unusual

I rather be 'rojak' tonight..just finished watching "ku milikmu" episode 16..its a sweet drama on TV3, i usually go a bit "active" everytime i watch it. And im feeling my current lovelife is similar to that drama...its alright though..its just feel weird ;) anyways thats not the point of my post tonight...

I know i shouldnt say this but im feeling that im the one who's acting bad this time. She, on the other hand is actually being my guinea pig which is kinda sad actually. But i cant help it thinking that way about hal the both of us..okay i feel weird "both of us" see i am not ready for this kind of thing...ego? yeah perhaps =)

miscalls, text messages on the phone, msn...those are what i will receive almost everyday...yet, since semester reopens, i seldom have the time to reply...let alone spend some time. We talked over the phone(she called me) but just for few minutes...and i was feeling like a jerk...yes i was doing some work...but then that was not a good reason to act cold to a girl who never did anything bad to you...mannn~excuses....so yeah, i always feel guilty..i dont know why..its just i feel pity towards her. And i dont know why its hard for me to act "macam biasa" maybe its because between kami dua..we cant interact the way "friends" usually interact..i can feel that we just jumped straight in to the thing beyond friends. enough said. im going to bed =)