hence no time for blogging. I do have the mood to blog every now and then..even thought about what to post about..but didnt have the time to "transcribe" it to my blog...

I have an essay worth 12% due next monday..and a fieldtrip report due next thursday..again its worth 12% like the essay too. I will QC(Quality-check) my essay again before i move on to my report..i seriously need to focus on my report now..at least 10 published literature? thats a load..hopefully i can fetch some geology of spain later tonight..did some grocery shopping with nai just to "fish" out some stuffs...didnt go to the city though..its too far plus it was already late! now its 4.43pm and its already dark outside..not to mention cold and wet~

my room's in a mess too...mannn~I canceled my trip to Leeds next weekend...for a reason though =p will talk about it perhaps next time when i have the mood to type more!

Jumbled up

when i read my previous posts...my English sounds so weird...owh well...perhaps the assignments bits of pieces really making my mind a bit intense~

longing for a sole weekend?

Its a bit irritating when you're indecisive with something - in this case my weekend. I remembered telling Naida that I really want some of our friends coming over during last weekend and wait, i did twitted that too when i was at azrin's place last two weekends lol. But then after realizing I have an essay due today, I changed my mind preferring to have the weekend all to myself. Little did I realize that a close mate of mine interested to go to Liverpool...and there you go, my wish came true ;p I am happy though since spending weekend with friends is a great thing to do..you feel the weekend as if its like more than saturday and sunday X)

Azrin came over late at night...good thing there's a cab late night...I think he arrived our home around 1am?I think..and he went back to Leeds at 10.15pm from Liverpool...beat that boy...he is so far the 'late-returner' among all our guests - 10.15pm...awesome lol...who can ever beat that in the near future eyh? X) but its great...ada lagi barang-barang nya ketinggalan.

I think I have enough of 'unsole' weekend..perhaps this weekend i can just rest at home and do some assignment bits or just play games and watch some movies~A sole weekend...last time i had one was first week of November X)

Cleaning the house

Sedimentary Processes & Environment's Practical book due date is today at 12pm this afternoon~Glad I managed to finish it but not that good though..Im not confident with some especially my synthesis parts =/ I am so worried. Plus we have this so called Evaluation assessment as well...saja pulang ku bagi such name hehe...its actually where you have to EVALUATE your own work and give some marks on each of the practical sessions - Like Portland/Purbeck Practical, would you rate on the work you done on it as first class, 2-1 or 2-2..and so forth. To be honest, Im not good at such kind of thing as I have low self-confidence at times~but what to do..lambat-laun there will be times I have to do such things jua kan..so yeah..I tried to do it jua..Our lecturer emailed us that we have to justify ourselves why we give certain marks as they are..so yeah..reasonings and all that..be prepared to "debate" tah gayanya ni huhu~


Anyways, i already planned to tidy up my room today as well as cleaning the house a bit. Done the vacuum part..next would be the toilet when I take shower later at night...fewh its so tiring...but its worth it as the living room's now more cleaner than last few weeks lol..Must be my mother who disciplined us to such things..but im so plain lazy..so I will wait my rage towards the dirty bits erupts and KABOOM! cleaning time...when you think of it, cleaning stuffs can act as a theraphy too..No?

I will have my dinner later and probably procedes to my next assignment - Essay on "Forceful Crystallisation" and asked dad about how to write essay so i definitely going to use dad's guide..ilalliqa readers! =)

There are times things would force you to "evolve"

A HUGE assignment has been "thrown" at us this week and seriously...to be honest, im not really confident with it, I will try babah's tips though. But I just want to let out certain stuffs here just to make sure some bits of it wont affect me that much few days later. There are times that you expect some people who are close with you to help you with some bits of pieces. So you approached them and asked them a favour or two. To your findings, they cant help you and you cant blame them for their unwillingness. They have reasons. Yes, i can be irritated with such things especially when I see them as "simple" and not that too serious. But that would be selfish of right? yeah its not serious for me but what about others? People dont think the same thing all the time right?

I just have to swallow this thing slowly..you know like a python..except it takes me more than 24 hours to swallow my "victim" lol X) anyways..i guess its about time I depend on myself and "spank" my inner self so that i gain more confidence on doing this assignment. Its true that you feel frustrated and down after realizing that some people would just step away from helping you but hey, look on the brighter side..you become more independent and more err...stop relying on your colleagues? I can just approach my lecturers straight off if I have problems right? And ask my attachment supervisors for more concrete advices regarding this assignment.

Out of Liverpool

Stressed with current workloads, I really need to get out of Liverpool at times hence I decided to go to Leeds during this weekend. Arrived here last night via coach which got delayed making my journey to be approximately 3 hours. As a result, my head felt a bit awkward. Im not alone though. A mate from Sheffield joined me in staying over at a mate's place here. I even brought along my assignments =.=" I just dont like feeling panic once i get my feet back in Liverpool realizing that I have an assignment due this tuesday!

This week's kinda relaxing for me and i tend to slack off. But i think its alright since last two weeks were kinda hectic for me. Since i wont be going anywhere next weekend, hopefully I have some time to go to the city for window shopping. I just stayed at home for the whole weekend last week. I dont mind if some of my friends are coming over to stay at my place though as I have my sediments practical book due this thursday and there are tons of things to do. Yet, I have an essay assignment due next next monday =.=" Im alone in my mate's room right now, both of them went out to jog to somewhere. I am so lazy to join in given the fact that I dont have the mood to do so cuz im planning to do some bits of my assignments later.

A confession : I like you =) I think!

Finally remembered to watch Nona at TV3 online just to see "her". I have to admit im not good with dealing matters related to feelings & girls. Yes I can express my feelings to my friends - tell them i dont like or like about things they do but girls? I mean girls that you would consider to know 'deeper', totally not my thing. But, on second thought Im just glad for that for certain reasons actually. I cant avoid from develop some feelings towards "gadis-gadis". Its just how nature works I guess that's why dilarang untuk melampaui batas I guess.

Before, I always believed that I can harden myself from developing any "suka-suka" but I think its too late to realize that its an undeniable fact that I started to develop perasaan towards a girl whom right now I want to keep in touch so bad. But I would prefer things would stay the way they are right now. I dont want to have a relationship. I prefer to be engaged directly instead. You know, Taaruf =) Im very serious about it. Hopefully. I realized too that Im liking the wrong person. Yes, I have her picture in my laptop and I still have her easi number. Im going to delete both soon. I actually mentioned deleting the picture in twitter a day or two ago but I still havent done so. pfffttt =.=" I have to be strong. Wait, I only have her picture in my lappy..ONE..and just her =) so yeah dont get me wrong here (if let say you are hee)

So im going to move on and just forget about the stuffs that happened between us from now on. I dont mind us keeping the silaturrahim intact but I dont want anything to do with her that related to feelings anymore. "I miss you" is just an easy thing to say in the phone and type in the texts but how about in action? I am so glad that I was ego eventhough now Im the one who's in trouble..yikes..my bad..pelik ah..I think that's why certain things they say "datang tanpa diundang"? complex than how 7.5m of tidal range is a characteristic feature of tide-dominated coastline =s

Alright, officially I want to end the bits of pieces between me and her with this song =) semoga silaturrahim masih terjalin.

Super Intense Week

Im currently in week 6 which is the week of peak stress for this semester. The deadline for the poster slide of Crosby Beach has been postphoned to...TODAY and exploration geophysics assessment's deadline is today too...as a result, i had to do the assessment till late night and now im feeling a bit tired. Will try to sleep early tonight..hopefully. Im not planning to travel this weekend cuz i think i should have my own weekend here, you know, strolling around the city and grab myself some millie's cookies or even trying out the new milkshake at Keys court...yummy, and its vegetarian too, super awesome :D

anyways the presentation's tomorrow and we havent decided who's gonna talk on bits of pieces yet. Coreldraw dues this friday too, ergh.

Brunotts Raya 09 & Siblings gathering at Leicester

Alright, havent been blogging ever since i've been doing my CorelDraw work?

anyways, Went to Nottingham to attend the Raya celebration there. Alep's invited me and I had been thinking that its better for me to there early rather than in november or december where the sun will disappear EARLY. Same goes to Leicester. So I've been spending a lot in travelling given the fact that i had purchased 3 tickets to Nottingham! dont want to dwell into that matter...I have reasons >,< CARELESS ME

Brunotts Raya was great. Didnt get so lucky to win anything though but I felt its kind of stress theraphy =) which is great cuz I've been stressful because of the CorelDraw. Didnt stay at Alep's though as I was staying over at my sister's for the whole weekend. Sunday's the day i got to explore Lester's city. My brother even went to Lester that day so we had a siblings gathering lol..though i have to say its a quick one since my train's 2pm so i had to rush. Fortunately the train station isnt that far from my sister's hall so i could walk there alone.

Raining assignments

Ever wonder how it feels like standing on a middle of nowhere just to expose yourself to endless assignments??? Deadlines are so NEAR!

I'm chilling at my big sister's room right now, will be staying here for the whole weekend. I must get ready for next two weeks for the painful mind blowing bits of pieces!

Azree's Toiletries Exposed

Fancy to know what toiletries I am using right now? you're in luck cuz rahsia 'kamar mandi' Azree bakal dibocorkan*peeping toms jumped around..nadadeh =)

here's the list :-

shower Gel - Body shop Satsuma shower gel
shampoo - Loreal Elvive (brownish-orange, i forgot apa HAHA)
Facial cleanser - Biasa je for oily skin :)
Toothpaste - Colgate whitening (nai's last summer leftover I think HAHA)

Toner&Moisturizer - Batah dah saya tidak pakai, malash =) hee

Dying roses in autumn?

Let's make this a quick one...I have been so lazy this semester sigh..maybe the assignment's due date is just two weeks away? BUT...I hate procrastinating...still...Im doing it right now. Tao Yen. X) anyways got a lecture in a bit...15mins walk from uni? tiring yet this is good due to the fact that i have a month of independent project next summer 'appraising' the geology of interested area. Im planning to take sedimentology since im not good at other fields and not to mention my lack of confidence in field. something that I need to work on is increasing my confidence level in being "setahu gaban" =D hopefully I can merge out being one after few months Xp

Mann...I have to resume my cross-section and HOPEFULLY get my hands dirty on the GVS and CorelDraw >,< Gotta stop lazing around..tomorrow's packed with 6 hours of practical..sigh...3 hours in the morning...another 3 in the afternoon..exhausting? you can say that again...again...again and AGAIN =p

It's safe to say to say both of us are in poor data zone

Its monday and thankfully this year, I dont have practical on monday, awesome. Anyways, I think im currently in my sentimental mood tonight so yeah be prepared for a jiwang-ness(i think :p) post yeah.

Been wondering about a friend whose name is Ellysha. I prefer to use that name of hers. Same with me both of us have long names - which is awesome and uniques =D but the thing is that I have lost contact with her ever since im back in Liverpool. She told me she would be going to UK at the end of last month but dont receive any news from her ever since we talked over the phone a day or two before my flight. I was at McDonald that night, Ge Ge's treat HEHEH! cant resist you know - free burger from your big brother..I am so lucky to have a big brother HAHA what a spoilt youngest SON hahahahaha..nadadeh =) I am manja but doesnt show it berabisly in front of others..I think =D

anyways, back to Ellysha, we're just friends..told naida bout her..and talked bout her at times with Naida..well,Naida did ask me something which I denied. Entah eh. In denial? nyehhh...let's not dwell into such feelings-related matters shall we? =D msn pun jarang online and my o2 number pun tidak di contact. Tidak apalah..pandai-pandai tah kedia contact saya tu nanti..saya? no I dont have any of her contact details apart from her easi number and msn =) & her picture..wait..busted..nooo, I just keep her picture(without 'S' that is) with tudung =) hee..she asked mine too..i mean my pictureS HAHA =D nada deh..

Gay or Bisex? YAREEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

Weird things have been happening to me this week. Seriously something wrong with me. I think...I think I am getting "itchy" you know...that itchy where you tend to take your hands and "scratch" girls. Okay maybe im exaggerated it a bit. Maksud saya, si Azree Ainul makin GATAL!!! haha. Yeah, Im not joking right now. Seriouslyyy being honest here. Why? For some my reasons may be kinda less convincing.

1)on Tuesday, when i was on my way back to my house from metamorphism practical class ont he afternoon around 5pm I noticed a PRETTY girl*drools...she's a chinese though..from the looks of it lah. I was staring at the traffic lights waiting for the "teet teet teet" so that i could walk across the other pavement...then i noticed that beautiful girl standing there doing the same thing - waiting for "teet teet teet"! see its fate & jodoh (nadadeh joking saja). But im over it now. Saja-saja tu...and guess what she made me look at her twice..ergh..my bad =) i just cant resist*pokes me eyes

2)In facebook...i just got internet access at home yesterday right so im heavily facebooking right now..then when i was browsing through some of the pics that my friends uploaded ------ ERGH! my mind just went crazy and says something like "lawa jua perempuan ani ah...wow!"....not just A girl..but GIRLS..Capital S if you havent notice =p jk...nada bah..just two girls =) and even brave enough to joke around with one of them about webcamming nanti...man...i just..entah eh..I seldom like this...berabis gatal...

Yes I was feeling bad at first...but hey...if we think from other point of view..that clarifies me not being gay or bi right? HAHAHAHAHAHA see, obviously i am trying to make myself feels okay about being gatal - boys will be boys? erk...as long as i dont have the tendency to have a relationship..cuz im planning to do a "Taaruf" =) more romantic and ada lagi lah sebabnya =)

Dont take me wrongly..i dont stalk people at faceboook..orang saja stalk saya..jk =) i dont mind ppl checking through my facebook actually..otherwise what's the purpose of making my profile public right? =) hee

Tangled

uni life has been so tiring and at the same time a bit exciting for a bit. There are just too many assignments i guess and im not confident how to do some bits of pieces. Man...I have to be prepared mentally during the next few weeks then =.=" I dont have enough time to revise too which makes me kinda worried. But I know this is part of the "ordeal" that i must go through and...and you know, try to get used to it?

Anyways, I am planning to cut my hair tomorrow cuz it has become so thick that i find it hard to dry em up at times. On top of that, im always lazy to use the hairdryer after getting myself superwet. I was planning to get my haircut at the Salon in Chinatown but a friend told me that it has closed down since last month..bad luck...kempunan ku =) tak per...not my rezeki tah tu heee so I decided to move to the next available AND affordable salon =)

Its kinda a date..well sort of..HAHA since my friend's planning to cut his hair too..so its gonna be a cool saturday then..and i have to get my hands busy on some assignments as well...i know----->weekends for relaxation? that doesnt really work on me.

I miss my bloggy hoggy!

hey guys what's up? good news! Finally have internet access in my home...what a pain..had to wait for a long long time..yet i am actually using my friend's wifi who happened to live nearby..so yeah...ours will be sorted out end of this month!

will update soon! I have lots of things to talk about - are you ready for my bibiran-ness? =) mwahhhhhh!!! HAHA

Deceived by a 'maiden'

I can be too sensitive and pessimistic at the same time. So various thoughts can just popping in and out at a time - positivo & negativo.

Perhaps I am just influenced by the taiwanese series that I am currently straining my eyes on - Miss No Good. I have a feeling that my situation was a bit similar to some bits of pieces in that series. Tang Men is a guy who's in denial that he has developed feelings for Xiao Hua. Well, he even tried to remove the thought. I havent reach the final episode yet but maybe Tang Men will end up being with Xiao Hua instead.

Im just feeling that i have been deceived all this while. A bit disappointing though honestly speaking things wouldnt work well between me and that person. I even rose up from my ego zone of denial bit by bit just to find out its just for nothing? Really 'Tao Yen'...yes, receiving SMSes from her somehow kinda triggered or stimulated a bit of dopamine deep in body, but what's the point if all are just merely hoaxing hoax-es X)

Tried to contact her via msn and then through the mobile number. Its just too silly why did i even bother to text her back in the first place. I shouldnt put my trust on her, even a slightest pinch of it. I am glad I didnt take all of her sayings easily but rather questioning them myself. For now, I would just put myself in a refractory period. I dont care anymore. We're just better off with being friends who dont trust each other then. I shouldnt contact her using my Easi number in the first place too. I was too 'soft' I guess. Sometimes being stubborn in this type of stuff is actually a blessing in itself x)

Thus I would try as hard as I can not to text her for the time being. I am just swayed heavily after the deceiving bits. There, I feel better now =) Thanks.

Ka-Ching Overlimit

This week would be my final week at Tutong since we'll be celebrating Raya Aidilfitri at Belait - the usual thing we do annually =p

Went to HuaHo tutong for two days in a row just to buy some bits of pieces for my 2nd year. Im actually overbudget. Bought these and those. I have to admit seeing those discounts labels popping out every now and then as you stroll around is totally making myself a mad shopper.


Easily tempted + quite okay price = Buy it preasee!
Exaggerating pulang bunyinya X) but didnt mean that i would easily give in myself and go to the cashier straight away..its just seeing those discounts makes me go..you know, relaxed? Diambang bahagia nya urang..speechless lol. Today's tuesday - i have 9 more day =|

wo bu ming pai zhi ke Kan Jue

Raya Aidilfitri will be making its way soon, less than a week actually. Honestly speaking, i am both overjoyed and sad due to this wonferful month of Syawal. 24th is the date where i'll have to fly off back to uk, repeating the cycle itself for the 2nd time. I tend to be unstable emotionally easily when im away from my family. For that, i am quite nervous though it is exaggerating to say i have survived my first year.

One of the best ways to if not overcome it, endure it is to remind myself what my head of department and supervisor said to me. This is about sacrifice. As a person undergoing enormous development, i must withstand such impact. Though i have my brother and sister studying there too, im still too far away from them. The only time the three of us could gather together would be during easter break or december. Nevertheless, i should be thankful that God hasnt make me a loner there. I would just have to think positively whenever im engulfed by the mist of pessimism..

Back to the Battlefield

My presentation was yesterday marking the end of the 8 weeks attachment. Time sure flies fast. Now i have less than 2 weeks before going back to Liverpool. Erk, i pray my homesick would not be too severe as last year's.

Let's not make myself dwell into the abyss of sad homesicko for now. After the presentation, i had a talk with my soon-to-be head of department. Quite nervous actually as i am just a puny little student. Take me as a caterpillar and him the butterfly, so that means we have huge level gap between both of us. Labih jua my perbandingan ani, astee~

Anyways, i did some luahan terus-terang including the thing that i am still looking for something that can motivate me in my workplace and then the fact that i have to return back to brunei around august after doing my 6 weeks independent project. Consequently, i was splashed on with good digestable answers and thus, i am glad.

Presentation Please

Tomorrow's my presentation, so i am actually less than 12 hours away from my freedom! =) happy and at the same time feeling nervous...i did rehearse but just hope i wont forget some bits or even mess up some of them. Hope not.

The presentation will be starting from 8am-9am if im not mistaken where me & ks will first kick off the meeting with our project presentation followed by our senior. The whole department will be there, yikes. Wish me luck.

Fayyadh reunion 09

We started this thing since last year. It was aziim's idea that four of us could meetup somewhere and just have some great together. So i decided to call it Fayyadh reunion instead.

Since Iznan's flight was on friday, 4th September..i had to plan the reunion earlier though i was planning to make it after 11th cuz i would finish my attachment by that time. So yeah, we had the reunion earlier than i had planned up. It was at Express tutong so that almost everyone could make it. Too bad Aziim couldnt make it. There's always next time :)

It was great eventhough there were only three of us. Given the fact that we had been friends for almost a decade, its sure cool. Talked bout a lot of stuffs including my half-naked pics in friendster =___= alright it was my naughty self when i was still in form 6. I think i still havent delete them yet. Man, so gay. Aizat even told us honestly that my body doesnt fit nicely for half-naked..i think maybe due to my skintone X) i mean it would look feminine instead. Perhaps bipolar attraction? Nyeh..i dont do those half naked pics anymore nowadays. Referring to what Aizat said, i told em that its a curse to have every pic of yours look gay. But he said those in fb are okay. What a relief, otherwise its hard for me to flirt with girls eyh? Nyohoho. And one more thing, i bet im the lightest among us four since aizat's 70-ish kg, iznan's 64-ish and me still 55-ish..aziim?not sure.

I would just end it this way, the reunion was awesome.

Our Circle's gathering

Just like last year, there was a gathering held at a restaurant for a circle of smsonians where most of us belonged to either the PS crews or the girls' tzar. I am stamped by the first one though.

This year, its the same venue - wywy Tutong. Sungkai buffet is affordable there and what's more important, its worth the $5 as you're not required to order any side drinks. The gathering was great though i had to leave early before 7.30pm so i didnt talk much to those who attended the gathering but managed to get myself squeezed in some of the pictures taken X)

There will be another gathering for me next tuesday too. Its what i call 'fayyadh reunion' though there will only be four of us - psst..dont get the wrong idea, we have reasons why there are four of us only :)

Cousins are foreva

It feels so great that whenever a misunderstanding which lingered in your life for quite some time is resolved. I had this misunderstanding with a mate of mine who's also related to me. Good thing it has been fixed. We're cool now ;)

Lets just neglect what the hassle was about. Its right to say it was me who understood certain things. I text to the wrong number. So i didnt receive any replies which i thought the other party was reluctant to bother replying to my SMS. Thus, i just let it be thinking that i would just leave it like that for the time being. Just glad its settled now. Cousins mousins, do you agree?

Coming out of the office

At times you would wonder why certain things are just thrown mercilessly at your face forcing you to just swallow and gobble them up. Every last bit. Not even leaving a single trace.

Sounds 'pajal-ed' right? I was just glad that I went to the outcrops on thursday. I believe i was too constraining myself at my desk to finish off the project. As a result, stress and moody are my best mates. Looks like i cant lie properly. Im a person full of expressions. Even my supervisor knew i was moody. Looks like i cant pretend im okay whenever i have something disturbing in my mind. I would just show it via expression instead. Thats the way i am me guess =)

Talking about the HLP on Wednesday, it was really great!

An Unexpected consequence

I just read an email from my supervisor about the TSG fieldtrip this morning. Quite shocked actually. There were two empty slots for that trip. Just enough for both of us - me & ks. I am reluctant actually. Even asked my supervisor whether it's compulsory or not. Yes we must join along. I was planning to continue with our project. Didnt predict such thing would happen.

I was reluctant with participating with our department's HLP too by the way. Too much enthusiasm with finishing the project? Not quite.

But i am glad that i joined it. I think me being moody these few days could also be the fact that i am
Stressed out with work. Too constrained in the work place. Now i kinda feel great. Not sure with later though. I can be unpredictable at times when it comes to this mood thing.

Owh well, tomorrow's the trip. Hope to see some trace fossils. Perhaps some skolithos, cruziana and zoophycus?

Entah

I was listening to this song titled "Entah" by Afghan and suddenly my eyes go watery out of the blues. Its so funny but yeah it happened.

Anyways, i managed to contact the person that i have rejected before. Feels great actually. Just unsure why i am happy everytime i receive a reply from the text i sent. Apparently i think that person has given up on me. I am okay though. I prefer to take it easy. You know, being friends and who knows if the two of you match with each other then go for that thing. I guess its still too early for me.

Its great that the silaturrahim is still there though =)

Alone or not alone?

Sometimes you would feel down. You decided to talk less and socialize less. During that time you would feel you're a loner. Yes, you walk in the dark alone. Crying wouldnt make a change either. You're free to hop around the grassland, but still you're alone. In some cases, that is not true. You wouldnt realize that you're actually alone till you're feeling so desperate.

I thought i was alone. But no..i was wrong. There ARE people who actually kinda if not fully understand my problem. And mate, you know who you are. Thanks so much for those words and reminders as well. You reminded me about hikmah. For that, i am truly grateful my friend =)

Mood = KaBoom!

There are times that you just cant sleep at night despite the fact that your body is so tired. I am just annoyed with myself today. Even tonight. Even hearing my housemates talking inside and outside my room is like a pain in the ear. I know this is so harsh of me. But i just feel so unstable today. As a result, i prefer to be less talkative than usual. Even i am confused with myself right now. Maybe i am worried about my work too. So yeah..so irritating isnt it?

I dont think talking to people would make feel better. Perhaps blogging can do the job dont you think so?

Bbq night at H14

I didnt expect such event would mean a lot to me tonight. Really, i even didnt act according to the schedule that i had planned before - 10pm stop it and get ready for bed. Probably that i knew the juniors are required to be at OGDC by 10am instead of us the seniors by 8am. Anyways, i didnt expect myself to have some fun tonight. It was great. Its 12 midnight-ish right now so i decided to call it a night around 11.30pm. Plus I had to take a shower before going to bed too.

Okay,enough about that..the bbq was really great. Yumnie's PS3 is making tonight's bbq more err bombastic hehe. I played Mortal Kombat..i just love fighting games, even won some rounds and it was great to beat your colleagues couple of rounds in Mortal Kombat X)

My last year attachment's supervisor is here too. Even my petroleum engineer 2nd sepupu was here. Great stuffs. Even now they are still singstar-ing lol. I am so tired, would prefer to lay on bed for now then will try to sleep amidst the happy noises lol.

I was not into this bbq but turned out that i like it all along. Its really cool. I just had one problem. My appetite. I just didnt have big appetite. Not sure with the problem though. Alright i must off to bed then. Zzz

Divided among two

*At Berakas forest reserve*Here I am, sitting on a 'pondok' attending bruleeds bbq at Berakas. I was invited by a friend though so i am acting as a guest here. I am fine. Just a bit tired i guest. This year's attachment sure is tiring. But that's not the main point that i want to emphasize in this post.

There are times in life that you have to choose between two. Both are important. Both need you to think for err quite some time? Nevertheless you need to choose ONE. Only one. Even you wanna buy wii console so bad, despite your cats' frieskies ran out of stock, you wanna run till you stop and say "ngaleh ku eh".


*at home now*Okay, labih jua saya tu. Anyways, it depends on myself whether to go here or to go there. If there are no obligations in each of those two, then i am free to choose whichever i want. If some people ask me, then i would just tell them honestly why i chose the other one over another one. Sounds Complicated tah pulang yea?

I just realized that sometimes certain things are not i expected they would be. I would just deduce things from the past and just apply them in present situation which is wrong. Many things are not static. They do change. I am changing. Ergh, i am so confused right now. Maybe it was my bad of not trying to involve myself that many. Perhaps i didnt feel obligated compared to the situations when i am surrounded by my 'own orang'. Or perhaps i was being too quiet. What's important is that i learned certain things with my very own eyes. This is enough Azree. I think i am just not too strong when it comes to facing two things which are equally the same or maybe i was expecting too much in the one that i chose X)

Its about Twitter

I think i am addicted to twitter now. But that's not a problem. In fact i am fine about it. Its just that I am unsure whether the REAL twitter actually fits me or not. Twitter basically from my own perspective is to update your circle with your current activities or events and might as well what you're feeling at that instance. So from there, I know what my friends are doing. To simplify it, i would know other people's stuffs. Sometimes i would feel myself being too nosy with other people's lives. I would feel annoyed at times. I think its just not me.

In some cases, i think i dont have the actual privacy that i desire for in twitter as many people would also know what i am putting there. So I decided to make new twitter account just to indulge my seasonal privacy-preferred periods. This doesnt mean I am abandoning my current account. I will still be using it but not that actively though.

I welcome all to follow my new twitter account but i have to warn that i might not follow people or even my followers. I apologize for this matter. Maybe i need some privacy at times =)

Family Occasions

Family occasions took almost the rest of the day but its worth it ;)

Had lunch at Capers and decided to go for buffet. It was really great. Tried some of the pastas and pizzas. Carbonara was really a blast! I LOVE it!

Went straight to HuaHo Tanjung Bunut just to checkout some stuffs. Dad brought me and my brother to the men's section to check on some clothes. Didnt buy some. Plus wouldnt be of pretty much use to me too.

There's tahlil arwah at Kapok - Uncle Samad's house. Too bad we came late. People had already finished eating. I felt so embarrassed! And i Mean it HAHA but it was okay though.

In Denial?

Okay, I have to admit that im finally missing the occasional 'annoying' miscalls, attentions and random bits of sentimental that had been said to me. Its my fault for acting cold to that girl. I should have given her my easi number but would i just continue to act cold against her?

It has been ages since we last contact through msn and i even kept a picture of her in my laptop. So am i being in denial all along? Or just getting myself drowned in a whirlpool of confusion?

Wonder of the shelf edge point

Sometimes I would question myself whether Geology is my thing or not. Though i made it through the first year, the difficulty level in the second year would be a lot more since the modules deal with deeeper bits!

Anyways, a bit of history here*closing my eyes & imagine* the fact that biology catches my interest buds is an undeniable truth. BUT, am i willing to do a course that deals with pure biology or has to do with biology? To be honest, i am not sure myself. Biology from my point of view deals with solid facts that you have to know and constantly reminding yourself as some of the theories can be easily forgotten. Just to end this biology-related thing, i am still liking biology so as a result i like palaeontology module in geology. I think there is a possibility that i just like seeing how animals behave or interact either in man-made or natural environment and not about the "inside".

Yesterday, I was motivated by my supervisor who's happened to be a structural geologist. I was asking about shelf - part of deltaic system. And he explained about continental shelf edge. As the explanation was progressing, i found out that the continental shelf though is not a big thing, it is actually interesting in itself. The question remains WHY. . . from my perspective, the bit that makes it interesting is that the continental shelf EDGE can 'move' depending on certain factors including sea level & rate of sediment supply. Then due to the conversation law, if you have low height delta with a sea level that stays high, there will probably be erosion taking place on the shelf region hence the delta will prograde causing the continental shelf egde to be shifted further. What's more interesting is that the continental shelf edge point can move upwards too without any process where sediments got deposited. Now, what can trigger such phenomenon? The answer lies beneath your feet! :)

Far far below the place where the worms and other deep soil creatures slither and crawling lies a mega energy of process called "TECTONICS" which can be the answer why the shelf edge point shifted upwards. This can be triggered via uplift! So geology actually deals with huge uncertainty of interpretations depending on how you imagine why they are like that and how can they be like that.Enough said, im tired.

The summoned Tears

Yeah. I have to admit. I did cry over the problem during the wednesday afternoon at the reading room. I felt hopeless. I felt its a big burden over my shoulders. Mixture of feelings consequently gave rise to tears that rolled down my cheeks. Its funny that when i tried to cry in uk, i just cant. But now im in Brunei, they can pop out from my tear glands. Luckily i was alone. Wiped off my tears and tried to make myself looked as if nothing happened. Then i went back to my desk.

Pinned down

I am feeling so down right now. I feel like I have thrown myself into a land filled with goodies at first but later, I am surrounded by ferocious beasts ready to chew me and tear my pieces apart. I even reached to the point of telling myself that it is a big mistake to involve myself with Geology and studying it in a University of my choice. Even worse, I reached the point where I start to visualize the "what if.." which is bad as Islam discourages one to do that. Another crazy imagination of mine is that Im not longer involving myself with the current things. You know, what if I am sponsored by different sponsorship.

Its not about the study. I am fine with the stress periods and all. Its just about something. Yeah something. Which i think I could not say it loud to the public. I am sorry. But I just want to let this out. Yeah saying this loud to people face to face would be more effective but the problem is that will there be many individuals who understand the situation i am in right now?

Its like a mate of mine may feel down at times but in reality I cannot feel the same just like what he or she feels at that instant moment. Rather than just saying it loud to every friends that i can get hold of and distract. Its better to let this out in my blog instead. Its like talking to myself. Me who really understands what Azree is feeling right now. I can just hope and pray for now. Being too rebellious would make my situation much more worst. Thus, I am pinned down right now. I am sorry if some of my colleagues noticed that I am moody or being quiet today. Now you know right. Thanks.

A series of unfortunate bits?

Good thing this time is that I am staying in a better house somewhere around the 'H' area. On the other hand, we're isolated from the rest of the scholars and there are no cooking utilities - you know, oven and the whole thing. There is no refrigerator at all. On top of that, the aircons in our rooms seems to be not working properly at all. So yeah, I didnt sleep so well last night. It was so warm that i woke up in the middle of the night and took some heaven & earth tea. Im going to complain this matter to the techinician later though just to clarify some bits of pieces.

So here i am at my desk blogging while waiting for my supervisor to call me and my colleague over his desk to be explained something related to our attachment.

Rolling love

I will be starting my attachment tomorrow. Im actually reluctant to be honest. Staying at home and spending with family are things that i really the most for now. Working's fine as its part of the agreement. I just dont like being away from the family. Maybe im the type of person who sometimes can get too attached to certain people or places.

Anyways i had been watching taiwanese series Rolling Love for during the last few days. It was really great. I just love it. Romantic. And what's even worse is that my taiwanese series addiction slowly coming back, inch by inch engulfing meself wholly. So i decided to stop after watching episode 7 =)

I think xiao shu will be with Leng Lie in the end. I do hope she'll end up with Michele instead though =p

Giving Up

Im getting tired with something. Im sorry. But i have to let this out sooner or later. I tried to send some texts through msn only to find out that i didnt receive any replies. In the end, im on the verge of giving up.

Masing-masing is just 'busy' with their 'partner' i guess. I dont care nomore if they dont have time to hang out or even do the reunion with me this year. Crap that stuff. I have many other friends that i can spend time with though i have to admit that im not that close with them. All i wanted is to berkesempatan to give bits of pieces to certain mates of mine. But judging the way how things are right now, I better leave them alone then. Alang-alang, i will just keep them with me or if i sesak, i would move to some alternatives which i thought of tadi.

Its just, i am annoyed =) owh well, some things are rather disappointing at times right?

Wywy with Jo & Iznan

Hanged out with two of my closemates this afternoon. Good thing Jo didnt mind to fetch me from home. Both of them were planning to watch ice age 3 at mall today and Jo was trying so hard to persuade me but too bad, all his efforts were in vain =p sorry guys. Plus,my mom discorages us kids to watch wayang too given the H1N1 situation.

So changed the plan to hanging out at wywy instead. It was great since i havent seen Jo in ages! But we still keep in touch via the internet though. Thanks guys. Do text me up if you guys are planning to bawa me hangout again yeah =)

Heathrow Airport - I made it through

26th June
Went to the train station around 1.30pm to go to Manchester Airport which roughly took an hour or so. I got BMI flight from Manchester to Heathrow so its kinda pretty convenient though I had to pay 80gbp for excess of 10kg since their baggage allowance is only 20kg - I just hope I can claim that 80gbp. Otherwise I would think of going straight on to heathrow next time im going back to Brunei. Departed from Manchester Airport around 6.40pm. Passing through the security was really tiring since all the belt and stuffs had to be put in the trays. My jeans was baggy after i removed my belt hence i exposed some bits of my brief - how lucky the people to see that ;p its rare of me to reveal some bits of my underwear to the public X) kidding there.

Anyways, I have been spending almost 9 hours now in Heathrow, good thing I managed to get myself some sleep. There were some people sleeping here too menawhile waiting for their flight i guess, now its around 18 minutes to 6am and there are lots of people walking here and there with their baggages. Brunei Baby. 1 day to go - around 20 hours more to go I guess ( 16 hours of flight from heathrow to Dubai, then Dubai to Brunei + 4 hours of waiting for departure). Didnt think that i could withstand 9 hours in the airport, almost gave up lol.

Feeling hungry and thirsty, bought myself Millie's cookies and two bottle of soft drinks. A good deal 5.99gbp for 12 cookies and i still have 5 with me right now. Too sweet i guess =p

Wrapping up my Cervera Fieldtrip

26th June - ~5.27am@Heathrow Terminal 3
Two weeks fieldtrip in Spain was wonderful though i have to agree it can be exhausting at times - almost everyday!

Let's see what we did along the course. Mainly mapping I guess since that's the main objective, familiarizing the students with mapping so that they can expect what things they will face during their independent mapping next term. Scary it may sound for me, yet its part of becoming a geologist I guess so i must be confident during the independent mapping next year =|

Had some blisters and terrible sunburns. Now my skin around the shoulder started to peel off. The most severe one was during the reccy exercise on friday which i thought to be an insect bite. Now I know how painful sunburn is X) my bad though for wearing sleeveless during a sunny day in the field. On top of that, I lost my compass-clino around the boggy area. Its lost forever since my tutor and the second group didnt manage to see my compass-clino lying somewhere around the bog. Talking about bad luck.

At times, my height phobia would distract me from climbing the hills especially when i dont feel secured and safe with the level of steepness. But I did climb up La Verdiana though only because i was forced to as we had to draw a sketch a massive view stretching from Santa Maria towards another place which im not sure with the name X) I had to admit that it was so challenging during the first few days hiking up and down. Eventually, my muscles started to adapt to the daily vigorous activity. Still, hiking up early in the morning wasnt fun at all. I even 'terjatuh' and fell down on spikes hence my palm got "shots" due to the spikes. One of them managed to pierce through the skin, a bad experience I guess. X) thanks to Gauze(perhaps the wrong spelling?)

Anyways, the fieldtrip taught me to be tough and never give up sometimes. Yeah its really wonderful when you managed to hike up the hills and see the sceneries. The best thing in fieldtrip is that you'd have the opportunity to get close up with nature. Its not an indirect or virtual interaction. Its just you and nature head on, one-to-one interaction which is interesting as you get more exposed to the geology and hence, understand more.

Liverpool, How Nostalgic

Im going to leave Liverpool soon for the rest of the summer. Will be goingto Manchester Airport soon around 1.30pm-ish from Mulberry court. Mixture of feelings to be honest, one part of you says you're happy since you're going back but the other half says you're sad cuz you're leaving Liverpool which has been acting like your second home ever since you started your first year last September.

Im sure going to miss Liverpool especially the hall that im living in this term. Glad that i had some time to allocate for taking some pictures just now. Im nervous too as I am going to Manchester Airport on my own. But I have to do this sooner or later. Lone ranger is kinda good once awhile, dont you think so?

I didnt have a proper rest ever since i got back from my fieldtrip last two days. Did my laundry straight on. Then started to pack for storage. Good thing the storage went well yesterday. Went back to hall and decided to go to the city after resting for a bit. By the time I got back again, its time for me to pack for today. So yeah. I hope i can rest after arriving heathrow as I am going to wait there more than 12 hours. Would be so tiring =.=" What to do, as long as Im going back to Brunei, that's fine X) I think. . .

Deeper

I should be posting this last night and due to the internet, this post is published now.


It feels reallly weird when you suddenly become sentimental near midnight after getting some nap. On top of that you're tired after the hiking up and down La Verdiana which is around 1700 feets above the ground. Enough of my fieldwork yeah. Let me talk about something more private and a bonus for my reader since I decided to make it public =p nyeh nada deh joking there.

Changed my twitter's display picture when i was so crazy i guess...it was yesterday. But I dont know why i feel that I dont want to change it at all. In denial perhaps? Entah. Its inevitably hard to explain actually. I am certain that I may not that have "thing". You know, THE "thing". I should be direct instead right? Perhaps im just embarrassed for now X)

Im feeling like a jerk really. But I cant control it. Being cold to a person who's constanlty being generous to you actually. Ignore the fact that the person has kept some photos of you in her office or room. Sounds weird, yeah i know, obsession I guess. But the point is that the bad lammo guy here is me. Yeah ME, Aizril. Why? simply because that i constantly treating her cold whenever she text me. Answered her question, there that's it. No asking back or some sort. AND i did that many times knowing that Im being bad to her but keep on repeating it. ITs just plain rude and unfair. But I dont know why i cant prevent that from happening. I cant pretend, i tend to be direct. I cant pretend I like someone, i cant hide it from my body language, the way I treat people and so forth.

Perhaps, I am sympathize her hence. . . yeah I think so. If i were to have feelings on a person, I would surely treat that person with you know, the thing that you have when you have a relationship. Unlike now, one side's being cold to the bottom of ice cubes floating nicely on your orange squash =p anyways, I feel motivated a bit after chatting with dad yesterday during our day off. Who knows that dad actually did somethings related to mapping so dad knows about the triangular method =D thanks dad. After chatting with my mom, i suddenly miss my dad. Yeah people, i love my dad i love my mom. Apakan~ X)

Buenos Nanches!

Getting along with my colleagues

I should put "some" there =p anyways the fieldtrip's getting interesting as the outcrops have relationships with each other and there is such thing as "box fold" which is cool by the way since the fold structure produced has box features.

This evening's the deadline for our mapping which stretched from Pena El Sol to 1643 hill and Pena Cebollero(croc's head). Of all those three, I really dislike 1643 hill since it is so steep and the pathway up is not that nice too compared to Pena El sol. We weren't required to climb croc's head though, thankfully. Despite the height phobia I have, I am glad that I managed to hike up Pena El Sol's peak which is around 1500 feets high. It took a lot of courage for me to hike such height. Whenever I feel insecure, I tend to halt or decelerate my hiking process. Climbing down is such a pain in your sweat buds!

Since there are two bruneians only in this fieldtrip, this provides a lot of room for me to mingle with some of my colleagues who are of different nationalities. So during the past few days I did interact with some of them though and surprisingly, some of them know my names, wait... i should say "remember" yeah that's more like it.

So I am really glad. I do have to admit that there are times that I wish there would be more bruneians joining this fieldtrip but yet again, there's hikmah behind this "loneliness" at least I get to interact with my other colleagues which is cool by the way.

I even sat with some of the lecturers during dinner tonight. It was my bad since I was late coming down to the cafeteria room. And it was cool although i didnt speak that many, I was being a good listener though =p

Lots of new stuffs and experiences i guess, tomorrow will be our next assignment after the 25% mapping. Its gonna be drawing topographic feature and generalized vertical section on some area of the map. It contributes 10% though. And I just knew when we were starting to do the mapping assingment that this fieldtrip worth 30 credits!!! its a LOT for two weeks =/

Being vegetarian for 5 consecutive days is okay though, I even reluctant to eat fish. Tonight the vegetarians are served with mushroom,some other vegetable bits bathed with olive oil perhaps and combined with bits of eggs. I had to eat something so I just chomped them up leaving only asparagus I think. It was good. Im learning to eat vegetables here. Good stuffs. Good for your skin too =D

Geology-ish

I am so tired right now and I SHOULD be sleeping too...I will surely be sleepy again tomorrow morning then~mannn...hiking up and down everyday..tomorrow will be the fourth day..I even finished 1 L water by the end of the day..really dehydrated i guess..the weather was so hot today..I think I got tanned already =.="

I will never give up. I was struggling with mapping though since i was so blurred. On top of that the heat spoilt my mood. And i was demotivated as well. Too obsessed with precision and accuracy i guess.

Adios.

Fieldtrip

Started my fieldtrip since yesterday - All i can say for now is that it's physically DEMANDING AND I was almost to the point of giving up especially when it comes to hiking =s

We had to climb up Pena El So..seriously, it is so steep! Plus I have a height phobia too..Its around 1500feets so we had to climb up but not till its peak though since we just analyzing the massive and bedded limstones there - some are biomicrites with crinoids, bryozoan algae and corals too. Basically, we just did some reconnaissance for some of our mapping area.

The hostal is good too onsidering the fact that I keep the room all to myself..clumsy luck i guess..syukur =) and the foods are okay too since the cooker knows that some of us are vegetarians. The fiedltrip part is exhausting that I even finished up my 1 L(almost 1 L though) of water by the end of the day.

We even have to wake up early since breakfast is around 7.30am and we must go to the square waiting for the bus to fetch us up by 8.15am. Its SO TIRING...and I have to go to bed immediately after THIS!

L.O.V.E xxx

I am so selfish when it comes to relationships, yes an undeniable truth i guess, i usually dont consider the other side's feelings. I would just rather tell the truth only then things will start to get okay and not messed up. I know im not good at this thing, I can be sensitive, yes it is true but I am totally lack of sensitivity when it comes to dealing with girls, undeniable truth =)

Its just I dont trust strangers easily especially those that i havent met outisde the "msn world" if you know what I mean. People expressing their feelings over the internet for some are acceptable, unfortunately i have to admit I am not optimistic and naive like i used to be. Saying that, I am glad though since some things can be so unexpected at times. . .But didnt mean to say that "cinta internet" doesnt exist and those who believes it are naive =) I too believe it but such thing wont happen to me I guess. . .I can be stubborn at times.

So I better leave my situation in this kind of thing as it is since I would prefer to be honest and straightforward. Its better to tell the truth sooner than later as things would get complicated especially when a person starts to be obsessed with that other person. Plus, I think I am not ready for such thing. Perhaps, a natural mechanism inside me somehow deactivates the love-o-rama chemicals. I mean, not ready for a serious relationship =)

Aizril's thought

I'm wondering how things in our lives can be affected by such small puny matter. Its like you're in a situation where tiny stuff is considered to be a wholly HUGE one and sometimes you wonder if there are any valid reasons for such "conversion" - In the end, you would realize that either you did something wrong or perhaps there's something wrong with the other side. After awhile, I started to be ignorant about it. What's concern me is just the sin i made to the person or people hoping that they would forgive me which is a a hard thing to do.

Sometimes life is just too painful to go through, still you must endure it only then you can learn new stuffs. Never regret cuz there's always "hikmah di sebaliknya". Its normal that the person whom we talked to said something that is unacceptable to us simply because its contradicting since there can be times that the stuffs one said to us are undeniably frustrating right to the edge of your emotions. For instance, a person complaining to you how bad you are to him/her as you dont understand his/her situation at times. Nevertheless, I sometimes wonder what if I say the same thing to him/her? Would I receive the same reply just like the reply i gave to that person? The answer is No. Its just hurtful when you know that you can actually something to protest against some of the sayings but what's the point anyway?

It would just make things complicated. Egoistic. Ego of not wanting to being submissive. I too face such unwanted trait. This is the time when your patience is tested and how far you can suppress your ego. Its just sad that friendship can be affected by such a small misunderstanding. Kalau couple di fahami lah ah ;p

anyways, I think if a friendship can worsen due to tiny unimportant stuff then personally i think, its not worth to put such friendship into your "cherishable friendships zone" as you would end up being upset in the end.

Its just how things work around here. You did something and the next thing you know its like you ruined a person's favourite Fiorelli handbag or console. What's contradictng is that when the same person did the same thing to us, he/she would just consider the act as not important - in other words, being ignorant. If so, what's the point of that person being so serious about such thing but when it comes to the moment when he/she did that to another person, its just a golly small thing?

I know there are times one might encounter such person. Perhaps im one of them, who knows I just need some guidance and petunjuk dari ilahi =) but be grateful that despite the fact that you have such a friend beside you, who knows there are times that he/she will do something that you consider anda bersenang hati with. We constantly making new friends in our journey of life. Being selective is a natural behaviour since nature too does natural selection of species.

this post is my opinion. Please dont take my words seriously. Just something to share with my readers =)

The Trio from Leeds

Accompanied Trio from Leeds - Kerol,dane & amal to the bus stop near metquarter this morning since they wanted to go to cheshire Oaks. But we went to LFC store near Queens Square court before that.

Since their coach was on 9pm and they already reached Queens square court by 5pm, we went back to my hall. They had their brunch in the kitchen. Since they had to wait few more hours, we were planning to go to Ainfield stadium but looks like its already close - according to a friend of mine here. Probably will take the tour next term and hopefully the three of them are still interested by that time. Hence, they agreed together to buy tickets for 6.30pm from Liverpool. We left this hall around 6.15pm and we had to rush to the coach station and lucky us we managed to arrive few minutes before 6.30pm only to find out that its delayed for 15 minutes. The running was a good exercise for our fieldtrip though.

Seeing the three of them off really made me sad. I even waited till their coach out of my eyesight. Yeah, I have such habit. I know it would make me more sad especially knowing that i would be alone here again but I just feel that I like to do so especially friends who are dearest to ne. I must be strong!

Another story is that Azrin, Hj.deni and Cg.Sara went to Liverpool for a day trip. I encountered them in the city though as i wanted to buy some of my fieldtrip necessities. And i was being weird and rude actually as I saw them when we were actually several metres away and I quickly turned right toward the queens court. Then I realized what the heck I was doing. I felt so bad after that. At first I thought that takut to bother them since I didnt receive any texts pasal minta tolong so i thought i would just get in their way to enjoy Liverpool. Then i decided to see them off when i was in Cotsworld to buy hiking shoes. And boy I am so glad I did that otherwise I would feel so guilty till now macam avoid orang as if they did something wrong to me padahal nada. Crazy right? X)

Before that I stumbled upon a senior of mine who happened to be searching for Bose earphone so i decided to accompany him sama jua bored kan. So yeah, I am glad that I made the decision to see them off since i told my mate that probably I wont able to meet him since the city so big. Seeing them off too made me somewhat sad. I think its probably due to the fact that the three mulberrians are not here beside me anymore. I just have get used to this then X) I am strong.

Received something precious yesterday - This is Azree. There's a meaning behind it which is cool. Perhaps I will keep it for next term.

What I did in Leeds

I glad I changed my mind to go to Leeds cuz it was wonderful. I planned to sleep at Kerol's during the first night and azrin's the next night since i just got two nights there. It turned out that I slept at Kerol's for both nights since Yumni's changed her mind too =p i was reluctant actually cuz i was so determined to sleep at my close mate's room. I went to Leeds five times and I slept at my close mate's room for the first four. Lastly, I made a decision to agree to yumni's suggestion. When I think of it now, its fair for kerol's since the fifth time i went leeds barutah I slept ar kerol's/aqim's place.

We slept in the morning though around 2-4am if im not mistaken, Azrin suggested that we watch "sindelbolong"(i dont know the exact spelling though) using iemah's ps3 - Youtube. I think the two consecutive nights were somewhat like bachelor nights or guys' nights since there were five of us -kerol,aqim,azrin,alep and me sleeping in the living room. So it was really great despite the lack of masculine sleeping hours X)

Yumni came the next day which was wednesday. We had a bbq sponsored by Hj.Deni and Cg.Sara who're living near Kerol and aqim in the afternoon. The bbq was wonderful and i managed to record them playing handball which i already uploaded to facebook. I wanted to join in but there were dogs by that time, so its a "no-play" for me. I felt so guilty after Hj.Deni told us that we shouldnt show our "unwillingness" of dogs towards their owner. Basically its kinda rude for him as the dogs can be considered as his friends. In the end, i tried to endure my phobia by sitting in the center of my other friends including yumnie and azrin.

We had another plan during the evening which was to watch movie. We planned to make it 9.30pm Terminator Salvation but the tickets sold out so Aqim telephoned me to inform us that we shall go for 9.45pm Star Trek. By that evening, I was already looked so exhausted and my close mate being sooo caring asked me to swallow the caffeine pill. What the...Pill bah tu =x i rather drink coffee! or do it naturally like dancing like a crazy peacock in the streets nyeh i was joking =) I was lying to that mate of mine that i already took one but turned out he didnt fell for it. See, sampat lagi tu aku manja, guess that what happens when Im so tired - attention seeker kali..kali lah ah HAHAHAHA

We went to Spenceley before that to fetch up my wallet, plan kan tarus bawa bag ku but inda jua jadi cuz we were running out of time. So terus ke city. Sampai, something happened when we were about to enter the room. I bought the ticket using self-service machine and apparently i just took the receipt only. So I rushed myself down towards the machine and lucky me, the ticket was lying down nearby the machine. Even my mate pun kata aku cuai. And being angry with the situation as well the impateience, i was really angry so I think i can be so sensitive with the things people say to me. So yes, i did mad at my mate lol.when im mad, i just ignore the people im mad at so its okay haha. Its because banyak saja halangan, kan ke leeds pun ada-ada saja till i was about to cancel my trip and now, the ticket lagi. I was really being impatience. My bad.

The 2nd night at kerol's macam biasa tidur akhir. In the morning, yumnie was waiting for her turn to take shower since her coach was around 10am something. Kerol's was using the other toilet and yumnie thought he was using the one with the shower so she waited for nothing to be precise, kesian ia hahaha(tapi jahat jua aku ketawakan tu ;p). I played lips while waiting for amal and azrin to return home from seeing yumnie off. Played singstar the day before so I can say that im sick of lips and singstar for now X)

My coach was around 6pm and afi decided to join azrin to see me off. I felt sad parting with my friends but its natural to feel that yatah one of the reason i hate to travel alone especially at time like this. Balik, Im alone again in this hall. But im strong =).

EXTRA :-

Due to my mates di Leeds, im addicted to Gee Gee Gee baby baby baby by SNSD and yumnie from Notts, The Calling wherever you will go. X)

Leeds tomorrow

I will be going to Leeds tomorrow - will be departing via coach at 12pm according to schedule. At first, i didnt want to go to Leeds which i actually planned earlier before i had my exam. The moment when i knew that i would be alone here in my room i told khairul Syazwan and Azrin about my plan. And me, being a bad guy wanted to cancel it. I even kept on brainwashing my mind, silly me. Perhaps, one of the reasons is that I dont like to feel sad when i part with my friends especially with a closemate of mine there just like when I saw hajah and iznan leaving liverpool, coincidentally seeing naida and khaty too leaving liverpool the following day. Thus, its best that I just adapt myself to the current situation that i am in right now.

Anyways, Azrin told me that some of my nottingham mates are going to Leeds as well, that really changed my mind hence i decided to go for it, I will be back by thursday though. Now i am feeling that my holiday is shrinking and the next time i know is that i will be going to liverpool airport for my fieldtrip.

26th-28th May - Hajah and Iznan farewell

Didnt do much after the trip to blackpool theme park. Well, I should say I didnt do much compared to naida and the other two munchkins, cawir I mean hajah and iznan =) we, the mulberrians had to pack things up for our storage on tuesday since wednesday was the only day our landlord can attend to us and friday would be a bad idea since naida's going to London on that day. I was so stressed up when i started to pack some of my stuffs. I dont know why though - stress plus sadness. Stress perhaps due to the fact that i had lots of stuffs to pack and sad perhaps knowing the fact that hajah and iznan going back to London on thursday and the following day is naida and khaty's final day in mulberry court since their flight was on 30th May.

Naida and the other two watched a movie two days in the row though which i didnt join for both X) I preferred to stay at home to rest. Now Im kinda grateful for feeling sad "incit-incit" cuz the effect wont be devastating~the moment iznan and hajah went home, i felt really sad, maybe its because i had so much fun when we hanged out together just like during last month when we went to London and spent some time together. The following day, i told naida and khaty that i wont see them off but i did and its not a bad choice after all. I DID feel really sad knowing the fact that my block would be so quiet after they went back to Brunei.

I even took the opportunity to feel what its like to leave mulberry court after asking naida how she felt about leaving our hall. Yeah, i too felt the same so i must prepare for that when its my turn to leave the hall. Feeling down, I chatted with a 3rd year senior here and felt so good after that since she told me that i could come to their apartment if i want to, that made feel really good. And now, though the feelings sometimes can be slightly sad but i know, this is one of the things that I must endure in my conquest of being a geologist.

I heard a nasyid song in Pelangi "tempuhi walau seorang diri..." that really inspired me so much and gave me strength =)

Blackpool Theme Park & Iznan's 20th Birthday - 25th May

Just like we planned during the exam, off we went to Blackpool theme park on monday 25th May. There five of us including leevoi. Went to blackpool pleasure beach via train - limestreet station to Preston, then we changed train from there straight on to blackpool pleasure beach.

Arrived there around the morning so that we could play some of the rides and most importantly not to waste the 25pds we spent on the all day unlimited ride wristband! It was okay though and not all rides are for free(if you purchase the wristband) as the go-kart costs you 4.20pds if im not mistaken hence we didnt play it. Naida and iznan ride on the rollercoaster which costs you 7 tokens without the wristband and 1 token = 1pd so I think its more economic for rollercoaster maniacs to buy the wristband instead.

anyways, I didnt ride on any sort of the rollercoaster thingy cuz basically i have a height phobia BUT I did try riding the "horizontal" rollercoaster simply because it looks so nice since its like you're riding a horse then it goes all the way. Turned out I freaked out when i ride that thing! ride it with iznan and I was on the front that time, it was a BAD BAD choice! Its kinda fast actually and i did scream actually~sekadar kan? lol iznan didnt scream in fact he enjoyed it, unlike me wishing that it would be over QUICKLY.

Bumper cars, merry grounds(I dont know that thing punya nama) - both the children punya(cuz its much slower and smaller than the other one) and derby racer which i consider untuk orang besar cuz its much faster =D

We even tried Alice ride only to find out its kinda boring..its actually for children pulang but it looks awesome. So banyak children lah riding that thing with their parents and fortunately, Hajah and naida accompanied me hehehe.

Tried the rocket thing, which I reluctant to give a try at first. It was okay till the point when that thing macam kan spin sangat-sangat and therefore, i didnt feel its safe hence didnt really like it lol.

I love the mascots there and took the opportunity to take a picture with one of them. Not all of them are free though since there is photographer accompanying each mascot masatu. In one particular area saja that time it was free for people to take pictures with.

Other rides okay lah, one of them we got wet and therefore we tried another ride which is similar only to find out that we didnt get wet banyak-banyak =D

As for lunch, since I was not sure there is halal foods there we decided to bring some foods along - tuna mayonnaise sandwhich with sweetcorns. Sweet lah kami atu HAHA we sat at this cafe and buka tia containers to munch on the sandwhiches so basically its like we were having a picnic. In the end,we did find a halal fast food inside the park which is cool. Inda apalah, save jua usin kami sikit kan =D

Before we went home, took a stroll along the black pleasure beach. Too bad it was gloomy, no sun but as long as you got some great friends with you, its like the sun's with you =) especially the moment that Iznan did a "weird but funny" dance when i sang "pohon beringin kain nya songket!" Really im not good at remembering lyrics lol

Which reminds me we did go inside an illusion room macam easily get lost but i think ada specific pathway lah but then I wasnt confident. We went inside together, cawir lol i even held some of their hands HAHAHA! panat but it was fun =D

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We were exhausted after arriving home, I even didnt have the strength to cook them dinner so we decided to go for home delivery from Touch of Spice.

Stayed up till 2am cuz its iznan's 20th birthday!

Happy birthday Iznan!

And of course, there were cakes too and presents tradition orang hari jadi tah tu X)

We were so tired so sampai 2am something saja we managed to stay up. And we did something funny, first the three of us suapkan Iznan his cake then its his turn to do the same thing to EACH of us lol. I was reluctant at first so naida had to push my back so in the end i managed to chomp it! We were so sweet HAHAHA its like macam siblings lol. I will perhaps upload the video here, not in facebook though =D

Gaming at Zaim's house

Zaim invited us to play some video games at his house the next day which was 24th May. Made "cucur ubi manis" for our brunch though i have to admit it didnt turn out as i expected so i really need to improve my "menyucur" skills.

We went there petang and I was planning to stay there for an hour. But we got carried away till night around 10pm. It was great and super fun though I am glad they enjoyed it so I dont feel guilty of not able to keep my words =p

Played Lips and Soul Calibur. Only when it comes to playing Soul Calibur that I would scream like crazy~I know I can be so emotional when it comes to fighting games and what's more is that I have a fetish - I tend to choose female characters maybe they look pretty in their costumes and other reasons too X)

I was so exhausted after we arrived home, maybe because of the screamings I made during Soul Calibur. So I left the task to prepare some lunch for our next plan the next day to Iznan and Nai. We just ate rice with egg and some bits of chips for dinner that night.

Cheshire Oaks - 23rd May

It felt like a dream during the first day I actually habis exam. On with our plan which was going to Cheshire Oaks - Designer factory outlet in Liverpool. From Pierre Cardin to Jane Norman, Cheshire Oaks is sure a good place for you to indulge that high taste fashion of yours. Iznan and Nai will be going there again tomorrow XD

anyways, we went there with Ka nurul's and ka nur's family as well as Zoro. So kira convoy lah tu, getting on the bus at the same time. Sampai sana, barutah we go in seperate ways. Since we, the mulberrians propposed the idea I felt responsible benar-benar. Lucky me facebook is a good thing to update people about certain stuffs.

Didnt buy that much though, balik pun around 3-ish pm since we must go back to Liverpool before 5pm to make sure i can buy some chicken for that night's dinner. So I made them "Ayam panggang Lemon" which i got from the internet. But i have to admit that we're missing some of the ingredients =)

Hajah & Iznan are hanging out with us!

Good news was that both hajah & Iznan came to Liverpool on Friday evening. Its so great to share the joy of "after-exams" with your close mates. So we fetched them up at Limestreet around near to 8pm. There two of us - me & Nai. I was planning to make somewhat a "spanduk" out of A4 paper. Just one piece of paper pulang~a lame idea of mine but didnt manage to do it though since i was so tired as I went to the library to bind some notes on the afternoon.

We went to Super Tesco after we put their things in our rooms. So you can say that ulang-alik lah kami. But it was fun since we were shouting in the store. There were few people only that time so I didnt care so much about the shouts and all. Anyways, i was planning to keep the budget to be 4GBP each for our groceries and looks like we were overbudget since the moment I paid at checkout - it was around 35GBP including barang extra liek hajah's cherries, my squash & peanut butter. I havent calculate the amount each of them has to pay me though. Probably will do that after few days.

Kali malam nya akhir kami tidur. I slept around 2.30am and by the time i laid my head on my pillow, it felt so heavy.

Aizril's 2nd Semester Exam is officially Over!

Dengan ini, Saya, Aizril ingin merasmikan 2nd Semester Exam buat Diriku, course F600 officially habis!!!!!

Syukur Alhamdulillah. Semoga semuanya berjalan dengan lancar buat kita semua amin.

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Structural Geology, You're NEXT!

Tomorrow will be the final paper...finally..after two weeks of stressful period finally come to an end!

It will be structural geology so we're gonna deal with some stereonets for sure, let's do this! We had a short revision class this morning..which last for one and a half hour since our lecturer had something to do after 11.30-ish am. A great lecturer, finally I understand how to do the rotation on stereonets =)

Not many of us came though since there were no emails sent plus he wrote on the board a bit later during our mapping exam on last wednesday so by that time, many students already went out of the exam room.

anyways, im so happy that hajah, changed her mind on coming over to spend some time with us. Thanks hajah, you dont know how happy I am when naida told me about it ;D anyways, thanks to iznan too for pouting at Hajah...that's what hajah told me though. I didnt pout, i was just hoping, praying that hajah would change her mind (=

It would be awkward if there's no hajah too since we always together ever since last december. Mesti berempat tu~So i think i can cook a bit more since hajah's coming, cool! Im tempted to try "ayam masak tepung" on mesra, on the other hand roasted chicken is'nt a bad idea at all...hmmm Iznan and Hajah are my loyal "guinea pigs" I just hope my cookings will be good since both of them are coming over dari jauh, mesti nyaman-nyaman kalau boleh, Jia You!

wait, i should stop thinking about what to cook, revision Azree, revision!!!

FREAKED OUT by Ipod nano?

Seriously, i was panic because of THIS

I was playing with bidding as usual musim exam~then i realized i was the highest bidder for three ipods and realizing that i was almost won the second one really made me feel worried. Since im not sure whether my little sister would be okay with 13pds for the price. And guess what, first i won the metallic blue for 13gbp and then i won the black(a bit brownish perhaps) for 13.50gbp. Called my big sister to tell about it and told her that i was on the way to win the bidding on the third one. So she told me its alright since her bf interested too. No wonder. Ada hikmah di sebalik nya rupanya =)

Rezeki adikku and kakaku th tu..but my luck ran out when i found out that the third ipod atu i lose the bidding..the person bid 16gbp..i bid for 15pds only..then at the end, i decided to check the final price..it was 20pds =s

One more week!

Tomorrow will be the 4th paper - Introduction to Geological Maps which will take about 3 hours and I should be grateful till now since my sister told me that their papers took 3 hours including the written ones unlike my metamorphism and other modules including fossils and sedimentology which took around 1 hour 30 minutes, yet we had to manage our time wisely during the exam especially in deciding which points to elaborte hence judging the priority of each point (macam benar...i just write them up lol =.=")

anyways, last weekend i didnt have the mood to revise like i used to, well maybe its because im too exhausted after three consecutive days of exams - written practical, written and multiple choice. And I think i was feeling the aftermath of the energy i used during revision. Only this morning that i feel that my head's okay. I did revise some bits yesterday though - stereonets. Man, i was struggling to find the methods how to do some of the questions and i believe my other geologists and geophysicists mates would find them easy except for me perhaps -.-

Q.What's the smallest angle between the two lines?
-Struggled at first only to find out you just have to turn the two poles so that they are in same great circle then count the distance between the two poles and there you go, the angle in degrees

Q.What's the pitch of the intersection at surface B?
I think you just have to count from bottom upwards after you turn the strike of surface B on the overlay of the stereonet. Comprehende~and never ever forget to tell the direction ^^

Q.What's the apparent dip of surface A in NE-SW vertical cross section?
I didnt know what this question wants and checked the book "stratigraphic projection techniques" macam atu lah namanya X) and found out apparent dip=plunge and makin tia aku puzzled. Then tried hentam-hentam and got it ^^ in this case turn the NE-SW of your tracing paper onto the overlay of the stereonet. Then, check the intersection of surface A's great circle across the vertical section of the NE-SW atu then there, read it from centre i think or from upwards bottom -.- i forgot.

And i havent try the restoring of structures yet. Man, I hope i dont struggle with that...I WILL though...definitely =.= but all i must do is to believe in myself.

To those who're having exams too right now, Bittaufik Wannajah =)

Not Again~

I hate girls, I wish i was Gay or homosexual - Joking there =)

anyways, I THINK I have this another so called "angau" thing going on right now, and fortunately, its not that too overwhelming...just another pretty girl crossing the zebra line in my life~I believe it will ease out in just a matter of days just like during the picnic that time. Picninc Bruleeds or Bruliv? I rather leave it there =)

besides, some of my friends already know about it since we always spend some time together in the kitchen during dinner. So yeah, *Wink!

I hope i can revise later since I really need to start my structural geology revision, just like what John said, one of the lecturers who's accompanied us during the pembrokeshire fieldtrip - "WE LOVE STEREONETS!" im not really good at stereonets by the way, especially when it comes to restoring back the fold or something =.=" cuz you have to rotate the points...mannn~i can just do simple things like plotting great circles though ^^

Stereonets are somewhat just like a graph but in a shape of a globe or just like "circular" earth(I think there is a claim that earth is not entirely perfect sphere, dont take my words too seriously though) then there are lines running acting like latitude and longitude making them to appear like circula nets~

wish me luck, im not confident with yesterday's paper =s

my weird-ness during exam period!

made on 10th May

EOSC 111 - certainly not my 111

I just had my EOSC111 paper it was just one hour of essay writing...but i had to write quickly since i was worried in case i didnt have enough time to write all my points. As a result, i wrote full 2 pages, side-by-side. Great? no, i am so worried right now since the topics that i am confident with didnt come out..

the ones that were on the exam ---> Southern Alps and Dinosaurs

these were the questions given to us around 1st May :-

1.Discuss, using specific examples, the types of information that allow palaeontologits to reconstruct dinosaurs as living animals. How have our views of dinosaur lifestyles changed over time?

2.Describe using illustrations, the tectonic setting of the Southern Alps of New Zealand and the processes that have contributed to the evolution of this orogenic belt. You should include a discussion of how rates of slip on the Alpine Fault have been determined and what these data mean. What makes this orogenic belt special?

3.Outline the main factores that are thought to have influenced the earth's climate over geological time. What lines of evidence have been used to reconstruct past climates?

4.Outline the methods and phenomena that have been used previously to predict earthquakes. What are the most promising, if any, future methods?


I prepared for all except for 2. Since two out those four will come out, students should prepare for three topics to be on the safe side.

I am happy with climate change since i managed to gather 43 points that i think relevant to what the question wants. Earthquake prediction with 36 points. Dinosaurs of only 30 points. And what's more worrysome is that I am not sure whether the points i collected for Dinosaurs topic were the ones that can help me score some marks during the exam or not =s

EOSC111 comprised of 60% exam and 40% portfolio. So we should use our portfolio that we had prepared as materials during the exam(I think) and i didnt do any research. so I just used my portfolio material only since i was so lazy and prefer not to research and concentrate on revising only.

anyways, i will be having another paper tomorrow at 10am...cruel right? lol..what to do~magmas & Volcanoes, another module that im not confident with..pray for me readers =) thanks.

Metamorphic confusion

i have a story~here it goes...

once upon a time a good looking guy sitting quietly in his room staring outside the window only to find out that he got tonnes of metamorphic theories to remember~okay that was so plain.

i had my first paper yesterday and guess what, it's metamorphism. I was struggling to remember the theories in metamorphism module. So i had to practice writing them by means of using past year papers. Yeah, many of the questions are repetitive so that would make life easy right?

hmmm...on second thought, you're right..but we still have problems in answering the questions..its brilliant to repeat the questions but still, we dont know what our lecturer wants...i still have problem on how to apply the theories...the questions are not direct..i often feel macam nada arah lecture notes the answers nya~ =.="

so im kinda worried actually. No, thats not the end of it. We have two papers actually - theory written and practical based.

and you know what? yesterday was theory written so tomorrow will make it the practical thing~so i was kinda confused at first as i thought yesterday was practical only to find out its actually theory-written G-R-E-A-T =.="

here's the story :-

berjalan tah ku ni ke building law school~since aku nada the campus map i decided to go to the foundation to ambil campus map, sempat lagi tu~lepas itu berjalan tah aku ikut map atu cari building code 120 - Law school rupanya~nice...first time tah ku ni ke law school..selalunya ke laut dan batu school~if you know what i mean...

masuk ke dalam, lawa building nya...kali i saw some of my colleagues..kali im so hairan since mereka busy revising..and what's making me curious adalah mereka baca theory papers..macam banyak mereka baca atu..and this colleague of mine, i saw him selak-belak lecture notes...me being bored masatu pun ikut jua..kes jealous kali? entah lol..

baca-punya baca..skim through saja yoh~sama jua practical kan? =s im not confident plg but then rah lecture notes theories saja~kali sampai dalam tempat bilik pereksa..wow macam mahkamah~tapi spoil mood ku..kenapa nah?

bila masuk bilik pepereksaan barutah saya tahu that hari itu adalah THEORY WRITEEN! baru masuk bilik barutah tahu~terlambat jua tu kan =.=" that was so clumsy of me..kali menyumpah ku masatu..i was panic tia tiba-tiba..yang i remember i sabut adalah "talur" i was hoping that apa yang ku fikir salah..kali lurus rupanya.paper nya sebuting ganya~bah habis tah saya ni =.=" "practical paper" ku turned out to be theory written paper rupanya~

yatahtu kecuaian semasa exam~

Revising-o-rama

I am tired and sleepy...who knows preparing for 2nd semester examination can be so tiring, yet cool at times as you finally understand what your lecturers taught you some "ages" ago...not all of them though, i still coulndt understand some parts =/ *mimomimomimo!!! its the theories siren!!!

anyways, after getting my fieldtrip feedback yesterday, i was demotivated greatly..it felt like i dont have any strength yet to face my papers which will be next week =s yikes...thankfully, God has given me wonderful friends that could comfort me evertime i stumbled on negatives~since i recharged 15gbp for this month's o2 i got unlimited texts and call time to o2 numbers. Called some of my mates in Leeds, Sheffield and Iznan who's in London now to buy souveneirs..hajah was with him though since she wants to revise, hence staying in bruhall for few nights~datang ah kamu dua nanti ke Liverpool, we can have lotsa fun =D I know i shouldnt saying this...its selfish of me..but siuk bah tu apakan =.= lol

I played some ebay bidding and make it offer today..its fun..really~bidding...make some best offers so you can save x amount of % compared to just buy it now..

With BruLeeds

Went to Leeds last weekend...arrived there at friday night..i had to buy a new one way ticket to Leeds since our mapping lecturer decided to take the afternoon to replace a session during bank holiday...i actually should be departing from Liverpool coach station by 4pm but due to the sudden change, i had to choose the 6.30pm dari coach station instead.

Arrived Leeds, close mate's waiting~it was already close to 9pm by the time i arrived at Leeds. Had our dinner at Zam Zam...great foods. Went back straight home~met some bruleeds on our way...Aqim, Dane and the others wanted to watch Wolverine that night..both of us didnt join them though since we were full and i had just arrived. I had motion sickness to while i was in the coach lol.

My close mate showed me his i-cybie which arrived last two days masa atu..glad that he's happy with it since he loves dogs very much, me? no...cats?yeah absolutely HAHAH X)) it's cool by the way as i-cybie can do some tricks including sit and stand on his head(which my mate hasnt know how to make em to that), if you clap once i-cybie will go towards you. It has sensor as well so that it wont just walk through anything..another cool thing, wireless mouse which i was tempted to buy one as well. The price is okay..but i dont know whether i'll find it useful to me or not. Maybe i'll just buy a mouse which radiates some light..i know,i like weird stuffs...lol

The next day, its the Bruleeds Annual spring bbq!

it was great...hyde park, man it's so green, with big trees, i SELDOM see such things here...its so urban here...all i can see are grasses and blocks of buildings (= so hyde park really gave me wonderful mixture of feelings plus the flowers there are so great! LAWA! SO NATURE-ish! see i told you jarang ku liat barang cematu here lol.

Played some games including the caterpillar(using ballons plg tu which im not fond of actually - i hate balloons!), whisper and pyramid.

The whisper atu payah lah. The last person must tell everyone what the passage is(by the time it reaches the last person, there will be a high probability that it would change greatly)

So cute monkey => Stokc-it monkey(see, jauh kan?thats what i said)
Crow => Zacky ( cuz i forgot..since the other person rah the passage was Zirah..i used a person with Z lol)
Rapped => Robbed

They rapped happily ever after => They robbed happily ever after(no wonder macam not making sense but i just said it lol)

the bbq was fun...it was great..just the thing i need before i stress myself with exams and revisions!

so thanks Bruleeds =)


*Another story*

Before i went back, managed to hangout with Cg.Sara and Hj.Deni as well. Had lunch(brunch for me) with them at Zam Zam. Great foods again. Went to Bodyshop after that before we went back to their home to wait untuk masa coach aku.

Thanks to both of them as well


and lastly thanks to a mate of mine for fetching me up, providing me a place to stay...and everything (=

thanks to kerol also for sms-ing time ku di coach..kesian...didnt talk that many with him.

So many to do once i get back to Liverpool

hi there readers, im in Leeds right now..in Spenceley to be precise. The exam's just around the corner..so guarantee ni mate aku banyak kan di buat once i get back to my room!!!

essays...a new mapping assignment =.=" mannnn~im so tired...but okay lah weekend di Leeds kinda cool...the annual bbq spring was great..just the thing i need before i stress myself with revisions and stuffs -.-" okay to be honest..im getting panic deep inside although i dont show it outside,

bercakap tah ku ni

mann, im so tired after the 3 hours of metamorphism this afternoon..it was 4 hours altogether if i include an hour lecture on 11-12pm..had a practical assessment tadi 1 hour..and what's bad i didnt know how to interpret the rock history.all i could think of is the reaction rim, indication of disequilibrium state! im really bad at practical..i always believe so =p ever since dari high school pasanku X)

anyways, lain rasaku yoh~bukan apa..i feel macam ada seseorang semakin obsessed dengan diriku ini...waseh =) melayu standard sikit..bukan plg apa..i answered her call lagi..kali rupanya ia telefon lagi after aku tidur..entah brapa miscalls i received i forgot X|

aku okay plg..but then aku rasa pelik at times cuz aku mula rasa as if i have a wife sudah..macam beristeri as in married padahal here i am~masih lagi dapan laptop waiting for tomorrow to come...ke leeds jua isuk..dapat chill grill ni mate~sementara stress bakas tadi..and what's not good is that i didnt manage to revise apa-apa tonight =.=" mannnnn....slacking off AGAIN!

sila lah tampar diriku ini wahai reader ku*slap~harder!*SLAP...ouch =p just for fun sana...takut saya biskita bosan membaca post-post saya yang serious saja =) anyways esok another tiring day kamu...its gonna be a 6-hours practical..getting ourselves stuffed up with juicy bits of pieces of mapping!

then aku ke leeds after that on 6.30pm depart...so basically i have 1.5hours break lah tu and to go to the coach station.

unusual

I rather be 'rojak' tonight..just finished watching "ku milikmu" episode 16..its a sweet drama on TV3, i usually go a bit "active" everytime i watch it. And im feeling my current lovelife is similar to that drama...its alright though..its just feel weird ;) anyways thats not the point of my post tonight...

I know i shouldnt say this but im feeling that im the one who's acting bad this time. She, on the other hand is actually being my guinea pig which is kinda sad actually. But i cant help it thinking that way about hal the both of us..okay i feel weird "both of us" see i am not ready for this kind of thing...ego? yeah perhaps =)

miscalls, text messages on the phone, msn...those are what i will receive almost everyday...yet, since semester reopens, i seldom have the time to reply...let alone spend some time. We talked over the phone(she called me) but just for few minutes...and i was feeling like a jerk...yes i was doing some work...but then that was not a good reason to act cold to a girl who never did anything bad to you...mannn~excuses....so yeah, i always feel guilty..i dont know why..its just i feel pity towards her. And i dont know why its hard for me to act "macam biasa" maybe its because between kami dua..we cant interact the way "friends" usually interact..i can feel that we just jumped straight in to the thing beyond friends. enough said. im going to bed =)